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THE CROW ROAD

Iain Banks

ABACUS

An Abacus Book

First published in Great Britain by Scribners

This edition published by Abacus 1993

Reprinted 1993 (twice), 1994, 1995 (twice), 1996 (three times),

1997 (three times), 1998

The right of Iain Banks to be identified as

author of this work has been asserted by

him in accordance with the Copyright,

Designs and Patents Act 1988.

All characters in this publication are ficticious

and any resemblance to real persons, living or dead,

is purely coincidental

No part of this publication may be reproduced,

stored in a retrieval system, or transmitted, in any

form or by any means, without the prior

written permission of the publisher, nor be

otherwise circulated in any form of binding or

cover other than that in which it is published

and without a similar condition including this

condition being imposed on the subsequent purchaser.

A CIP catalogue record for this book

is available from the British Library

Typeset by Leaper & Gard Ltd, Bristol

Printed in England by Clays Ltd, St Ives plc

Abacus

A Division of

Little, Brown and Company (UK)

Brettenham House

Lancaster Place

London WC2E 7EN

Again, for Ann,

And with thanks to:

James Hale,

Mic Cheetham,

Andy Watson

And Steve Hatton

CHAPTER 1

It was the day my grandmother exploded. I sat in the crematorium, listening to my Uncle Hamish

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quietly snoring in harmony to Bach's Mass in B Minor, and I reflected that it always seemed to be

death that drew me back to Gallanach.

I looked at my father, sitting two rows away in the front line of seats in the cold, echoing

chapel. His broad, greying-brown head was massive above his tweed jacket (a black arm-band was his

concession to the solemnity of the occasion). His ears were moving in a slow, oscillatory manner,

rather in the way John Wayne's shoulders moved when he walked; my father was grinding his teeth.

Probably he was annoyed that my grandmother had chosen religious music for her funeral ceremony. I

didn't think she had done it to upset him; doubtless she had simply liked the tune, and had not

anticipated the effect its non-secular nature might have on her eldest son.

My younger brother, James, sat to my father's left. It was the first time in years I'd seen

him without his Walkman, and he looked distinctly uncomfortable, fiddling with his single earring.

To my father's right my mother sat, upright and trim, neatly filling a black coat and sporting a

dramatic black hat shaped like a flying saucer. The UFO dipped briefly to one side as she

whispered something to my father. In that movement and that moment, I felt a pang of loss that did

not entirely belong to my recently departed grandmother, yet was connected with her memory. How

her moles would be itching today if she was somehow suddenly reborn!

'Prentice!' My Aunt Antonia, sitting next to me, with Uncle Hamish snoring mellifluously on

her other side, tapped my sleeve and pointed at my feet as she murmured my name. I looked down.

I had dressed in black that morning, in the cold high room of my aunt and uncle's house. The

floorboards had creaked and my breath had smoked. There had been ice inside the small dormer

window, obscuring the view over Gallanach in a crystalline mist. I'd pulled on a pair of black

underpants I'd brought especially from Glasgow, a white shirt (fresh from Marks and Sparks, the

pack-lines still ridging the cold crisp cotton) and my black 501s. I'd shivered, and sat on the

bed, looking at two pairs of socks; one black, one white. I'd intended to wear the black pair

under my nine-eye Docs with the twin ankle buckles, but suddenly I had felt that the boots were

wrong. Maybe it was because they were matt finish. . .

The last funeral I'd been to here - also the first funeral I'd ever been to - this gear had

all seemed pretty appropriate, but now I was pondering the propriety of the Docs, the 501s and the

black biker's jacket. I'd hauled my white trainers out of the bag, tried one Nike on and one boot

(unlaced); I'd stood in front of the tilted full-length mirror, shivering, my breath going out in

clouds, while the floorboards creaked and a smell of cooking bacon and burned toast insinuated its

way up from the kitchen.

The trainers, I'd decided.

So I peered down at them in the crematorium; they looked crumpled and tea-stained on the

severe black granite of the chapel floor. Oh-oh; one black sock, one white. I wriggled in my seat,

pulled my jeans down to cover my oddly-packaged ankles. 'Hell's teeth,' I whispered. 'Sorry, Aunt

Tone.'

My Aunt Antonia - a ball of pink-rinse hair above the bulk of her black coat, like candy floss

stuck upon a hearse - patted my leather jacket. 'Never mind, dear,' she sighed. 'I doubt old

Margot would have minded.'

'No,' I nodded. My gaze fell back to the trainers. It struck me that on the toe of the right

one there was still discernible the tyre mark from Grandma Margot's wheelchair. I lifted the left

trainer onto the right, and rubbed without enthusiasm at the black herring-bone pattern the oily

wheel had left. I remembered the day, six months earlier, when I had pushed old Margot out of the

house and through the courtyard, past the outhouses and down the drive under the trees towards the

loch and the sea.

'Prentice, what is going on between you and Kenneth?'

The courtyard was cobbled; her wheelchair wobbled and jerked under my hands as I pushed her.

'We've fallen out, gran,' I told her.

'I'm not stupid, Prentice, I can see that.' She looked up at me. Her eyes were fierce and

grey, as they always had been. Her hair was grey now, too, and thinning. The summer sun cleared

the surrounding oaks and I could see her pale scalp through the wisps of white.

'No, gran, I know you're not stupid.'

'Well, then?' She waved her stick towards the outhouses. 'Let's see if that damn car's still

there.' She glanced back at me again as I wheeled the chair round on its new heading, towards the

green double doors of one of the courtyard garages. 'Well, then?' she repeated.

I sighed. 'It's a matter of principle, gran.' Stopping at the garage doors, she used her stick

to knock the hasp off its staple, pushed at one door till its planks bowed slightly, then, wedging

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her stick into the resulting gap, levered the other door open, a bolt at one corner scraping and

tinkling through a groove worn in the cobbles. I pulled the chair back to let the garage door

swing. Inside it was dark. Motes swirled in the sunlight falling across the black entrance. I

could just make out the corner of a thin green tarpaulin, draped angularly about level with my

waist. Grandma Margot lifted the edge of the tarp with her stick, and flicked it away with

surprising strength. The cover fell away from the front of the car and I pushed her further into

the garage.

'Principle?' she said, leaning forward in the chair to inspect the long dark bonnet of the

car, and pushing the tarp back still further until she had revealed the auto up to its windscreen.

The wheels had no tyres; the car rested on blocks of wood. 'What principle? The principle of not

entering your father's house? Your own family home?' Another flick of the cane and the covering

moved up the screen, then fell back again.

'Let me do that, gran.' I stepped to the side of the car and pulled the tarpaulin back until

it lay crumpled on the boot, revealing that the car had a missing rear window. More dust revolved

in the light from outside, turning Grandma Margot into a seated silhouette, her almost transparent

hair shining like a halo.

She sighed. I looked at the car. It was long and quite beautiful, in a recently-old-fashioned

way. Beneath the patina of dust it was a very dark green. The roof above the missing rear window

was battered and dented, as was the exposed part of the boot lid.

'Poor old thing,' I whispered, shaking my head.

Grandma Margot sat upright. 'It or me?' she said sharply.

'Gran . . . ' I said, tutting. I was aware that she could see me very well, sunlit from behind

her, while all I could see of her was a dark shape, a subtraction of the light.

'Anyway,' she said, relaxing and poking at one of the car's wire wheels with her walking

stick. 'What's all this nonsense about a matter of principle?'

I turned away, rubbing my fingers along the chrome guttering over a rear door. 'Well . . .

dad's angry at me because I told him I believed in . . . God, or in something, anyway.' I

shrugged, not daring to look at her. 'He won't . . . well, I won't . . . We're not talking to each

other, so I won't come into the house.'

Grandma Margot made a clucking noise with her mouth. That's it?'

I nodded, glancing at her. 'That's it, gran.'

'And your father's money; your allowance?'

'I - ' I began, then didn't know how to put it.

'Prentice; how are you managing to survive?'

'I'm managing fine,' (I lied.) 'On my grant.' (Another lie.) 'And my student loan.' (Yet

another lie.) 'And I'm doing some bar work.' (Four in a row!) I couldn't get a bar job. Instead

I'd sold Fraud Siesta, my car. It had been a small Ford and kind of lazy about starting. People

used to imply it looked battered, but I just told them it came from a broken garage. Anyway, that

money was almost gone now, too.

Grandma Margot let out a long sigh, shook her head. 'Principles,' she breathed.

She pulled herself forward a little, but the wheelchair was caught on part of the tarp. 'Help

me here, will you?'

I went behind her, pushed the chair over the ruffled canvas. She hauled open the offside rear

door and looked into the dull interior. A smell of musty leather wafted out, reminding me of my

childhood and the time when there was still magic in the world.

The last time I had sex was on that back seat,' she said wistfully. She looked up at me.

'Don't look so shocked, Prentice.'

'I wasn't - ' I started to protest.

'It's all right; it was your grandfather.' She patted the wing of the car with one thin hand.

'After a dance,' she said quietly, smiling. She looked up at me again, her lined, delicate face

amused, eyes glittering. 'Prentice,' she laughed. 'You're blushing!'

'Sorry, gran,' I said. 'It's just . . . well, you don't. . . well, when you're young and

somebody's . . . '

'Past it,' she said, and slammed the door shut; dust duly danced. 'Well, we're all young once,

Prentice, and those that are lucky get to be old.' She pushed the wheelchair back, over the toe of

my new trainers. I lifted the chair clear and helped complete the manoeuvre, then pushed her to

the door. I left her there while I put the tarpaulin back over the car.

'In fact some of us get to be young twice,' she said from the doorway. 'When we go senile:

toothless, incontinent, babbling like a baby . . . ' Her voice trailed off.

'Grandma, please.'

'Och, stop being so sensitive, Prentice; it isn't much fun getting old. One of the few

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pleasures that do come your way is to speak your mind . . . Certainly annoying your relatives is

enjoyable too, but I expected better of you.'

'I'm sorry, Grandma.' I closed the garage door, dusted off my hands, and took up my position

at the back of the wheelchair again. There was an oily tyre print on my trainer. Crows raucoused

in the surrounding trees above as I pushed my gran towards the drive.

'Lagonda.'

'Sorry, Gran?'

The car; it's a Lagonda Rapide Saloon.'

'Yes,' I said, smiling a little ruefully to myself. 'Yes, I know.'

We left the courtyard and went crunchily down the gravel drive towards the sparkling waters of

the loch. Grandma Margot was humming to herself; she sounded happy. I wondered if she was

recalling her tryst in the Lagonda's back seat. Certainly I was recalling mine; it was on the same

piece of cracked and creaking, buttoned and fragrant upholstery - some years after my gran's last

full sexual experience - that I had had my first.

This sort of thing keeps happening in my family.

'Ladies and Gentlemen of the family; on the one hand, as I don't doubt you may well imagine,

it gives me no great pleasure to stand here before you at this time . . . yet on the other hand I

am proud, and indeed honoured, to have been asked to speak at the funeral of my dear old client,

the late and greatly loved Margot McHoan . . . '

My grandmother had asked the family lawyer, Lawrence L. Blawke, to say the traditional few

words. Pencil-thin and nearly as leaden, the tall and still dramatically black-haired Mr Blawke

was dressed somewhere in the high nines, sporting a dark grey double-breasted suit over a

memorable purple waistcoat that took its inspiration from what looked like Mandelbrot but might

more charitably have been Paisley. A glittering gold fob watch the size of a small frying pan was

anchored in the shallows of one waistcoat pocket by a bulk-carrier grade chain.

Mr Blawke always reminded me of a heron; I'm not sure why. Something to do with a sense of

rapacious stillness perhaps, and also the aura of one who knows that time is on his side. I

thought he had looked oddly comfortable in the presence of the undertakers.

I sat and listened to the lawyer and in short order wondered (a) why Grandma Margot had chosen

a lawyer to make the address, (b) whether he'd be charging us for his time, and (c) how many

others of my family were wondering the same things.

' . . . long history of the McHoan family in the town of Gallanach, of which she was so proud,

and to which she so . . . usefully and, and industriously contributed throughout her long life. It

was my privilege to know and serve both Margot and her late husband Matthew well, in Matthew's

case first as a school friend, back in the twenties. I well remember . . . '

'Grandma, I mean; good grief.'

'What?'

My grandmother drew deeply on the Dunhill, flicked her wrist to close the brass Zippo, then

put the lighter back in her cardigan.

'Grandma, you're smoking.'

Margot coughed a little and blew the smoke towards me, a grey screen for those ash-coloured

eyes. 'Well, so I am.' She inspected the cigarette closely, then took another drag. 'I always

wanted to, you know,' she told me, and looked away, over the loch towards the hills and trees on

the far side. I'd wheeled her down to the shore path at Pointhouse near the old cairns. I sat on

the grass. A soft breeze disturbed the water; seagulls flew stiff-winged, and in the distance the

occasional car or truck disturbed the air, making a lazy throat-clearing noise as they emerged

from or disappeared into the channel the main road drove between the trees. 'Hilda used to smoke,'

she said quietly, not looking at me. 'My elder sister; she used to smoke. And I always wanted to.'

I picked up a handful of pebbles from the path-side and started throwing them at the waves,

lapping against the rocks a metre below us, almost at high tide. 'But your grandfather wouldn't

let me.' My grandmother sighed.

'But gran,' I protested. 'It's bad for you.'

'I know.' She smiled broadly. That was another reason I didn't ever take it up, after your

grandfather died; they'd found it was unhealthy by then.' She laughed. 'But I'm seventy-two years

old now, and I don't give a damn.'

I chucked a few more pebbles. 'Well, it isn't a very good example to us youngsters, is it?'

'What's that got to do with the price of sliced bread?'

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'Eh?' I looked at her. 'Pardon?'

'You're not really trying to tell me that young people today look to their elders for an

example, are you, Prentice?'

I grimaced. 'Well. . . ' I said.

'You'd be the first generation that did.' She pulled on the cigarette, a look of convincing

derision on her face. 'Best do everything they don't. That's what tends to happen anyway, like it

or lump it.' She nodded to herself and ground the cigarette out on her cast, near the knee;

flicked the butt into the water. I tutted under my breath.

'People react more than they act, Prentice,' she said eventually. 'Like you are with your dad;

he raises you to be a good little atheist and then you go and get religion. Well, that's just the

way of things.' I could almost hear her shrug. 'Things can get imbalanced in families, over the

generations. Sometimes a new one has to . . . adjust things.' She tapped me on the shoulder. I

turned. Her hair was very white against the rich summer green of the Argyllshire hills and the

brilliant blue of the sky beyond. 'D'you feel for this family, Prentice?'

'Feel for it, gran?'

'Does it mean anything to you?' She looked cross. 'Anything beyond the obvious, like giving

you a place to stay . . . well, when you aren't falling out with your father? Does it?'

'Of course, gran.' I felt awkward.

She leaned closer to me, eyes narrowing. 'I have this theory, Prentice.'

My heart foundered. 'Yes, gran?'

'In every generation, there's a pivot. Somebody everybody else revolves around, understand?'

'Up to a point,' I said, non-committally, I hoped.

'It was old Hugh, then your grandfather, then it was me, and then it got all confused with

Kenneth and Rory and Hamish; they each seem to think they were it, but. . . '

'Dad certainly seems to think he's paterfamilias.'

'Aye, and maybe Kenneth has the strongest claim, though I still think Rory was more clever.

Your Uncle Hamish . . . ' She looked troubled. 'He's a bit off the beaten track, that boy.' She

frowned. (This 'boy' was nearly fifty, of course, and himself a grandfather. It was Uncle Hamish

who'd invented Newton's Religion, and who had taken me in when my father and I had fallen out.)

'I wonder where Uncle Rory is,' I said, hoping to divert my gran from areas that sounded

portentous and daft with the familiar game that anybody in our family can play; making up stories,

conjectures, lies and hopes about Uncle Rory, our one-time golden boy, professional traveller and

some-time magician, whose most successful act had been his own disappearance.

'Who knows?' My gran sighed. 'Might be dead, for all we know.'

I shook my head. 'No, I don't think so.'

'You sound certain, Prentice. What do you know we don't?'

'I just feel it.' I shrugged, threw a handful of pebbles into the waves. 'He'll be back.'

'Your father thinks he will,' Margot agreed, sounding thoughtful. 'He always talks about him

as though he's still around.'

'He'll be back,' I nodded, and lay back in the grass, hands under my head.

'I don't know, though,' Grandma Margot said. 'I think he might be dead.'

'Dead? Why?' The sky was deep, shining blue.

'You wouldn't believe me.'

'What?' I sat up again, swivelled to face her, looking over the much-scribbled-upon grey-white

cast (as well as signatures, get-well-soon messages and silly drawings, there were at least two

shopping lists, a recipe copied down from the radio and detailed instructions on how to get by car

to the flat I shared in Glasgow).

Grandma Margot pulled up her sleeve to expose her white, darkly spotted right forearm. 'I have

my moles, Prentice. They tell me things.'

I laughed. She looked inscrutable. 'Sorry, gran?'

She tapped her wrist with one long pale finger; there was a large brown mole there. Her eyes

were narrowed. She leaned closer still and tapped the mole again. 'Not a sausage, Prentice.'

'Well,' I said, not sure whether to try another laugh. 'No.'

'Not for eight years, not a hint, not a sensation.' Her voice was low, almost husky. She

looked as though she was enjoying herself.

'I give in, gran; what are you talking about?'

'My moles, Prentice.' She arched one eyebrow, then sat back with a sigh in her wheelchair. 'I

can tell what's going on in this family by my moles. They itch when people are talking about me,

or when something . . . remarkable is happening to the person.' She frowned. 'Well, usually.' She

glared at me, prodded me in the shoulder with her stick. 'Don't tell your father about this; he'd

have me committed.'

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