
He tasted the lemonade, not without misgivings, and to his surprise it was lemonade and was really good,
like the lemonade he had drunk when a boy at Fourth of July celebrations and at grade school picnics,
and had never tasted since.
'It is excellent,' he said.
'The lady in blue,' his hostess said, 'sitting in the chair by the window, lived here many years ago. She and
I were friends, although she moved away some time ago and I am surprised that she comes back, which
she often does. The infuriating thing is that I cannot remember her name, if I ever knew it. You don't
know it, do you?'
'I am afraid I don't.'
'Oh, of course, you wouldn't. I had forgotten. I forget so easily these days. You are a new arrival.'
He had sat through the afternoon and drank her lemonade and eaten her cookies, while she chattered on
about her nonexistent guests. It was only when he had crossed the street to the house she had pointed
out as his, with her standing on the stoop and waving her farewell, that he realized she had not told him
her name. He did not know it even now.
How long had it been? He wondered, and realized he didn't know. It was this autumn business. How
could a man keep track of time when it was always autumn?
It all had started on that day when he'd been driving across Iowa, heading for Chicago. No, he reminded
himself, it had started with the thinnesses, although he had paid little attention to the thinnesses to begin
with. Just been aware of them, perhaps as a strange condition of the mind, or perhaps an unusual quality
to the atmosphere and light. As if the world lacked a certain solidity that one had come to expect, as if
one were running along a mystic borderline between here and somewhere else.
He had lost his West Coast job when a government contract had failed to materialize. His company had
not been the only one; there were many other companies that were losing contracts and there were a lot
of engineers who walked the streets bewildered. There was a bare possibility of a job in Chicago,
although he was well aware that by now it might be filled. Even if there were no job, he reminded himself,
he was in better shape than a lot of other men. He was young and single, he had a few dollars in the
bank, he had no house mortgage, no car payments, no kids to put through school. He had only himself to
support - no family of any sort at all. The old, hard-fisted bachelor uncle who had taken him to raise
when his parents had died in a car crash and had worked him hard on that stony hilly Wisconsin farm,
had receded deep into the past becoming a dim, far figure that was hard to recognize. He had not liked
his uncle, Rand remembered - had not hated him, simply had not liked him. He had shed no tears, he
recalled, when the old man had been caught out in a pasture by a bull and gored to death. So now Rand
was quite alone, not even holding the memories of a family.
He had been hoarding the little money that he had, for with a limited work record, with other men better
qualified looking for the jobs, he realized that it might be some time before he could connect with
anything. The beat-up wagon that he drove had space for sleeping, and he stopped at the little wayside
parks along the way to cook his meals.
He had almost crossed the state, and the road had started its long winding through the bluffs that rimmed
the Mississippi. Ahead he caught a glimpse, at several turnings of the road, of smokestacks and tall
structures that marked the city just ahead.