Egan, Greg - Oceanic

VIP免费

2024-11-19 5 0 101.96KB 39 页 5.9玖币

侵权投诉

file:///G|/rah/Greg%20Egan%20-%20Oceanic.txt

Oceanic

by Greg Egan

Thanks to Caroline Oakley, Anthony Cheetham, John Douglas, Peter Robinson, Kate

Messenger, Philip Patterson, Tony Gardner, Russ Galen, David Pringle, Lee Montgomerie, Gardner

Dozois, Sheila Williams, and Bill Congreve.

file:///G|/rah/Greg%20Egan%20-%20Oceanic.txt (1 of 39) [2/14/2004 12:21:31 AM]

file:///G|/rah/Greg%20Egan%20-%20Oceanic.txt

The swell was gently lifting and lowering the boat. My breathing grew slower, falling into

step with the creaking of the hull, until I could no longer tell the difference between the faint

rhythmic motion of the cabin and the sensation of filling and emptying my lungs. It was like

floating in darkness: every inhalation buoyed me up, slightly; every exhalation made me sink back

down again.

In the bunk above me, my brother Daniel said distinctly, "Do you believe in God?"

My head was cleared of sleep in an instant, but I didn't reply straight away. I'd never

closed my eyes, but the darkness of the unlit cabin seemed to shift in front of me, grains of

phantom light moving like a cloud of disturbed insects.

"Martin?"

"I'm awake."

"Do you believe in God?"

"Of course." Everyone I knew believed in God. Everyone talked about Her, everyone prayed to

Her. Daniel most of all. Since he'd joined the Deep Church the previous summer, he prayed every

morning for a kilotau before dawn. I'd often wake to find myself aware of him kneeling by the far

wall of the cabin, muttering and pounding his chest, before I drifted gratefully back to sleep.

Our family had always been Transitional, but Daniel was fifteen, old enough to choose for

himself. My mother accepted this with diplomatic silence, but my father seemed positivelyproud of

Daniel's independence and strength of conviction. My own feelings were mixed. I'd grown used to

swimming in my older brother's wake, but I'd never resented it, because he'd always let me in on

the view ahead: reading me passages from the books he read himself, teaching me words and phrases

from the languages he studied, sketching some of the mathematics I was yet to encounter first-

hand. We used to lie awake half the night, talking about the cores of stars or the hierarchy of

transfinite numbers. But Daniel had told me nothing about the reasons for his conversion, and his

ever-increasing piety. I didn't know whether to feel hurt by this exclusion, or simply grateful; I

could see that being Transitional was like a pale imitation of being Deep Church, but I wasn't

sure that this was such a bad thing if the wages of mediocrity included sleeping until sunrise.

Daniel said, "Why?"

I stared up at the underside of his bunk, unsure whether I was really seeing it or just

imagining its solidity against the cabin's ordinary darkness. "Someone must have guided the Angels

here from Earth. If Earth's too far away to see from Covenant ... how could anyone find Covenant

from Earth, without God's help?"

I heard Daniel shift slightly. "Maybe the Angels had better telescopes than us. Or maybe they

spread out from Earth in all directions, launching thousands of expeditions without even knowing

what they'd find."

I laughed. "But they had to come here, to be made flesh again!" Even a less-than-devout ten-

year-old knew that much. God prepared Covenant as the place for the Angels to repent their theft

of immortality. The Transitionals believed that in a million years we could earn the right to be

Angels again; the Deep Church believed that we'd remain flesh until the stars fell from the sky.

Daniel said, "What makes you so sure that there were ever really Angels? Or that God really

sent them Her daughter, Beatrice, to lead them back into the flesh?"

I pondered this for a while. The only answers I could think of came straight out of the

Scriptures, and Daniel had taught me years ago that appeals to authority counted for nothing.

Finally, I had to confess: "I don't know." I felt foolish, but I was grateful that he was willing

to discuss these difficult questions with me. I wanted to believe in God for the right reasons,

not just because everyone around me did.

He said, "Archaeologists have shown that we must have arrived about twenty thousand years

ago. Before that, there's no evidence of humans, or any co-ecological plants and animals. That

makes the Crossing older than the Scriptures say, but there are some dates that are open to

interpretation, and with a bit of poetic license everything can be made to add up. And most

biologists think the native microfauna could have formed by itself over millions of years,

starting from simple chemicals, but that doesn't mean God didn't guide the whole process.

Everything's compatible, really. Science and the Scriptures can both be true."

I thought I knew where he was headed, now. "So you've worked out a way to use science to

prove that God exists?" I felt a surge of pride; my brother was a genius!

file:///G|/rah/Greg%20Egan%20-%20Oceanic.txt (2 of 39) [2/14/2004 12:21:31 AM]

file:///G|/rah/Greg%20Egan%20-%20Oceanic.txt

"No." Daniel was silent for a moment. "The thing is, it works both ways. Whatever's written

in the Scriptures, people can always come up with different explanations for the facts. The ships

might have left Earth for some other reason. The Angels might have made bodies for themselves for

some other reason. There's no way to convince a non-believer that the Scriptures are the word of

God. It's all a matter of faith."

"Oh."

"Faith's the most important thing," Daniel insisted. "If you don't have faith, you can be

tempted into believing anything at all."

I made a noise of assent, trying not to sound too disappointed. I'd expected more from Daniel

than the kind of bland assertions that sent me dozing off during sermons at the Transitional

church.

"Do you know what you have to do to get faith?"

"No."

"Ask for it. That's all. Ask Beatrice to come into your heart and grant you the gift of

faith."

I protested, "We do that every time we go to church!" I couldn't believe he'd forgotten the

Transitional service already. After the priest placed a drop of seawater on our tongues, to

symbolize the blood of Beatrice, we asked for the gifts of faith, hope and love.

"But have you received it?"

I'd never thought about that. "I'm not sure." I believed in God, didn't I? "I might have."

Daniel was amused. "If you had the gift of faith, you'd know."

file:///G|/rah/Greg%20Egan%20-%20Oceanic.txt (3 of 39) [2/14/2004 12:21:31 AM]

file:///G|/rah/Greg%20Egan%20-%20Oceanic.txt

I gazed up into the darkness, troubled. "Do you have to go to the Deep Church, to ask for it

properly?"

"No. Even in the Deep Church, not everyone has invited Beatrice into their hearts. You have

to do it the way it says in the Scriptures: 'like an unborn child again, naked and helpless.’"

"I was Immersed, wasn't I?"

"In a metal bowl, when you were thirty days old. Infant Immersion is a gesture by the

parents, an affirmation of their own good intentions. But it's not enough to save the child."

I was feeling very disoriented now. My father, at least, approved of Daniel's conversion ...

but now Daniel was trying to tell me that our family's transactions with God had all been grossly

deficient, if not actually counterfeit.

Daniel said, "Remember what Beatrice told Her followers, the last time She appeared? 'Unless

you are willing to drown in My blood, you will never look upon the face of My Mother.’ So they

bound each other hand and foot, and weighted themselves down with rocks."

My chest tightened. "And you've done that?"

"Yes."

"When?"

"Almost a year ago."

I was more confused than ever. "Did Ma and Fa go?"

Daniel laughed. "No! It's not a public ceremony. Some friends of mine from the Prayer Group

helped; someone has to be on deck to haul you up, because it would be arrogant to expect Beatrice

to break your bonds and raise you to the surface, like She did with Her followers. But in the

water, you're alone with God."

He climbed down from his bunk and crouched by the side of my bed. "Are you ready to give your

life to Beatrice, Martin?" His voice sent gray sparks flowing through the darkness.

I hesitated. "What if I just dive in? And stay under for a while?" I'd been swimming off the

boat at night plenty of times, there was nothing to fear from that.

"No. You have to be weighted down." His tone made it clear that there could be no compromise

on this. "How long can you hold your breath?"

"Two hundred tau." That was an exaggeration; two hundred was what I was aiming for.

"That's long enough."

I didn't reply. Daniel said, "I'll pray with you."

I climbed out of bed, and we knelt together. Daniel murmured, "Please, Holy Beatrice, grant

my brother Martin the courage to accept the precious gift of Your blood." Then he started praying

in what I took to be a foreign language, uttering a rapid stream of harsh syllables unlike

anything I'd heard before. I listened apprehensively; I wasn't sure that I wanted Beatrice to

change my mind, and I was afraid that this display of fervor might actually persuade Her.

I said, "What if I don't do it?"

"Then you'll never see the face of God."

I knew what that meant: I'd wander alone in the belly of Death, in darkness, for eternity.

And even if the Scriptures weren't meant to be taken literally on this, the reality behind the

metaphor could only be worse. Indescribably worse.

"But ... what about Ma and Fa?" I was more worried about them, because I knew they'd never

climb weighted off the side of the boat at Daniel's behest.

"That will take time," he said softly.

My mind reeled. He was absolutely serious.

I heard him stand and walk over to the ladder. He climbed a few rungs and opened the hatch.

Enough starlight came in to give shape to his arms and shoulders, but as he turned to me I still

couldn't make out his face. "Come on, Martin!" he whispered. "The longer you put it off, the

harder it gets." The hushed urgency of his voice was familiar: generous and conspiratorial,

nothing like an adult's impatience. He might almost have been daring me to join him in a midnight

raid on the pantry -- not because he really needed a collaborator, but because he honestly didn't

want me to miss out on the excitement, or the spoils.

I suppose I was more afraid of damnation than drowning, and I'd always trusted Daniel to warn

me of the dangers ahead. But this time I wasn't entirely convinced that he was right, so I must

have been driven by something more than fear, and blind trust.

Maybe it came down to the fact that he was offering to make me his equal in this. I was ten

years old, and I ached to become something more than I was; to reach, not my parents’ burdensome

adulthood, but the halfway point, full of freedom and secrets, that Daniel had reached. I wanted

to be as strong, as fast, as quick-witted and widely-read as he was. Becoming as certain of God

would not have been my first choice, but there wasn't much point hoping for divine intervention to

grant me anything else.

file:///G|/rah/Greg%20Egan%20-%20Oceanic.txt (4 of 39) [2/14/2004 12:21:31 AM]

file:///G|/rah/Greg%20Egan%20-%20Oceanic.txt

I followed him up onto the deck.

He took cord, and a knife, and four spare weights of the kind we used on our nets from the

toolbox. He threaded the weights onto the cord, then I took off my shorts and sat naked on the

deck while he knotted a figure-eight around my ankles. I raised my feet experimentally; the

weights didn't seem all that heavy. But in the water, I knew, they'd be more than enough to

counteract my body's slight buoyancy.

"Martin? Hold out your hands."

Suddenly I was crying. With my arms free, at least I could swim against the tug of the

weights. But if my hands were tied, I'd be helpless.

Daniel crouched down and met my eyes. "Ssh. It's all right."

I hated myself. I could feel my face contorted into the mask of a blubbering infant.

"Are you afraid?"

I nodded.

Daniel smiled reassuringly. "You know why? You know who's doing that? Death doesn't want

Beatrice to have you. He wants you for himself. So he's here on this boat, putting fear into your

heart, because he knows he's almost lost you."

I saw something move in the shadows behind the toolbox, something slithering into the

darkness. If we went back down to the cabin now, would Death follow us? To wait for Daniel to fall

asleep? If I'd turned my back on Beatrice, who could I ask to send Death away?

I stared at the deck, tears of shame dripping from my cheeks. I held out my arms, wrists

together.

When my hands were tied -- not palm-to-palm as I'd expected, but in separate loops joined by

a short bridge -- Daniel unwound a long stretch of rope from the winch at the rear of the boat,

and coiled it on the deck. I didn't want to think about how long it was, but I knew I'd never

dived to that depth. He took the blunt hook at the end of the rope, slipped it over my arms, then

screwed it closed to form an unbroken ring. Then he checked again that the cord around my wrists

was neither so tight as to burn me, nor so loose as to let me slip. As he did this, I saw

something creep over his face: some kind of doubt or fear of his own. He said, "Hang onto the

hook. Just in case. Don't let go, no matter what. Okay?" He whispered something to Beatrice, then

looked up at me, confident again.

He helped me to stand and shuffle over to the guard rail, just to one side of the winch. Then

he picked me up under the arms and lifted me over, resting my feet on the outer hull. The deck was

inert, a mineralized endoshell, but behind the guard rails the hull was palpably alive: slick with

protective secretions, glowing softly. My toes curled uselessly against the lubricated skin; I had

no purchase at all. The hull was supporting some of my weight, but Daniel's arms would tire

eventually. If I wanted to back out, I'd have to do it quickly.

A warm breeze was blowing. I looked around, at the flat horizon, at the blaze of stars, at

the faint silver light off the water. Daniel recited: "Holy Beatrice, I am ready to die to this

world. Let me drown in Your blood, that I might be redeemed, and look upon the face of Your

Mother."

I repeated the words, trying hard to mean them.

"Holy Beatrice, I offer You my life. All I do now, I do for You. Come into my heart, and

grant me the gift of faith. Come into my heart, and grant me the gift of hope. Come into my heart,

and grant me the gift of love."

"And grant me the gift of love."

Daniel released me. At first, my feet seemed to adhere magically to the hull, and I pivoted

backward without actually falling. I clung tightly to the hook, pressing the cold metal against my

belly, and willed the rope of the winch to snap taut, leaving me dangling in midair. I even braced

myself for the shock. Some part of me really did believe that I could change my mind, even now.

Then my feet slipped and I plunged into the ocean and sank straight down.

It was not like a dive -- not even a dive from an untried height, when it took so long for

the water to bring you to a halt that it began to grow frightening. I was falling through the

water ever faster, as if it was air. The vision I'd had of the rope keeping me above the water now

swung to the opposite extreme: my acceleration seemed to prove that the coil on the deck was

attached to nothing, that its frayed end was already beneath the surface. That's what the

followers had done, wasn't it? They'd let themselves be thrown in without a lifeline. So Daniel

had cut the rope, and I was on my way to the bottom of the ocean.

file:///G|/rah/Greg%20Egan%20-%20Oceanic.txt (5 of 39) [2/14/2004 12:21:31 AM]

file:///G|/rah/Greg%20Egan%20-%20Oceanic.txt

Then the hook jerked my hands up over my head, jarring my wrists and shoulders, and I was

motionless.

I turned my face toward the surface, but neither starlight nor the hull's faint

phosphorescence reached this deep. I let a stream of bubbles escape from my mouth; I felt them

slide over my upper lip, but no trace of them registered in the darkness.

I shifted my hands warily over the hook. I could still feel the cord fast around my wrists,

but Daniel had warned me not to trust it. I brought my knees up to my chest, gauging the effect of

the weights. If the cord broke, at least my hands would be free, but even so I wasn't sure I'd be

able to ascend. The thought of trying to unpick the knots around my ankles as I tumbled deeper

filled me with horror.

My shoulders ached, but I wasn't injured. It didn't take much effort to pull myself up until

my chin was level with the bottom of the hook. Going further was awkward -- with my hands so close

together I couldn't brace myself properly -- but on the third attempt I managed to get my arms

locked, pointing straight down.

I'd done this without any real plan, but then it struck me that even with my hands and feet

tied, I could try shinning up the rope. It was just a matter of getting started. I'd have to turn

upside-down, grab the rope between my knees, then curl up -- dragging the hook -- and get a grip

with my hands at a higher point.

And if I couldn't reach up far enough to right myself?

I'd ascend feet-first.

file:///G|/rah/Greg%20Egan%20-%20Oceanic.txt (6 of 39) [2/14/2004 12:21:31 AM]

file:///G|/rah/Greg%20Egan%20-%20Oceanic.txt

I couldn't even manage the first step. I thought it would be as simple as keeping my arms

rigid and letting myself topple backward, but in the water even two-thirds of my body wasn't

sufficient to counterbalance the weights.

I tried a different approach: I dropped down to hang at arm's length, raised my legs as high

as I could, then proceeded to pull myself up again. But my grip wasn't tight enough to resist the

turning force of the weights; I just pivoted around my center of gravity -- which was somewhere

near my knees -- and ended up, still bent double, but almost horizontal.

I eased myself down again, and tried threading my feet through the circle of my arms. I

didn't succeed on the first attempt, and then on reflection it seemed like a bad move anyway. Even

if I managed to grip the rope between my bound feet -- rather than just tumbling over backward,

out of control, and dislocating my shoulders -- climbing the rope upside-down with my hands behind

my back would either be impossible, or so awkward and strenuous that I'd run out of oxygen before

I got a tenth of the way.

I let some more air escape from my lungs. I could feel the muscles in my diaphragm

reproaching me for keeping them from doing what they wanted to do; not urgently yet, but the

knowledge that I had no control over when I'd be able to draw breath again made it harder to stay

calm. I knew I could rely on Daniel to bring me to the surface on the count of two hundred. But

I'd only ever stayed down for a hundred and sixty. Forty more tau would be an eternity.

file:///G|/rah/Greg%20Egan%20-%20Oceanic.txt (7 of 39) [2/14/2004 12:21:31 AM]

file:///G|/rah/Greg%20Egan%20-%20Oceanic.txt

I'd almost forgotten what the whole ordeal was meant to be about, but now I started praying.

Please Holy Beatrice, don't let me die. I know You drowned like this to save me, but if I die it

won't help anyone. Daniel would end up in the deepest shit ... but that's not a threat, it's just

an observation. I felt a stab of anxiety; on top of everything else, had I just offended the

Daughter of God? I struggled on, my confidence waning. I don't want to die. But You already know

that. So I don't know what You want me to say.

I released some more stale air, wishing I'd counted the time I'd been under; you weren't

supposed to empty your lungs too quickly -- when they were deflated it was even harder not to take

a breath -- but holding all the carbon dioxide in too long wasn't good either.

Praying only seemed to make me more desperate, so I tried to think other kinds of holy

thoughts. I couldn't remember anything from the Scriptures word for word, but the gist of the most

important part started running through my mind.

After living in Her body for thirty years, and persuading all the Angels to become mortal

again, Beatrice had gone back up to their deserted spaceship and flown it straight into the ocean.

When Death saw Her coming, he took the form of a giant serpent, coiled in the water, waiting. And

even though She was the Daughter of God, with the power to do anything, She let Death swallow Her.

That's how much She loved us.

Death thought he'd won everything. Beatrice was trapped inside him, in the darkness, alone.

The Angels were flesh again, so he wouldn't even have to wait for the stars to fall before he

claimed them.

But Beatrice was part of God. Death had swallowed part of God. This was a mistake. After

three days, his jaws burst open and Beatrice came flying out, wreathed in fire. Death was broken,

shriveled, diminished.

My limbs were numb but my chest was burning. Death was still strong enough to hold down the

damned. I started thrashing about blindly, wasting whatever oxygen was left in my blood, but

desperate to distract myself from the urge to inhale.

Please Holy Beatrice --

Please Daniel --

Luminous bruises blossomed behind my eyes and drifted out into the water. I watched them

curling into a kind of vortex, as if something was drawing them in.

It was the mouth of the serpent, swallowing my soul. I opened my own mouth and made a

wretched noise, and Death swam forward to kiss me, to breathe cold water into my lungs.

Suddenly, everything was seared with light. The serpent turned and fled, like a pale timid

worm. A wave of contentment washed over me, as if I was an infant again and my mother had wrapped

her arms around me tightly. It was like basking in sunlight, listening to laughter, dreaming of

music too beautiful to be real. Every muscle in my body was still trying to prise my lungs open to

the water, but now I found myself fighting this almost absentmindedly while I marveled at my

strange euphoria.

file:///G|/rah/Greg%20Egan%20-%20Oceanic.txt (8 of 39) [2/14/2004 12:21:31 AM]

file:///G|/rah/Greg%20Egan%20-%20Oceanic.txt

Cold air swept over my hands and down my arms. I raised myself up to take a mouthful, then

slumped down again, giddy and spluttering, grateful for every breath but still elated by something

else entirely. The light that had filled my eyes was gone, but it left a violet afterimage

everywhere I looked. Daniel kept winding until my head was level with the guard rail, then he

clamped the winch, bent down, and threw me over his shoulder.

I'd been warm enough in the water, but now my teeth were chattering. Daniel wrapped a towel

around me, then set to work cutting the cord. I beamed at him. "I'm so happy!" He gestured to me

to be quieter, but then he whispered joyfully, "That's the love of Beatrice. She'll always be with

you now, Martin."

I blinked with surprise, then laughed softly at my own stupidity. Until that moment, I hadn't

connected what had happened with Beatrice at all. But of course it was Her. I'd asked Her to come

into my heart, and She had.

And I could see it in Daniel's face: a year after his own Drowning, he still felt Her

presence.

He said, "Everything you do now is for Beatrice. When you look through your telescope, you'll

do it to honor Her creation. When you eat, or drink, or swim, you'll do it to give thanks for Her

gifts." I nodded enthusiastically.

Daniel tidied everything away, even soaking up the puddles of water I'd left on the deck.

Back in the cabin, he recited from the Scriptures, passages that I'd never really understood

before, but which now all seemed to be about the Drowning, and the way I was feeling. It was as if

I'd opened the book and found myself mentioned by name on every page.

When Daniel fell asleep before me, for the first time in my life I didn't feel the slightest

pang of loneliness. The Daughter of God was with me: I could feel Her presence, like a flame

inside my skull, radiating warmth through the darkness behind my eyes.

Giving me comfort, giving me strength.

Giving me faith.

file:///G|/rah/Greg%20Egan%20-%20Oceanic.txt (9 of 39) [2/14/2004 12:21:31 AM]

file:///G|/rah/Greg%20Egan%20-%20Oceanic.txt

The monastery was almost four milliradians northeast of our home grounds. Daniel and I took

the launch to a rendezvous point, and met up with three other small vessels before continuing. It

had been the same routine every tenth night for almost a year -- and Daniel had been going to the

Prayer Group himself for a year before that -- so the launch didn't need much supervision. Feeding

on nutrients in the ocean, propelling itself by pumping water through fine channels in its skin,

guided by both sunlight and Covenant's magnetic field, it was a perfect example of the kind of

legacy of the Angels that technology would never be able to match. Bartholomew, Rachel and Agnes

were in one launch, and they traveled beside us while the others skimmed ahead.

Bartholomew and Rachel were married, though they were only seventeen, scarcely older than

Daniel. Agnes, Rachel's sister, was sixteen. Because I was the youngest member of the Prayer

Group, Agnes had fussed over me from the day I'd joined. She said, "It's your big night tonight,

Martin, isn't it?" I nodded, but declined to pursue the conversation, leaving her free to talk to

Daniel.

It was dusk by the time the monastery came into sight, a conical tower built from at least

ten thousand hulls, rising up from the water in the stylized form of Beatrice's spaceship. Aimed

at the sky, not down into the depths. Though some commentators on the Scriptures insisted that the

spaceship itself had sunk forever, and Beatrice had risen from the water unaided, it was still the

definitive symbol of Her victory over Death. For the three days of Her separation from God, all

such buildings stood in darkness, but that was half a year away, and now the monastery shone from

every porthole.

There was a narrow tunnel leading into the base of the tower; the launches detected its scent

in the water and filed in one by one. I knew they didn't have souls, but I wondered what it would

have been like for them if they'd been aware of their actions. Normally they rested in the dock of

a single hull, a pouch of boatskin that secured them but still left them largely exposed. Maybe

being drawn instinctively into this vast structure would have felt even safer, even more

comforting, than docking with their home boat. When I said something to this effect, Rachel, in

the launch behind me, sniggered. Agnes said, "Don't be horrible."

The walls of the tunnel phosphoresced pale green, but the opening ahead was filled with white

lamplight, dazzlingly richer and brighter. We emerged into a canal circling a vast atrium, and

continued around it until the launches found empty docks.

As we disembarked, every footstep, every splash echoed back at us. I looked up at the

ceiling, a dome spliced together from hundreds of curved triangular hull sections, tattooed with

scenes from the Scriptures. The original illustrations were more than a thousand years old, but

the living boatskin degraded the pigments on a time scale of decades, so the monks had to

constantly renew them.

"Beatrice Joining the Angels" was my favorite. Because the Angels weren't flesh, they didn't

grow inside their mothers; they just appeared from nowhere in the streets of the Immaterial

Cities. In the picture on the ceiling, Beatrice's immaterial body was half-formed, with cherubs

still working to clothe the immaterial bones of Her legs and arms in immaterial muscles, veins and

skin. A few Angels in luminous robes were glancing sideways at Her, but you could tell they

weren't particularly impressed. They'd had no way of knowing, then, who She was.

A corridor with its own smaller illustrations led from the atrium to the meeting room. There

were about fifty people in the Prayer Group -- including several priests and monks, though they

acted just like everyone else. In church you followed the liturgy; the priest slotted-in his or

her sermon, but there was no room for the worshippers to do much more than pray or sing in unison

and offer rote responses. Here it was much less formal. There were two or three different speakers

every night -- sometimes guests who were visiting the monastery, sometimes members of the group --

and after that anyone could ask the group to pray with them, about whatever they liked.

I'd fallen behind the others, but they'd saved me an aisle seat. Agnes was to my left, then

Daniel, Bartholomew and Rachel. Agnes said, "Are you nervous?"

"No."

Daniel laughed, as if this claim was ridiculous.

I said, "I'm not." I'd meant to sound loftily unperturbed, but the words came out sullen and

childish.

The first two speakers were both lay theologians, Firmlanders who were visiting the

monastery. One gave a talk about people who belonged to false religions, and how they were all --

in effect -- worshipping Beatrice, but just didn't know it. He said they wouldn't be damned,

because they'd had no choice about the cultures they were born into. Beatrice would know they'd

meant well, and forgive them.

file:///G|/rah/Greg%20Egan%20-%20Oceanic.txt (10 of 39) [2/14/2004 12:21:31 AM]

文档加载中……请稍候！
如果长时间未打开，您也可以点击刷新试试。

下载文档到电脑，查找使用更方便

5.9 玖币 0人已下载

立即下载 VIP免费下载

摘要：

file:///G|/rah/Greg%20Egan%20-%20Oceanic.txtOceanicbyGregEganThankstoCarolineOakley,AnthonyCheetham,...

展开>> 收起<<

Egan, Greg - Oceanic.pdf

共39页,预览10页

还剩页未读，继续阅读

声明：本站为文档C2C交易模式，即用户上传的文档直接被用户下载，本站只是中间服务平台，本站所有文档下载所得的收益归上传人(含作者)所有。玖贝云文库仅提供信息存储空间，仅对用户上传内容的表现方式做保护处理，对上载内容本身不做任何修改或编辑。若文档所含内容侵犯了您的版权或隐私，请立即通知玖贝云文库，我们立即给予删除！

Egan, Greg - Oceanic

相关推荐

开通VIP享超值会员特权

作者详情

相关内容

热门标签

举报选择: