The nurse’s name was Katie. They walked slowly along a wide corridor with windows on one side, looking out at
the river and the bridges. Moving felt more natural, but he still had occasional attacks of giddiness—especially when
he changed his direction of vision too suddenly. Sometimes everything would go completely blank for a moment.
Arnold said it was because different parts of his nervous system were out of synchronization and needed time to
accommodate to sudden changes of input.
“What city is this?” Joe asked.
“That’s good: you’re getting curious about things. This is Pittsburgh,” Katie said.
Somehow it did not come as a complete surprise. He had a vague recollection of coming to work here. But the
clearer details of his still-blurred memories were from another city of high buildings with a river.
“How long ago did I come to Pittsburgh?” he asked.
“The second-largest city in Pennsylvania, with a population of over two million, once known as the Gateway to
the West,” Katie recited, ignoring his question. She went on, sounding like a talking commentary at a museum
exhibit whose button had been pushed. “In the eighteenth century it was a scene of intense rivalry between the
British and the French, which caused five forts to be built here. It was a major producer of armaments for the Union
during the Civil War, and subsequently grew to become the center of the steel industry through the 1960s.”
Joe shook his head. “No, I was asking about me. How long have I been here? What did I come here for?”
“I think you’d better talk to Dr. Arnold about that,” Katie replied.
Joe sighed. In his scattered moments of clearer perception, he was getting used to this kind of thing. Arnold said it
was because his mind wandered off into its own internalizations and lost logical continuity. “Are you a history major
or something?” he asked as they resumed walking.
“No. I’m a nurse. Why?”
“Do all nurses talk like that?”
“Why shouldn’t they? Don’t most people take an interest in such things?”
“Hardly.”
“What kind of things would you expect me to be interested in?”
It was such a peculiar question that Joe didn’t know how to answer. When he looked at her, her eyes, although
fixed on him, seemed to have an emptiness that gave him the feeling of talking to a shell.
“What do you think when you look at me like that?” she asked.
“That everyone I meet here is strange.”
But it could be because of the way he was seeing things, he told himself. Maybe people never had been the way
he thought he remembered.
He remembered being with a group of young people, laughing and teasing each other as they walked along a road
by a shore, where waves broke over rocks below. It was an old town somewhere, of imposing, high-fronted houses
built in terraces around squares with green lawns. Ships sailed out of a harbor, past a lighthouse at the end of a long
stone pier.
“You were involved in some unconventional experiments involving processes deep in the brain, which have
affected your mind and altered the way you see the world,” Dr. Arnold told him.
“I seem to remember I worked with computers. I came to this country to work with them from somewhere else.”
“Ah, excellent! You’re getting better every day. Now I want you to meet Simon, who’s going to be your regular
counselor. Simon, this is the man we want you to help. His name is Joe. Do you remember your full name, Joe?”
“Corrigan. . . . Joe Corrigan. Pleased to meet you, Simon.”
One Saturday night there was a dance for the patients to get to know each other and begin rediscovering long-
unused social skills. Corrigan felt as if he had been caught up in a charade of walking character clichés.
“How are you finding it, Joe?” Dr. Arnold inquired, rubbing his hands together like an anxious headmaster
showing his face at the annual high-school ball.
“Tell me these people aren’t real,” Corrigan answered.
Arnold seemed unsurprised but interested. “Why? What’s wrong with them?”
“I feel as if I’m in an old, corny movie.”
“The parts of your memory are starting to come together again. Not as much of what you think you see is really
out there. Your mind is filling the gaps by projecting its own, stored stereotypes from long ago. Don’t worry. It’s a
healthy sign.”
* * *
There came a day when Corrigan grew tired of being restricted. He wanted to get out in the air and work with his