sparks and making a noise like hammered steel. He was red as blood, my steed, with white ears and golden mane, tail
and feet. On closer examination I discovered that he was attached to me where my privates should have been.
“Aillil, old son,” I said to myself, “the abbot was right after all. He always said your organ would run away with
you one day.”
I tried to rein the horse in, but learned quickly I had no control over him.
“What do you want?” I cried, dizzy with fear.
Then I saw what he wanted.
There in the blue distance, poised on an outcrop like a goat, I caught a glimpse of a white hind. She was a glorious
thing to look on, the fairest of God’s creatures, whiter than ermine in January, with red antlers and black feet and
eyes the color of a lake full of sapphires. The moment I saw her I wanted her, but as she bounded away I knew I
could not have her.
“Such is not for us!” I cried. “That creature was not meant for farmers’ sons! She’s a proper quarry for Finn
MacCumhail, or Bran son of Febal. Such as we can never catch her, and if we could what would we do with her?”
But my steed cared nothing for sense. On he plunged, and my heart rabbited back and forth between my
collarbone and my belly as we leaped the heights and plunged headlong, but never came nearer our quarry.
And then we were across the mountains, and a broad, emerald plain, richly rivered and wooded, spread before us.
To enter that land we must needs ford a raging river, broader than Shannon, and on its near side stood a man fifteen
feet tall, with skin black as a Welshman’s heart and long, straight black hair down to his waist, and a great axe in his
hands. His face, strangely, looked a bit like the abbot’s.
“Pay the toll if you would cross!” he roared.
“And what is the toll?” asked I.
“Your head, cut off neat at the neck!” he cried, and I tried to turn about but my steed would not be curbed. I heard
the great axe whistle in the air and twisted to avoid it. . . .
The next evening, while we lay up in a harbor in the Hebrides, somebody whispered to me, “The Northerners are
talking about you.” I looked up at a cluster of them on the foredeck who whispered and pointed at me. I tried to
dwindle from sight, but they hopped down into the hold, grabbed me and held my arms and legs.
I bellowed and cursed them for heathen horse-eaters, but they paid no mind as they brought out a razor and
shaved the crown of my skull.
“We’re barbering you like the Christian priests,” said the boy with the bad nose. “We marked your robe, and
sometimes there are churchmen in Visby who’ll ransom priests at a good price.”
It’s a marvel the cuts I got didn’t mortify.
We sat in bilge and vomit and waste all the way, in storm and fair weather, and the sun beat down on us, and the
rain soaked our uncovered heads, and the ship bucked like a spring heifer and I was always sick. We were Irish when
we boarded that ship. We were beasts when they unloaded us in Gotland.
They marched us up the jetty and into the walled town, and they kept us in sheds, the men apart from the women
(I never saw Maeve again).
I saw no Arabs in Visby (it turned out the Arab trade had dried up long since), nor any churchmen with ransom-
silver. But from time to time the slavemonger would bring in some prosperous Northman, perhaps a tattooed Swede
with bloused eastern breeches or a Dane with his hair combed down in a fringe in front. He’d point out three or four
of us and we’d be unlocked and led out, to be poked and pinched and examined for spots, and our teeth counted. I’m
sure I was no beauty—filthy and bruised, my head sunburned and scarred and my robe ragged and the color of every
kind of dirt.
I forget how many days we’d been there when I was led out for the approval of some fat old bastard in a fur cap
(worn purely for show—the weather was mild), and the son of a carthorse let his hand linger longer on my backside
than I thought strictly necessary. I’d believed I had no fight left, but the next thing I knew my fingers were about his
neck, and everybody was grabbing at me, and then I was down in the dirt, being savaged with a whip, and I screamed
a curse at God, who had the almighty temerity not to exist when an honest man needed Him.
And then the whipping stopped, and I looked up at what seemed the tallest man I’d ever seen. His hair, old-man
white like that of many Norse, glowed in a sort of halo around his head, tied with a gold ribbon about the temples.
His beard, in contrast to his pale hair and skin, was a reddish brown. He wore a red shirt edged in gold, and a sword
hung at his waist. He smiled at me, and I thought it was surely the Archangel Michael.
“I took you for a priest, but you look a little young,” he said, in passable Irish.
“Just ordained,” I lied.
He spoke to the slave merchant and the fat man, and they argued for a few minutes, pointing at me, the fat man
clutching at his throat, and at last the tall man said something to one of his followers (there were about thirty) who