forget it.
Except that Joey kept asking who his father was, where his father was,
why his father had gone away. And how did you tell a six-year-old about
your libidinous urges, the treachery of your own heart, and your
regrettable capacity for occasionally making a complete fool of
yourself? If it could be done, she hadn't seen the way. She was just
going to have to wait until he was grown up enough to understand that
adults could sometimes be just as dumb and confused as little kids.
Until then, she stalled him with vague answers and evasions that
satisfied neither of them.
She only wished he wouldn't look quite so lost, quite so small and
vulnerable when he asked about his father. It made her want to cry.
She was haunted by the vulnerability she perceived in him .
He was never ill, an extremely healthy child, and she was grateful for
that. Nevertheless, she was always reading magazine and newspaper
articles about childhood diseases, not merely polio and measles and
whooping cough-he had been immunized for those and more-but horrible,
crippling, incurable illnesses, often rare although no less frightening
for their rarity. She memorized the early-warning signs of a hundred
exotic maladies and was always on the watch for those symptoms in Joey.
Of course, like any active boy, he suffered his share of cuts and
bruises, and the sight of his blood always scared the hell out of her,
even if it was only one drop from a shallow scratch. Her concern about
Joey's health was almost an obsession, but she never quite allowed it to
actually become an obsession, for ,he was aware of the psychological
problems that could develop in a child with an overly protective mother.
That Sunday afternoon in February, when death suddenly stepped up and
grinned at Joey, it wasn't in the form of the viruses and bacteria about
which Christine worried. It was just an old woman with stringy gray
hair, a pallid face, and gray eyes the shade of dirty ice.
When Christine and Joey left the mall by way of Bullock's Department
Store, it was five minutes past three. Sun glinted off automobile
chrome and windshield glass from one end of the broad parking lot to the
other. Their silver-gray Pontiac Firebird was in the row directly in
front of Bullock's doors, the twelfth car in the line, and they were
almost to it when the old woman appeared.
She stepped out from between the Firebird and a white Ford van, directly
into their path.
She didn't seem threatening at first. She was a bit odd, sure, but
nothing worse than that. Her shoulder-length mane of thick gray hair
looked windblown, although only a mild breeze washed across the lot. She
was in her sixties, perhaps even early seventies, forty years older than
Christine, but her face wasn't deeply lined, and her skin was
baby-smooth; she had the unnatural puffiness that was often associated
with cortisone injections. Pointed nose. Small mouth, thick lips. A
round, dimpled chin. She was wearing a simple turquoise necklace, a
long-sleeved green blouse, green skirt, green shoes. On her plump hands
were eight rings, all green: turquoise, malachite, emeralds. The
unrelieved green suggested a uniform of some kind.