about Jackson Browne, who played the Civic Center last night and put on a kick-ass show,
according to George Pelsen, who was there.
'I'll tell you something else that was kick-ass,' George says, looking at them impressively. He
raises his undershot chin, showing them all a red mark on the side of his neck. 'You know what
that is?'
'Hickey, ain't it?' Kent Astor asks, a bit timidly.
'You're fuckin-A,' George says. 'I was hanging around the stage door after the show, me and a
bunch of other guys, hopin to get Jackson's autograph. Or maybe, I don't know, David Lindley.
He's cool.'
Kent and Sean Robideau agree that Lindley is cool — not a guitar god, by any means (Mark
Knopfler of Dire Straits is a guitar god; and Angus Young of AC/DC; and — of course —
Clapton), but very cool just the same. Lindley has great licks; he has awesome dreads, as well.
All down to his shoulders.
Beaver doesn't join in the talk. All at once he wants to get out of here, out of this stale going-
nowhere bar, and cop some fresh air. He knows where George is going with this, and it's all a lie.
Her name wasn't Chantay, you don't know what her name was, she blew right past you like
you weren't there, what would you be to a girl like her anyway, just another working-class
longhair in another working-class New England town, into the band bus she went and out of
your life. Your fuckin uninteresting life. The Chantays is the name of the group we're listening to,
not the Mar-Kets or the BarKays but the Chantays, it's 'Pipeline' by the Chantays and that thing
on your neck isn't a hickey it's a razor burn.
He thinks this, then he hears crying. Not in the Free Street but in his mind. Long-gone crying.
It goes right into your head, that crying, goes in like splinters of glass, and oh fuck, fuck me
Freddy, somebody make him stop crying.
I was the one who made him stop, Beaver thinks. That was me. I was the one who made him
stop. I took him in my arms and sang to him.
Meanwhile George Pelsen is telling them about how the stage door finally opened, but it
wasn't Jackson Browne who came out, not David Lindlev, either; it was the trio of chick singers,
one named Randi, one named Susi, and one named Chantay. Yummy ladies, oh so tall and tasty.
'Man,' Sean says, rolling his eyes. He's a chubby little fellow whose sexual exploits consist of
occasional field-trips to Boston, where he eyes the strippers at the Foxy Lady and the waitresses
at Hooters. 'Oh man, fuckin Chantay.' He makes jacking-off gestures in the air. At that, at least,
Beav thinks, he looks like a pro.
'So I started talkin to them . . . to her, mostly, Chantay, and I ast her if she'd like to see some of
the Portland night-life. So we . . .'
The Beav takes a toothpick from his pocket and slides it into his mouth, timing the rest out.
All at once the toothpick is just what he wants. Not the beer in front of him, not the joint in his
pocket, certainly not George Pelsen's empty kahoot about how he and the mythical Chantay got
it on in the back of his pickup, thank God for that camper cap, when George's Ram is rockin,
don't come knockin.
It's all puff and blow, Beaver thinks, and suddenly he is desperately depressed, more depressed
than he has been since Laurie Sue packed her stuff and moved back to her mother's. This is
utterly unlike him, and suddenly the only thing he wants is to get the fuck out of here, fill his
lungs with the cool, salt-tanged seaside air, and find a phone. He wants to do that and then to call
Jonesy or Henry, it doesn't matter which, either one will do; he wants to say Hey man, what's
going on and have one of them say back Oh, you know, Beav, SSDD. No bounce, no play.