"Not that anybody has asked, but they'd get a little more argument if they tried to get me
back in the Navy. The hell if I'm ever serving on another carrier." She tossed her head to
move an imaginary hair out of the way and waited for a response.
"Well, I guess I don't know what to say," he said softly.
She looked at him for a long moment. "You want to go back." It was clearly an
accusation. "You know, I'm going to have a hell of a time keeping up with both work and
home if you're gone!"
"Well . . ." The pause after that looked to go on forever.
"God, Mike, it's been years! It's not like you're eighteen anymore." With her mouth
pursed into a frown, she looked like a little girl "saving up spit."
"Honey," he said, rubbing his chin and looking at the ceiling, "generals don't recall
you from civilian status, personally, to go run around in the boonies." He dropped his
eyes to meet hers and shook his head.
"Whatever it is, they'll want me for my know-how, not my biceps. And sometimes,
yeah, I wonder if being, maybe, by now, a company commander in the Eighty-Deuce
wouldn't be a little more . . . important, useful, I don't know, something more than
building a really boss web page for the country's fourth largest bank!" He garnished the
generous helping of fettuccine with a chicken breast in garlic and herbs and extended it to
her.
She shook her head, understanding the argument intellectually, but still not happy.
"Do you have to leave this evening?"
She took the plate and looked at it with the same suspicion as the wine. A little
alcohol and complex carbohydrates to calm the hysterical wifey. Unfortunately she knew
that was exactly how she was acting. He knew all about her knee-jerk reaction to the
military and was trying to compensate. Trying hard.
"No, I have to be at McPherson on Monday morning. And that's the other thing, I'm
just going to McPherson. It's not like it's the back side of the moon." He picked up a rag
and wiped away an imaginary smear on the gray countertop. He could see the light at the
end of the tunnel, but with Sharon on the warpath it could just as well be a train.
"No, but if you think I'm taking the kids to south Atlanta you're out of your mind,"
she retorted, losing ground and knowing it. She sensed that this was a critical argument
and wondered what would happen if she said it was her or the Army. She had thought
about it a few times before, but it had never come up. Now she was afraid to ask. What
really made her mad was that she understood her emotions and knew she was in the
wrong. Her own experiences had poisoned her against the military as a career, but not
against the basic call to duty. And it made her wonder what would happen if she faced the
same question.
"Hey, I may be commuting. And it may not be for long," Mike said with a purely
Gallic shrug and rubbed his chin. His dark, coarse hair had raised a respectable five-
o'clock shadow.
"But you don't think so," she countered.
"No, I don't think so," he agreed, somberly.
"Why?" She sat down at the kitchen table and cut a bite of the chicken. It was