The rattler began to coil. Soon it would realize that it could not strike at such a distance, and would
attempt to retreat.
Although Travis was certain his shot was clear and easy, he was surprised to discover that he could not
squeeze the trigger. He had come to these foothills not merely to attempt to recall a time when he had
been glad to be alive, but also to kill snakes if he saw any. Lately, alternately depressed and angered by
the loneliness and sheer pointlessness of his life, he had been wound as tight as a crossbow spring. He
needed to release that tension through violent action, and the killing of a few snakes—no loss to
anyone—seemed the perfect prescription for his distress. However, as he stared at this rattler, he realized
that its existence was less pointless than his own: it filled an ecological niche, and it probably took more
pleasure in life than he had in a long time. He began to shake, and the gun kept straying from the target,
and he could not find the will to fire. He was not a worthy executioner, so he lowered the gun and
returned to the rock where he had left his backpack.
The snake was evidently in a peaceable mood, for its head lowered sinuously to the stone once more, and
it lay still.
After a while, Travis tore open the package of Oreos, which had been his favorite treat when he was
young. He had not eaten one in fifteen years.
They were almost as good as he remembered them. He drank Kool-Aid from the canteen, but it wasn’t as
satisfying as the cookies. To his adult palate, the stuff was far too sweet.
The innocence, enthusiasms, joys, and voracities of youth can be recalled but perhaps never fully
regained, he thought.
Leaving the rattlesnake in communion with the sun, shouldering his backpack once more, he went down
the southern slope of the ridge into the shadows of the trees at the head of the canyon, where the air was
freshened by the fragrant spring growth of the evergreens. On the west-sloping floor of the canyon, in
deep gloom, he turned west and followed a deer trail.
A few minutes later, passing between a pair of large California sycamores that bent together to form an
archway, he came to a place where sunlight poured into a break in the forest. At the far side of the
clearing, the deer trail led into another section of woods in which spruces, laurels and sycamores grew
closer together than elsewhere. Ahead, the land dropped steeply as the canyon sought bottom. When he
stood at the edge of the sunfall with the toes of his boots in shadow, looking down that sloped path, he
could see only fifteen yards before a surprisingly seamless darkness fell across the trail.
As Travis was about to step out of the sun and continue, a dog burst from the dry brush on his right and
ran straight to him, panting and chuffing. It was a golden retriever, pure of breed by the look of it. A male.
He figured it was little more than a year old, for though it had attained the better part of its full growth, it
retained some of the sprightliness of a puppy. Its thick coat was damp, dirty, tangled, snarled, full of burrs