
The Blackrush was rank and foul with refuse, but she loved it nonetheless. The movement of its dark,
peat-laden water was as compelling as the heartbeat of a lover. She liked to stand on the bank and smell
the weeds that grew along the edge and watch the gulls that rose and dipped above. It would be foolish
to actually enter the polluted waters, but sometimes she thought about it anyway; imagined the cold water
closing over her head. If she dove down to the bottom, what secrets would she find there?
None. The water’s too murky to see anything, fool.
Mina turned reluctantly away from the water and made her way along Fishwife Lane. Newspaper boys
stood on street corners, crying out the headlines: "New Treaty with Grynnith! Queen Rhiannon to Hold
Greatest Triumph Celebration Ever! Partially-Eaten Corpse Pulled from the Blackrush!"
No shit, she thought sardonically. Fish and crabs would do that to a body that stayed in the water longer
than a day. I suppose it wouldn’t sound so dramatic if they pointed that out, though.
Her cigarette was nearly burning her lips, so she put it out and got another. She had to stand with her
back to the rank wind off the Blackrush to keep the match from blowing out. People moved all around
her, people who had families and friends and real lives that included something more than grinding
twelve-hour shifts at the mill. She drifted through them like a shadow broken loose from its moorings.
Herds of pigs grown sleek and fat from the garbage of the streets jogged past, snorting amongst
themselves, their little eyes wild and smart. Mina envied them.
She turned onto Blackstrap Alley, passed the bars and wild taverns that catered to the men who worked
the wharves. A few sailors loitering in the doorways gave her hard looks. They probably thought that
they were eyeing up a pretty boy. No one bothered her, though, for which she was grateful. She’d never
found herself in a situation down here that she couldn’t handle, but even so, it often seemed like it was
only a matter of time.
She stopped outside the familiar splintered door and wide glass windows of one of the bars. The drinks
served within were advertised in paint on the inside of the window: racehorses, moral suasions, smashers,
and phlegm-cutters. The pub on the other side of the door was a quiet place that didn’t attract the
rowdier sorts. Broken-looking men drank in the corners, their eyes fixed on their mugs. A few women
were scattered among them, but most didn’t look to be soliciting. The clientele here were seldom
boisterous or rich enough to provide for a good whore.
Mina passed them by and slid onto a seat at the dark bar. The man behind the counter was as familiar to
her by now as her own face, but she had never spoken to him beyond the demands of ordering and
paying. "Apple-jack," she said automatically, and he started to fill a dirty glass. She fished in her pocket
for the very last scraps of her pay.
The alcohol burned the inside of her throat but eased some of the ache on the outside. It was a good
thing that the collar couldn’t be removed. Otherwise, Abby would want to know what had happened.
And Mina didn’t have an explanation.
She stared into the depths of her drink, wondering bleakly if it could bring even momentary forgetfulness.
A part of her had spent the last eight years on edge, she acknowledged bitterly, just waiting for another
impossible occurrence. It had been a long time since William died, but she remembered the feeling; as if
her entire body breathed had out, or as if she’d pushed with some invisible muscle that she’d never used
before. There had been that identical instant of euphoria, of complete and utter freedom, before the burn
of the iron collar had dragged her back to earth.
Only the ending had been different: the broken railing, the screams, and William’s shattered body on the