conversed with Columbus at the royal court at Santa Fe. No doubt she skewered them constantly
with ironic barbs which they did not realize were ironic.
More intolerable by far was the silence from Las Palmas. He had left men there with instructions
to tell him as soon as Pinz¢n managed to bring the Pinta into port. But no word came, day after day,
as the stupidity of the courtiers became more insufferable, until finally he refused to tolerate either
of the intolerables a moment longer. Bidding a grateful adios to the gentlemen of Gomera, he set
sail for Las Palmas himself, only to find when he arrived on the 23rd of August that the Pinta was
still not there.
The worst possibilities immediately came to mind. The saboteurs were so grimly determined not
to complete the voyage that there had been a mutiny, or they had somehow persuaded Pinz¢n to
turn around and sail for Spain. Or they were adrift in the currents of the Atlantic, getting swept to
some unnameable destination. Or pirates had taken them -- or the Portuguese, who might have
thought they were part of some foolish Spanish effort to poach on their private preserve along the
coasts of Africa. Or Pinz¢n, who clearly thought himself better suited to lead the expedition than
Columbus himself -- though he would never have been able to win royal sponsorship for such an
expedition, having neither the education, the manners, nor the patience that it had required -- might
have had the foolish notion of sailing on ahead, reaching the Indies before Columbus.
All of these were possible, and from one moment to the next each seemed likely. Columbus
withdrew from human company that night and threw himself to his knees -- not for the first time,
but never before with such anger at the Almighty. "I have done all you set for me to do," he said, "I
have pushed and pleaded, and never once have you given me the slightest encouragement, even in
the darkest times. Yet my trust never failed, and at last I got the expedition on the exact terms that
were required. We set sail. My plan was good. The season was right. The crew is skilled even if
they think themselves better sailors than their commander. All I needed now, all that I needed, after
everything I've endured till now, was for something to go right."
Was this too bold a thing for him to say to the Lord? Probably. But Columbus had spoken boldly
to powerful men before, and so the words spilled easily from his heart to flow from his tongue. God
could strike him down for it if he wanted -- Columbus had put himself in God's hands years before,
and he was weary.
"Was that too much for you, most gracious Lord? Did you have to take away my third ship? My
best sailor? Did you even have to deprive me of the kindness of Lady Beatrice? It is obvious that I
have not found favor in your eyes, O Lord, and therefore I urge you to find somebody else. Strike
me dead if you want, it could hardly be worse than killing me by inches, which seems to be your
plan at this moment. I'll tell you what. I will stay in your service for one more day. Send me the
Pinta or show me what else you want me to do, but I swear by your most holy and terrible name, I
will not sail on such a voyage with fewer than three ships, well equipped and fully crewed. I've
become an old man in your service, and as of tomorrow night, I intend to resign and live on
whatever pension you see fit to provide me with." Then he crossed himself. "In the name of the
Father, the Son, and the Holy Ghost. Amen."