to reflect a selfishness, an attitude disrespectful to the memory of all those
who gave their lives battling the darkness that had come to Corona. If I wish
Elbryan back alive-and Avelyn and so many others-am I diminishing their
sacrifice? I was there with Elhryan, joined in spirit, bonded to stand united
against the demon dactyl that had come to reside in the corporeal form of
father Abbot Markwart. I watched and felt Elbryan's spirit dimmish and
dissipate into nothingness even as I witnessed the breaking of the blackness,
the destruction of Bestesbulzibar.
And I felt, too, Elbryan's willingness to make the sacrifice, his desire to
see the battle through to the only acceptable conclusion, even though that
victory, he knew, would take his life. He was a ranger, trained by the
Touel'alfar, a servant and protector of mankind, and those tenets demanded of
him responsibility and the greatest altruism.
And so he died contented, in the knowledge that he had lifted the blackness
from the Church and the land.
All our lives together, since I had returned to Dundalis and found Elbryan,
had been one of willing sacrifice, of risk taking. How many battles did we
fight, even though we might have avoided them? We walked to the heart of the
dactyl, to Mount Aida in the Karbacan, though we truly believed that to be a
hopeless road, though we fully expected that all of us would die, and likely
in vain, in our attempt to battle an evil that seemed so very far beyond us.
And yet we went. Willingly. With hope, and with the understanding that we had
to do this thing, whatever the cost, for the betterment of the world.
It came full circle that day in Chasewind Manor, when finally, finally, we
caught, not the physical manifestation of Kestesbulzibar, but rather the
demon's spirit, the very essence of evil. We won the day, shattering that
evil.
But was the victory worth the cost?
I look back on the last few years of my life, and I cannot discount that
question. I remember all the good people, all the great people, who passed
from this world in the course of the journey that led me to this point, and,
at times, it seems to me to be a great and worthless waste.
I know that I dishonor Elbryan and likely anger his ghost with these emotions,
but they are very real.
We battled, we fought, we gave of ourselves all that we could and more. Most
of all, though, it seems to me as if we've spent the bulk of time burying our
dead. Even that cost, I had hoped, would prove worthwhile in those few shining
moments after I awakened from my battle with the demon spirit, in the
proclamations of Brother Francis, of Brother Braumin, and of the King himself
that Elbryan had not died in vain, that the world, because of our actions,
would, he a better place. I dared to hope that my love's sacrifice, that our
sacrifice, would be enough, would turn the tide of humankind and better the
world for all.
Is Honce-the-Bear better off for the fall ofMarkwart?
With sudden response, the answer seems obvious; in that shining moment of
clarity and hope, the answer seemed obvious.