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Chapter One
If everyone's going to chase me, Flinx thought, I should've been born with eyes
in the back of my head. Of course, in a sense, he had been.
He couldn't see behind himself. Not in the commonly accepted meaning of the
term. Not visually. But he could "sense" behind him. Most sentient creatures
generated patterns on the emotional level that Flinx could, from time to time,
detect, descry, or perceive. Depending on the wildly variable sensitivity of his
special talent, he could feel anger, fear, love, sorrow, pain, happiness, or
simple contentment in others the way ordinary folk could feel heat or cold,
slipperiness or stickiness, that which was sharp and that which was soft.
The emotional states of other beings prodded him with little jabs, twitches, icy
notions in his brain. Sometimes they arrived on the doorstep of his mind as a
gentle knock or comforting greeting, more often as a violent hammering he was
unable, despite his most ardent ef-forts, to ignore.
For years he believed that any refining of his talent would be an improvement.
He was no longer so sure. Increased sensitivity only exposed him to more and
more personal distress and private upsets. He had discovered that the emotional
spectrum was a roiling, violent, crowded, generally unpleasant place. When he
was especially receptive, it washed over him in remorseless waves, battering and
pounding at his own psyche, leav-ing scant room for feelings of his own. None of
this was apparent to others. Years of practice enabled him to keep the turmoil
inside his head locked up, hidden away, art-fully concealed.
Much to his distress, as he matured it became harder instead of easier to
maintain the masquerade.
Used to be that he could distance himself from the emotional projections of
others by putting distance be-tween himself and the rest of humanxkind. Now that
he'd grown more sensitive still, that kind of peace came to him only in the
depths of interstellar space itself.
His situation wasn't entirely hopeless. With advancing maturity had come the
ability to shut out the majority of background low‑level emotional emanations.
Spousal ire directed silently at mates, the petty squabbles of children, silent
internalized hatreds, secret loves: he'd managed to reduce them all to a kind
off perceptual static in the back of his mind. He couldn't completely relax in
the com-pany of others, but neither was his mind in constant tur-moil. Where and
when possible, he favored town over city, hamlet over town, country over hamlet,
and wilder-ness over all.
Still, as his erratic control of his fickle talent improved, his worries only
expanded, and he found himself plagued by new fears and uncertainties.
As he watched Pip slither silently across the oval glass-ine tabletop, hunting
for fallen crumbs of salt and sugar, Flinx found himself wondering not for the
first time where it would all stop. As he grew older and taller he continued to
grow more sensitive. Would he someday be privy to the emotional state of
insects? Perhaps a couple of distraught bacteria would eventually be all that
was necessary to incite one of his recurring headaches.
He knew that would never happen. Not because it wasn't theoretically possible‑he
was such a genetic anomaly that where his nervous system was concerned, anything
was theoretically possible‑but because long before he could ever attain that
degree of sensitivity he would certainly go mad. If the pain of his headaches
didn't overwhelm him, an excess of knowledge would.
He sat alone in the southwest corner of the restaurant, but for all it distanced
him from the emotional outpour-ings of his fellow patrons, he night as well have
been sit-ting square in their midst. His isolation arose not from personal
choice but because the other diners preferred it that way. They shunned him, and
not the other way around.
It had nothing to do with his appearance. Tall, slim but well‑proportioned, with
his red hair and green eyes he was a pleasant‑looking, even attractive young
man. Much to his personal relief, he'd also lost nearly all the freckling that
had plagued him since his youth.
The most likely explanation for his isolation was that the other diners had
clustered at the opposite end off the dining room in hopes of avoiding the
attentions of the small, pleat‑winged, brightly colored flying snake which was
presently foraging across her master's table in search of spice and sustenance.
While the combined specific xenozoological knowledge of the other patrons peaked
not far above zero, several dutifully recalled that con-trasting bright colors
in many primitive creatures consti-tuted a warning sign to potential predators.
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