really have a destination. I just wanted to be where I wasn’t.
And I couldn’t stay here. The wall was worse than no protection at all, and the wind was
blowing colder and wetter all the time. I crawled out and made it back up the slope to the road.
There were no headlights in sight; it wouldn’t have helped if there were. Nobody was going to stop
in a sleetstorm in the middle of nowhere to give a lift to a hobo like me. I didn’t have any little sign
to hold up, stating that I was a hardship case, that comfortable middle-class conformity was my
true vocation, that I was an honest young fellow with a year of college who’d had a little hard luck
lately; all I had were the clothes I stood in, a bad cough, and a deep conviction that if I didn’t get
out of the weather, fast, by morning I’d be one of those dead-of-exposure cases they’re always
finding in alleys back of cut-rate liquor stores.
I put my back to the wind and started off, hobbling on a couple of legs that ended somewhere
below the knee. I didn’t notice feeling tired anymore, or hungry; I was just a machine somebody
had left running. All I could do was keep putting one foot in front of the other until I ran down.
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I saw the light when I came up over a rise, just a weak little spark, glowing a long way off in the
big dark beyond the trees. I turned and s tarted off across the open field toward it.
Ten minutes later, I came up behind a big swaybacked barn with a new-looking silo beside it
and a rambling two story house beyond. The light was shining from a ground-floor window. There
was a pickup parked in the side yard near the barn, and a late-model Cadillac convertible, with the
top down. Just looking at it made me ten degrees colder. I didn’t have any idea of knocking on the
door, introducing myself: “Billy Danger, sir. May I step inside and curl up in front of the fire?”—
and being invited to belly up to a chicken dinner. But there was the barn; and where there were
barns, there was hay; and where there was hay, a man could snuggle down and sleep, if not warm,
at least not out in the freezing rain. It was worth a try.
The barn door looked easy enough: just warped boards hanging on big rusted-out hinges; but
when I tried it, nothing budged. I looked closer, and saw that the hinges weren’t rotted after all;
they were just made to look that way. I picked at a flake of paint on the door; there was bright
metal underneath. That was kind of strange, but all it meant to me then was that I wouldn’t be
crawling into that haystack after all.
The sleet was coming down thicker than ever now. I put my nose up and sniffed, caught a whiff
of frying bacon and coffee that made my jaws ache. All of a sudden, my stomach remembered its
complaint and tried to tie itself into a hard knot. I went back through tall weeds past some rusty
iron that used to be farm machinery, and across a rutted drive toward the silo. I didn’t know much
about silos except that they were where you stored the corn, but at least it had walls and a roof. If
I could get in there, I might find a dry spot to hide in. I reached a door set in the curved wall; it
opened and I slid inside, into dim light and a flow of warm air.
Across the room, there was an inner door standing open, and I could see steps going up: glass
steps on chrome-plated rails. The soft light and the warm air were coming from there. I went up,
moving on instinct, like the first fish crawling out on land, reached the top and was in a room full
of pipes and tubes and machinery and a smell like the inside of a TX set. Weary as I was, this
didn’t look like a place to curl up in.
I made it up another turn of the spiral stair, came out in a space where big shapes like cotton
bales were stacked, with dark spaces between them. There was a smell like a fresh-tarred road
here. I groped toward the deepest shadow I could find, and my hand touched something s oft. In the
faint light from the stairwell it looked like mink or sable, except that it was an electric-blue color. I didn’t
let that worry me. I crawled up on top of the stack and put my face down in the velvety fluff and
let all the strings break at once.
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