He was smooth-faced and good-looking in a gaunt blond way that could be a stationer
accountant or banker bar-hopping—except that the gauntness was hunger and the eyes
showed it, so that he laughed a great deal when he was scouting the bars, to look as if he
were well-credited, and sometimes to get drinks on someone else. And this time—this
time, because his life depended on it…he aimed for more than a free drink or a meal on
some other combine's credit. He needed a crewman, someone, anyone with the right
touch of minor larceny who could be conned and cozened aboard and trusted not to talk
in the wrong quarters. This was flatly dangerous. Merchanter ships were family, all of the
same Name, born on a ship to die on that ship. Beached merchanters were beached only
for a single run, like the old man he had gotten from hospital; or if they were beached
permanently, it was because their own ships' families had thrown them out, or because
they had voluntarily quit their families, unable to live with them. Some of the latter were
quarrelsome and some were criminal; he was one man and he had to sleep sometimes…
which was why he had to have help on the ship at all. He scanned the comers of the bars
he traveled on the long green-zone dock of Viking, trying not to see the soldiers and the
police who were more frequent everywhere than usual, and looking constantly for
someone else as hungry as he was, knowing that they would be disguising their plight as
he disguised it, and knowing that if he picked the wrong one, with a shade too much
larceny in mind, that partner would simply cut his throat some watch in some lonely part
of the between, and take Lucy over for whatever purposes he had in mind.
It was the first day of this hunt on the docks, playing the part of honest merchanter
captain and nursing a handful of chits he had gotten on that faked combine account, that
he first saw Allison Reilly.
The story was there to be read: the shamrock and stars on her silver coveralls sleeve,
the patches of worlds visited, that compassed all known space, the lithe tall body with its
back to him at the bar and a flood of hair like a puff of space-itself in the dim neon light.
In his alcohol-fumed eyes that sweep of hip and long, leaning limbs put him
poignantly in mind of sleepovers and that other scanted need of his existence—a scam
much harder than visa forging and far more dangerous. In fact, his life had been
womanless, except for one very drunk insystem merchanter one night on Mariner when
he was living high and secure, which was how Mariner knew his name and laid in wait
for him. And another insystemer before that, who he had hoped would partner him for
good: she had lost him Esperance when it went bad. He was solitary, because the only
women for merchanters were other merchanters, who inevitably had relatives; and
merchanters in general were a danger to his existence far more serious than stations
posed. Stations sat fixed about their stars and rarely shared records on petty crime for the
same reasons the big combines rarely bothered with distant and minor accounts. But get
on the bad side of some merchanter family for any cause, and they would spread the word
and hunt him from star to star, spread warnings about him to every station and every
world humans touched, so that he would die; or so that some station would catch him
finally and bend his mind, which was the same to him. There were no more women; he
had sworn off such approaches.
But he dreamed, being twenty-seven and alone for almost all his days, in the long,
long night. And at that silver-coveralled vision in front of him, he forgot the tatter-
elbowed old man he had been trying to stalk, him with the vacant spot in the patches on
his sleeve, and forgot the short-hauler kid who was another and safer prospect. He stared