female, and that they disciplined errant colts by driving them away from the safety of the herd. Alone the colt
would become fearful, for predators would soon descend on a single pony. After a while the mare would allow
the recalcitrant beast back into the fold. Thus chastened it would then remain obedient. Varaconn used a similar
technique in training ponies. He would isolate a wild horse in his circular paddock, then, with a snap of his rope,
set it running around the inner perimeter of the fence. The instinct of a horse was always to run from danger, and
only when safe would it look back to see what had caused its fear. Varaconn kept the pony running for a while,
then, not knowing Meria was watching him, he dipped his shoulder and turned away from the mare. The pony
dropped her head and moved in close to him. Varaconn continued to walk, slowly changing direction. The mare
followed his every move. As he moved he spoke to the mare in a soft voice and finally turned to face her,
rubbing her brow and stroking her sleek neck.
'You talk to horses more easily than you talk to women,' said Meria. Varaconn had blushed deep red.
'I'm . . . not a talker,' he said. Trying to ignore her he continued to work with the pony, and within an hour
was riding it slowly around the paddock. Occasionally he would glance towards Meria. She had not moved.
Finally he dismounted, took a deep breath, and walked to where she waited. Shy and insular, he did not look into
her eyes. Even so he saw enough to fill his heart with longing. She was wearing a long green dress, and a wide
belt, edged with gold thread. Her long dark hair, save for a top braid, was hanging loose to her shoulders, and her
feet were bare.
'You want to buy a pony?' he asked.
'Perhaps. Why did the mare suddenly start to obey you?' she asked.
'She was frightened. I made her run, but she didn't know what the danger was. Did you see her snapping her
mouth as she ran?'
'Yes, she looked very angry.'
'That was not anger. Foals do that. She was reverting to infant behaviour. She was saying to me, "I need help.
Please be my leader." So I dropped my shoulder and gently turned away. Then she came to me and joined my
herd.'
'So you are her stallion now?'
'In truth that would make me the lead mare. Stallions do the fighting, but a mare will command the herd.'
'Ruathain says you are a great fighter and a good man.' This surprised him and he glanced briefly at her face
to see if she was mocking him. Her eyes were green. Large eyes. So beautiful. Not the green of grass or summer
leaves, but the bright, eternal green of precious stones. Yet they were not cold . . .
'Now you are staring at me,' she chided.
Varaconn blinked and looked away guiltily. She spoke again. 'Ruathain said you stood beside him against the
Pannones, and broke their charge.'
'He is too kind. He knows I was too frightened to run,' he admitted. 'Ruathain was like a rock - the only safe
place in a stormy sea. I've never known anyone quite like him. The battle was chaotic - screaming men, clashing
swords. It was all so fast and furious. But Ruathain was calm. He was like a god. You could not imagine him
being hurt.'
She seemed annoyed, though he did not know why. 'Yes, yes, yes,' she said. 'Everyone knows Ruathain is a
hero. He wanted to marry me. I said no.'
'Why would you say no? He is a wonderful man.'
'Can you really be so foolish, Varaconn?' she said, then turned and strode away.
Totally confused he had carried the problem to Ruathain. The powerful, blond-haired young warrior had been
out with three of his herdsmen, building a rock wall across the mouth of a gully in the high north valley. 'Every
damn winter,' said Ruathain, heaving a large slab into place, 'some of my cattle get trapped here. Not any more.'
Varaconn dismounted and helped the men for several hours. Then, during a rest break, Ruathain took him by the
arm and led him to a nearby stream.
'You didn't come all the way up here to build a wall. What is on your mind, my friend?' Without waiting for
an answer he stripped off his shirt, leggings and boots and clambered out into the middle of the stream. 'By
Taranis, it is cold,' he said. The water was no more than a few inches deep, flowing over white, rounded pebbles.
Ruathain lay down, allowing the water to rush over his body. 'Man, this is refreshing,' he shouted, rolling onto
his belly. Varaconn sat by the stream and watched his friend. Despite the awesome power of the man, his broad,
flat face and his drooping blond moustache, there was something wonderfully childlike about Ruathain; a
seemingly infinite capacity to draw the maximum joy from any activity. The warrior splashed water on his face,
ran his wet fingers through his hair, then rose and strode to the water's edge. He grinned at Varaconn. 'You
should have joined me.'
'I need your advice, Ru.'
'Are you in trouble?'
'I do not believe so. I am merely confused.' He told him about Meria's visit. As he spoke he saw the young
warrior's expression harden, only to be replaced by a look of sadness. Varaconn cursed himself for a fool.
Ruathain had asked Meria to marry him. He obviously loved her too! 'I am sorry, Ru. I am an idiot,' he said.