
Maerad leaned back and breathed in hard, gazing up at the distant stars, tiny points of frosty fire
high over the mountains. She searched as she always did for the dawn star, Ilion, burning brightly over
the eastern horizon, and sniffed a new freshness in the early air. It's the beginning of spring, she
thought. Despite her tiredness, her spirits lifted. Then she looked down at her callused hands and sighed.
But not for me; I'm already withering. What will become of me?
She stared at the miserable dwellings around her with a dull hatred. Apart from the Thane's quarters
and the Great Hall, which were better maintained than most, the cot consisted of dirt-floored stone
hovels, roofed with rotting wooden shingles. Many were crumbling under their age and had been badly
patched with clay and straw poultices, giving them an odd, diseased appearance. They stank of rotting
middens and human filth. From inside the dormitory Maerad could hear the high, thin cry of a sick child,
and someone else shouting angrily, and then the dry sob of a woman. What will become of me? she
asked herself again, uselessly, and then the clang of the summons bell broke into her thoughts and she
shook herself and tramped to the common room for her meager breakfast of thin gray porridge, and to
be assigned her tasks for the day.
That morning Maerad was sent to the milchyard, Lothar's section. She grimaced at her bad luck.
She would have to deal with him all day after she had slighted him, and today she was especially tired.
Last night had been one of the Thane Gilman's riots, a special gathering to mark the first spring hunt, and
his men had come back hungry, wild-haired, spattered with blood, quarrelsome, shouting for beer and
voka and roast meats and music. For Gilman it was one of the high points of the year, and the work of all
the slaves was doubled for the day. Maerad had worked an extra shift in the kitchen, turning and basting
the deer carcasses on the iron spits. Then, because she was the only musician in the cot, she had sat in
the Great Hall all night playing the ballads she found so tedious: tales of the slaughter of deer and the
valor of men and dogs—and later, drinking songs, and the bawdies, which Maerad hated most of all.
The Great Hall was a grand name for what was really a large barn, roughly crossbeamed, with a
blackened hole in the roof to let out the smoke from the great fire that always burned in the middle of the
floor. Maerad sat in a corner with her lyre, blank-faced to hide her contempt, while twenty men seated at
a long, roughly hewn wooden table set against the wall tore meat from bones with their bare hands and
drank themselves insensible on the voka, a harsh, eye-stinging spirit distilled from turnips and rutabagas.
They hadn't bothered to wash, and their acrid smell and the wood smoke made her eyes water. No one
tried to paw her, to her infinite relief, but even so, the hot red eyes of the men made her feel filthy. As the
night wore on, the hall grew hotter and stuffier, and Maerad felt dizzy with the reek and her tiredness.
She played badly, something that seldom happened even under such circumstances, but nobody noticed.
The riot finished shortly before dawn, when the last drunken thug crashed facedown on the long
table and snored among the rest, who lay dribbling on their hands or fallen in their own vomit. Then at
last, trembling with weariness, Maerad picked up her lyre and left the hall, stumbling between sleeping
dogs, tossed bones and filth, spilled voka, and snoring bodies to the sweet air outside. She stank, but she
was so exhausted, she had simply made her way to the women's slave quarters and slipped onto her
meager straw pallet for a bare hour of sleep.
In the cowbyre she leaned her forehead into the warm flanks of a dark-eyed cow, who stood
patiently chewing cud as she kneaded its full udder. The milk splashed rhythmically into the pail. Maerad
was on the brink of sleep when suddenly the cow almost kicked her and then tried to rear. Maerad
started awake, rescuing the pail—spilled milk would mean a beating—and tried to calm the animal.
Normally a word would do, but the creature kept snorting and stamping, pulling the chains that held her
hind leg and head as if she were distressed or frightened.
The hair on the back of Maerad's neck prickled. She had a strange, taut feeling, as if there were