Jean had been fiercely sure that she was a huge improvement upon mother Josie — until Alison began to
grow up. Jean had been certain that she had pulled herself up successfully by her own bootstraps — until
her own stupid mother was recreated, out of Jean’s own womb.
The genes cared not a sparrow’s fart for the person of beauty and wit whom Jean had made of herself.
They spat on her sensitivity and creativity. They pissed on the pottery she crafted to prove her talents:
delicate fantasy landscapes full of castles and dragons and giant fungi. The genes preferred the sow’s ear
to the silk purse any day.
Jean had dreamed that Alison would outshine her by as much again as Jean outshone Josie.
‘Foolish machine,’ said the genes. And out of Jean there squirmed another animal as lacking in finer
feelings as Josie had been. Clearly Alison was destined to run through her whole life as obliviously as her
grandmother, like a chicken with its head chopped off.
Maybe the genes sensed how overcrowded the world was getting. Maybe they had decided that sensitivity
was out of place. Or perhaps they had foreseen a new ice age or a nuclear war, whereby life would be a
matter of grubbing around in the dirt for the next few thousand years. Whatever the truth of this, Jean
might be best lean meat, but from now on, plain bread seemed to be the staple.
While Alison was still an infant, and hope abounding filled Jean’s breast, Jean threw her energies into
inscribing love and humour, excellence and artistry upon the slate of her daughter.
Alas, Alison wasn’t a slate at all. She was a palimpsest: a twice-used parchment, an economy model. As
she grew up, the old writing showed through ever more clearly: the dumb, vandalistic scrawl which
denied that there was any special merit to Jean’s existence.
In her chagrin, Jean Sandra Hoffman — née Norwich — divorced her husband and became Jean
Sandwich.
Yet Jean was far from silent in her disappointment. In a series of virulent magazine articles, which both
caught the public’s fancy and provoked a counterblast of wrath, she explained in detail why she had
walked out on her husband and child, and why uniquely she had sued for non-custody and non-visiting
rights.
Unfortunately, her ex-husband Mike tended to agree with her. So there ensued the newsworthy spectacle
of the two divorcees fighting in public to off-load responsibility for the product of their love on to the
other party. Perhaps because Jean made more commotion, she had won the day. She was more
conspicuously unsuited to be a mother, than Mike to be a father.
Yet she had never blamed Mike personally for her horrid spawn and the ruin of her illusions. How could
she, when it was her own genes that proved dominant? It was against Nature’s deceits that she railed —
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