David Feintuch - Seafort 04 - Fisherman's Hope

PART 1

August 4, in the Year of our Lord 2201

Chapter 1

"But Vasily's a Russian, and we're short on Eurasians." Lieutenant Darwin Sleak flipped through the stack of folders on the polished

conference table, each an application to the United Nations Naval Academy. Sleak glanced at Commandant Kearsey for approval,

squinting in the bright summer Devon sun.

The Commandant tapped his folder, "Bom September 2187. Grades put him in the eleventh percentile among applicants, admission

tests put him eighteenth. Low, but someone has to be near the bottom," He shrugged his unconcern, "Put him on the list, I suppose,"

He turned to me. "Any comment, Captain Seafort?"

I blurted, "I thought the Selection Board didn't consider nationality," Damn Final Cull, anyway. My aide Edgar TolHver carefully studied his

fingernails, accustomed to my outbursts.

Commandant Kearsey said, "Officially, we don't. And we wouldn't take some unqualified joey simply to gain another Russian, But with a

war on, we need public support from every continent, A balanced cadet class doesn't hurt."

I knew he was right. The Navy's appalling losses to the fish-like aliens that had attacked our Hope Nation and Vegan colonies had to be

made up, and the cost of rebuilding the fleet would be enormous. The deadly assaults had destroyed fourteen ships of the line and

killed untold hundreds of crewmen, some my friends. And then we'd lost Orbit Station, where Vax Holser had died hoping to save me.

I forced my thoughts into a new channel. "What if we just took the top three hundred eighty?"

"We'd lose all geographical balance."

My tone was acid. "So? Balance wasn't a consideration when you took Senator Boland's son," 1 shouldn't have said it, but my new

shoes hurt and so did my chest; I'd grown accustomed to one-sixth gravity during my recent stay on Lunapolis.

I braced myself for the Commandant's withering glare that had transfixed me as a raw cadet only fourteen years ago. Certainly my

manner warranted it. But I was no longer a frightened thirteen-year-old reporting for induction; now I was the notorious Nicholas Ewing

Seafort, "hero" of Hope Nation. My face scowled from a recruiting poster, and in two short weeks I was to replace Kearsey as

Commandant of both U.N.N.S. Academy bases, here at Devon and at Farside, on Luna. I alone knew of the perversions on which the

public's adulation was based, I, and Lord God. Someday I must face His reckoning.

Commandant Kearsey concealed whatever annoyance he felt. "We can't very well turn down a U.N. Senator's son, Captain. Especially

when Boland's on the Security Council's Naval Affairs Committee. Anyway, the boy's grades are acceptable."

"Lower than the Russian's, I think. Who are we bumping for the Boland boy?"

His staff aide, Sergeant Kinders, handed him a folder. "A Parisian. Jacques Theroux." The Commandant frowned. "It's not as if the boy

will know why he's off the final list. What's more important: putting another cadet in Boland's place, or having powerful friends at

appropriation time? Do you want the new ships built or not?"

I stared at the door, knowing I had no answer. The Navy must be restored, to guard our far-flung colonies, and to protect home system if

the fish attacked. 1 muttered, "I'd still pick the first three hundred eighty."

Even TolHver and Sleak looked at me strangely. It was a moment before Commandant Kearsey answered. "Then we'd lose Final Cull.

We'd be stuck with the candidates the Selection Board sent."

"Yes."

Lieutenant Sleak cleared his throat, waited for the Commandant's nod. "Final Cull is Academy's hard-won prerogative, and our only input

into the Selection process. Would you have us give it up?" His tone was cold, despite the fact that I'd soon be his commander.

Final Cull was a traditional privilege, and the Navy shouldn't surrender its traditions easily.

Yet, still...

"Father, can Jason stay for dinner?" At thirteen I knew better than to ask in front of the prospective guest, i hoped I

could get away with it, as I'd just thrown Father's cherished obligations of hostship into the balance against his stern disapproval of my

friend.

Father's eyebrow raised. "He could abide our prayers?"

Jason flushed, his eye on the orchestron we were updating on the creaky kitchen table. He paused, chip in hand. "I may be a freethinker,

sir, but I respect the customs of your house." Quickly, as if he'd gone too far, he bent over the orchestron motherboard.

Father grunted. "Respect for Lord God isn't a custom. It is life itself." Still, I knew Jason's forthrightness had gained him favor in Father's

eyes, "Perhaps you too will find Him, before you consign yourself to damnation," Oh, please, not a sermon. Not In front of Jason.

Father gave the gleaming teapot one last swipe with the soft cloth. "I can't Imagine why Nicholas thinks asking permission In your

presence will sway me. He knows better manners than he practices," I swallowed. More verses at bedside, or worse; Father always

remembered the day's sins. Still, the corners of his mouth turned up grudgingly. "Pea soup, the fresh bread, and tomatoes from the

garden. Can you tolerate It?"

That's fine, sir," Jason said quickly, I flashed him a grin across the table; he surreptitiously kicked my shin.

Later, washing for dinner, Jason asked softly, "Heard anything yet?"

I shook my head, One way or another, word had to come soon. Time was running out,

"He's said you can go for sure?"

"Aye." Perhaps my Imploring and tears had nothing to do with Father's consent, I suspected they'd helped, despite the switching he'd

given me when I persisted,

"Well, you reached the second Interview, and didn't get a washout letter. You made It to Final Cull." Uke any teener, he was familiar with

Academy admission procedures. If I Final Cull I'd be admitted to Terrestrial Academy at Devon, where they'd subject me to training

before shipping me to Farside for my real education,

"Aye,111 wished Jason wouldn't talk ft; I'd myself that not discussing my chances somehow Improved them, At dinner Father drew

himself from hi customary meditative silence, for Jason's sake. For the moment, Jase was Father's guest as well as mine. "Your, ah,

plaything is fixed?"

The orchestron? Aye, sir. But it's an instrument, not a toy."

"An instrument of... electronics." He and I both knew his unspoken thought. An instrument of Satan, as all idle amusements.

"And of music, Mr. Seafort. There isn't much the Welsh Philharmonic can play that we couldn't re-create on it."

"By pushing buttons." But Father's tone was agreeable, as he mopped at his soup with the hot bread he'd pulled from the oven an hour

before.

Jason's lean face lit with the grin I cherished. "It's all in knowing what buttons to push, sir."

Father looked to me, shaking his head as if in exasperation. Recklessly, I grinned back; Jason had that effect on me. He was courteous

to Father, even respected him in a way, without taking Father's manner seriously. At first I'd been scandalized, then put off, but now I

knew it was part of Jason's singular view of the world.

Father asked, "You'll be in Third?" Two conversational gambits in an evening. He was treating Jason as an adult, and I was grateful.

"Yes, sir. This year I'm taking Engineering for electlves,"

"Why?"

"I like to build things, or fix them."

"A erty and a tower, whose top may reach unto heaven,"

Jason looked confused. I explained, "He means the tower of Babel, Genesis Nine,"

Father swung to me In rebuke. Eleven. Don't pretend to learning you lack, Nicholas,"

"I'm sorry, sir,"

"Nieky could sign up for half days, Mr, Seafort, We could work on projects together."

Father raised an eyebrow, "Nicholas learns best at home, where his idleness is held in check." That was like Father, to discuss my

faults in front of anyone, as if I had no feelings. But to my surprise he added, "Anyway, Nicholas won't be at your school next year. I

imagine he'll be at Academy." I was astonished. Father had never once hinted he thought I had a chance of being accepted.

"Of course," Jason said quickly. "I just meant if he didn't - I mean, I forgot."

Two days later I was on my knees pulling the stubborn weeds from our garden, knowing Father's vigilant eye would judge my work, and

that my chance of parole on Saturday depended on his approval. Jason had bought us tickets to the football game with the Irish, though I

hadn't told Father yet.

A shadow fell across the black dirt. I looked up, a bead of sweat trickling. "I'm not done yet, sir. I'll catch the rest of that row, after."

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He waved it away. The post is here."

The post?" Why would he interrupt my chores for- "It came?" I was on my feet. "What does it say?"

"I don't know. It's yours to open,"

I reached out, but he shook his head, "On the kitchen table." I dashed to the door. "Mind you wash your hands!"

I took enough time to rinse so I'd leave no grime on the towel. That would infuriate Father, and I wouldn't enjoy the consequences. I

rushed back to the kitchen, tore open the em* bossed envelope. Father waited, leaning against ttie sink, his face grave.

The Selection Board of the U.N.N.S. Naval Academy always has more qualified candidates than places. We regret to inform you that

after careful consideration we are unable.,,"

I dropped the letter on the table, blinking away a blur. Unbelieving, I snatched It up again,",,, you are to be congratulated that you were

one of the final candidates in this year's selection process. If you wish to apply again next year we would b® happy to consider..,"'"

My stinging, I ran into my room, slammed tht door, i threw myself on my bed. Footsteps, The door almost instantly. "Stand up!"

"Let me be alone for-*

"Up!" Father's tone brooked no argument. I stumbled to my feet. He stepped back into the hall, "Close your door properly,"

! I gaped. "You care more about-" His eyes narrowed and I stopped just In time. "Aye, sir." j turned the knob. tht i door quietly.

Through the door Father said, "I wonl have you slamming doors In my house."

"No, sir, I'm sorry." I crept back to my bed, kicked off my

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shoes. I buried my head in the pillow, determined to smother my sobs.

He gave me about an hour before he came back into the room. "May I read your letter?"

My voice was muffled. "You know what it says."

"From your reaction, yes." He paused. "They rejected you." His phrasing reduced me to helpless tears. For a moment his hand lay on my

shoulder, then it was gone, as if it had fallen by accident. "Nicholas, turn so I can see you."

"I want to be alone."

His tone was sharp. "Yes, to feel sorry for yourself."

"Why shouldn't I?" My voice was muffled.

"So you set yourself against the Lord?"

®l_What?"

Father pulled at my arm until I turned onto my back. Reluctantly, I looked to him, eyes red.

"If Lord God wanted you to attend Naval Academy, do you think they'd not have admitted you?"

I was outraged. "You're saying Hc didn't want me to go?" Father was silent. "Why should He care one way or the other? It was the stupid

Selection Board, not Him."

Father shook his head. "He cares. About you, as about all

of us," ¯. ,,.., My tone risked a strapping, but I didn't care. Then why did He have me waste my time applying?"

Father's eyes bored into mine. "Perhaps to teach you to accept failure like a man, rather than as a whining child."

I closed my burning eyes. Father would never understand. "Nicholas, this is hard for you. But you must accept His will, I'll pray with you

later. Perhaps we can find His consolation,11 It meant I would spend hours on the hard bedroom floor, knees aching, while I sought the

relief Father himself could give, but would not.

I looked up at the Commandant. "Give up Final Cull? Is that so awful?"

Kearsey's fingers drummed the conference table. "The Selection Board.,. you know who's on it?"

I said, "Admiralty appoints two members, the Secretary General appoints two, and three come from the Senate."

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"Did you know the Navy used to select its own applicants?"

"Of course, all the services did, until the scandals." Seventy-five years later, the Navy hadn't forgotten its humiliation.

The Commandant smiled grimly. "There was a battle royal when the changes were proposed. We lost; the Navy would no longer be

allowed to choose its own candidates. Elitism, they called it, though why the Navy officers' corps shouldn't be elite, only Lord God knows.

As a sop, they left us Final Cull. The politicians send us their selections, but at least we can weed through them."

I stabbed at my folder. "Is that what we're doing by making sure we have proportionate Russians and Equadorians and Yanks? By

making a place for the Boland boy?"

He flushed, "We do the best we can. Next year you'll get to decide alone. But even though it's my responsibility, you're the one who has to

take the class through Academy. Do you object to Vasily Karnyenkov? Would you rather have Jacques what's-his-name?"

I'd rather not have to cull at all. "No," I said wearily. "Let it be." Under the table, my nails left marks in my creased trouser leg.

Tolliver and I walked slowly across the immaculate lawn to Officers' Quarters. "Even if you did alienate him, sir, what difference does it

make? Another few days and he'll be gone."

"He's been the Commandant for, what, eighteen years? They'll still look to him for advice, I don't need another enemy."

"You didn't make an enemy," Tolliver soothed, "He was only defending Final Cull,"

"It's not as if we can predict what kind of middies they'll turn into," 1 brooded. Test and couldn't reveal which of our green cadets would

mature into outstanding officers after two years or more of our instruction.

I parted with Tolliver at my door. As a full Captain and the Commandant-elect, I rated an apartment that was large and luxurious by Naval

standards. I'd be spending much of my time here, as Commandant. 1 stripped off my jacket, loosened my tie, and sat on the of the bed

with caller in hand, Two days had passed I'd last visited the clinic. Perhaps Annie was better.

I waited for the connection to New York. "Dr, O'Neiirs of flee, please," Another wait. I drummed my fingers on the bedside table. The

marvels of technology. Finally he came on the line.

"I'm glad you called." He sounded harried.

"How is my wife?"

"She's, ah, progressing as expected."

I waited, but he didn't continue. "You had something to tell me, Doctor?"

"Not particularly. Why?"

"You said you were glad I called."

"We're always glad when relatives take an interest, Captain. In general the patient's progress is more rapid-"

"How is Annie, Dr. O'Neill? Do you know?"

He lapsed into incomprehensible medical jargon, analyzing Annie's blood tests for each of the seventeen hormones known to be

responsible for mood and behavior.

I listened, trying to filter truth through his statistics. At length I could stand it no longer. "But how is she?"

"She continues to stabilize. Right now she's responding to changes in her secondary meds. Taking more interest in surroundings, but

her mood swings are greater."

I closed my eyes. Annie, I wish 1 knew how to help you. If only I hadn't let you meet me at that gutted church, in the stricken Hope Nation

city of Centraltown. But for my folly, you'd be whole, rather than languishing in a clinic undergoing hormone rebalance, to our mutual

humiliation. I wondered if any of the Academy staff knew the nature of her illness. Rebalancing was seen as shameful, and discharged

patients were patronized if not ostracized. I myself struggled with those very feelings.

Tired, helpless, I granted vague responses to Dr. O'Neill's prattle until I could ring off. Though I hated the embattled city of New York, I

yearned to chuck everything and jump on the next suborbital. Instead, I had to endure two more days of Final Cull. I supposed I could

find some excuse for not attending, or tell Commandant Kearsey I didn't care whom he selected, but such an attitude approached

heresy. Better to delay my visit another few days, until after Handover.

Still an hour to dinner, and the silent apartment was oppressive. I thrust on my jacket, left my quarters. The Admin Building's brass door

handles were polished and gleaming, the compound's walkway meticulously edged. With a start 1 real-

ized it was the same path on which I'd labored for hours with hand clippers and spade, while my bunkmates were enjoying their Sunday

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afternoon freedom. Well, I wasn't the only one, and I hadn't earned punishment detail often.

I wandered past Officers' Quarters to the wide parade ground. I kicked at the gravel track that surrounded the field where even now

cadets exercised under the vigilant eye of their drill sergeants.

Avoiding the squads of perspiring cadets I crossed to the classroom complex beyond. It was the first time I'd seen the classrooms since

I'd returned. On impulse I entered a building, automatically smoothing my hair and tucking at my jacket. Old habits die hard.

The walls held the same pictures of squads in immaculate uniforms standing at ease with their sergeant, looking directly into the

camera. All so young, so innocent. As I'd been, once. All cadets were recruited young as a matter of necessity. The N-waves our Fusion

drives produced could trigger melanoma-T, a deadly cancer, but exposure within five years of puberty lessened the risk.

I perused the hopeful faces. Where had I turned wrong, from the eager lad in a picture lining the classroom halls?

Footsteps. Two cadets turned the corner, talking softly. When

they saw me their eyes widened and they snapped to rigid attention against the corridor wall. Had I been a sergeant they'd have saluted

and gone about their business, though with brisker step.

But an officer-not just an officer, but a full Captain-was something else again.

I could have returned their salutes, growled, "As you were,** and gone on my way, Instead, embarrassed at having dis' covered mooning

over old pictures, I made a show of inspecting them. Even as I did so, I knew it was a mistake. By tradition, a Captain barely noticed a

midshipman, to say nothing of a cadet,

Like all our charges, these two were in their middle teens. The boy was taller, with short, curly black hair. The girl's locks were

somewhat longer, almost to her collar, as the regs permitted for females. Their gray uniforms were neat and clean, their shoes

spit-polished to perfection. Their belt buckles shined, though the boy's tie wis slightly off-center, I scowled as I adjusted it. He bit his lip

before remembering he was at attention.

"Name and year?"

"Omar Benghadi, sir. I'm second." His voice came too loud; he flushed with embarrassment.

"And you?"

"Alicia Johns, sir. First." Had it been earlier in the term I wouldn't have had to ask; a plebe was easy to spot. But later, one couldn't

always tell by appearance or demeanor. Not if the drill sergeants were doing their job.

"Very wel-"

"May I help you, Lieutenant?" The voice was cool; not impolite, but with perhaps a touch of impatience.

I turned.

His eyes flickered to my insignia. "Oh, please excuse me, sir. Staff Sergeant Ramon Ibarez." He came to attention.

"As you were," I said immediately. One didn't harass the Marine staff in front of their Naval charges.

"Sorry, Captain Seafort. I didn't recognize you." He hesitated. "Is there a problem with these two?" His tone implied that if there were he'd

eliminate it, perhaps along with the cadets. His manner wasn't lost on the blond boy, who gulped. The girl waited impassively.

"No, Sarge. I was just, ah..." I found myself searching for an excuse to explain my presence. I managed to avoid licking my lips in

nervous tension. He was only a sergeant, for heaven's sake. I was long since graduated, and far outranked him. "Just an inspection," I

said more firmly. "Carry on, you two."

"Aye aye, sir." The cadets scurried off.

The sergeant repeated, "May I help you, sir?" His manner seemed to enquire, what were you doing in my building?

So barracks scuttlebutt had it right: drill sergeants were afraid of nothing, even the prospective Commandant. No wonder we'd feared

them. "No thanks, Sarge." It seemed too bald a dismissal, so I added lamely, "Getting them ready for exams?"

"No, sir. Not really. Just makework, mostly, and giving the plebes a head start on next semester's work, though they don't know that." He

smiled; the grin went to his eyes and transformed them. "I missed you by a couple of years, sir. I got here in '94."

"I left in '92."

"I know."

I blurted, "You do?"

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"Of course. You berthed in Valdez Hall, in bunk three, when you came down from Farside your second year. We give that bed as a

reward to joeys who've done well."

"Good Lord!" Was he pulling my leg? Not even a drill sergeant would try that on a full Captain. Would he?

"Everyone who was here claims to remember you. Even if they can't, they say they do."

It was absurd. I cast about to change the subject. "You're a classroom instructor?"

"Yes, sir, but my kids are dispersed to Training Station and the Fusers, so I'm taking a shift at gunnery and physical defense while

waiting for my incoming plebes. I was just conferring with Sergeant Vost about one of my kids. We're trying to pull him through

Elementary Nav."

Suddenly I liked him. "Join me for a cup of coffee, Sarge?"

"I, uh..." His composure was momentarily gone. "If you're sure you don't mind, sir."

"Not at all." I hesitated. When last I'd bustled through these halls, an afternoon cup was the farthest thing from my mind. "Where can we

go?"

"Staff lounge is at the end of the corridor, sir."

I took a seat in a comfortable battered leather chair and let him pour me a cup.

"Twelve days to go."

I looked up. "Pardon?"

"To Handover. Then the place is yours." He paused, said cautiously, "Excuse me if I'm out of line."

He was, but we weren't shipboard, and his forthrightness came as a relief. "No, not at all." I gestured at the coffee table. "Will they mind

our making ourselves at home?"

"Mind?" He gaped. "Mind that Captain Nicholas Seafort relaxed in their lounge?"

I felt a fool. "I suppose not."

He studied me, started to say something, looked away. The silence stretched. I fidgeted, anxious to finish my coffee and be gone.

Sergeant Ibarez blurted, "You're not comfortable with fame."

How dare he? My jaw dropped. "I beg your pardon?"

He flushed. "I suppose I've just thrown away my career. I apologize, sir."

I began indignantly, "Certain matters are-" I ground to a halt. I'd sought companionship with the man and I was about to blast him for

offering it. Swallowing my wrath, I stood, walked to the window, watched the perspiring cadets exercising on the parade ground. "No,

Sarge, I'm not. In fact I hate it."

This time our silence had a different flavor. At length he said, "Odd, isn't it? Most of us would give anything to be like you."

"You don't want to be like me," I said with finality.

"Everyone thought you'd take another ship. Until the announcement, no one believed the rumor you'd be assigned here." In the corridor,

a bell rang. In a few minutes cadet classes would be dismissed. None of the youngsters would close their books or snap off their

puters until the instructors gave them leave. Doing so was an invitation to demerits.

"I didn't want a ship." I didn't want to be Commandant either, but I'd finally let them persuade me.

"You're needed, sir."

He sounded like Senator Boland, and my resentment was kindled. "Not really." I braced myself for another lecture about the Navy's need

for heroes now that we were at war.

"The place has... stagnated."

I turned; his eyes were on the carpet. I asked quietly, "How do you mean?" It was somewhere between an invitation and a command.

"Just..." Sergeant Ibarez looked up, paused. "I don't mean to talk out of school, sir." He put down his cup. "I believe in tradition. It's a glue

that binds together the elements of the Service." He crossed to the window, looked out at the field and the helipad. "And I also believe

the Commandant should be a remote figure of authority. But sometimes tradition can be carried too far. The Commandant can be too

remote." He studied the transplex. "Commandant Kearsey believes strongly in tradition, sir."

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I knew better than to press. Til keep it in mind." I looked at the clock. "Time to get ready for dinner," I offered my hand, and we shook.

Four hundred twenty folders still littered the conference table. Perhaps that was what Sergeant Ibarez meant by tradition. It would be far

easier to sort personnel files on puter, but the Navy had always handled admissions with hardcopy files,

"Any other changes?" The Commandant looked around the table.

"We have a pretty fair balance," said Lieutenant Sleak, his tone diffident. "Both ethnic and regional." Beside me, Edgar Tolliver doodled

on a pad. "The age mix is about right, though we're leaning a bit heavily toward fourteens this year."

"Mr. Seafort?" The Commandant glanced my way.

I shook my head in frustration. How could I guess which youngsters to admit? Beside me Lieutenant Tolliver played with his pad,

refusing to meet my eye. Why hadn't I rid myself of him when I had the chance? Even when we'd been cadets at Academy, I'd abhorred

him.

"I don't-" I paused as Tolliver slid his pad to his right. I pushed it away, but not before noticing the sentence underlined twice. "What

about Theroux?" I realized I'd spoken it aloud.

Kearsey wrinkled his brow. "Who's that? The Parisian?"

"Yes, sir." Tolliver's voice startled me.

"I suppose we could revise once more," the Commandant said. I looked up; this time Kearsey*s eye held the stem disapproval I'd

feared as a cadet.

All I wanted was to be gone from here, but Kearsey's annoyance triggered something in me. "I'd like to see Theroux on the list,"

Kearsey shrugged, "Very well. I won't deny you your selections. You'll have to live with them. Darwin, put the Theroux boy back, and drop

the three hundred eightieth name."

"Aye aye, sir." Sleak made a note.

After the meeting broke up I strode briskly back to my apartment; I'd be leaving within the hour for New York and Annie. Tolliver hurried

alongside. He'd see me to my suborbital, and then he'd be on his own for a week, "Why Theroux?" I demanded. Absentmindedly I

returned the salutes of passing cadets.

Tolliver panted, "Why not, sir? It makes as much sense as any other name," We turned into the Officers' Quadrangle,

I stopped; he continued a couple of paces before he realized 1 wasn't following. He turned and waited,

"Tell me the truth."

He shrugged. "I don't know why. Because he was on the list originally, and got bumped for someone else. Because his test scores and

grades were fifteenth percentile, and the Russian boy's were lower."

I raised my eyebrow, "You, an idealist?"

Tolliver stood his ground. "Call it what you want, sir. I thought it wasn't fair. If you disagreed, why did you go along?"

I had no response to that. "Mind your manners," I growled.

"Aye aye, sir. As always." Damn it, the man was hopeless.

A few minutes later he watched my heli lift off for London Shuttleport.

Chapter 2

The clinic had been built atop the abandoned Yankee Stadium parking lot, after New York Military Command had decreed that public

team sports were ipso-facto incitements to not. It stood by itself on a huge lot long gone to weeds, not far from the crumbling stadium

walls that were New York's answer to Rome's Coliseum.

Incongruously, the clinic was bordered by a pleasant, manicured lawn. The only concession to its hostile environment was the high

barbed-wire fence surrounding the complex. Outside the fence, squatter shacks had sprung up on all sides, but for whatever reason

none stood within a stone's throw of the clinic grounds.

The clinic's security arrangements were low-key but omnipresent. Closed gates, cameras, doorways with bomb sniffers concealed

behind their painted trim. The usual adjuncts of urban life, not only in New York, but in all sophisticated cities. In London, just a year

before, Lord Mayor Rajnee Sivat had barely escaped assassination, thanks to the bomb sniffers.

My appointment with Dr. O'Neill was for two P.M., but he wasn't yet on the hospital grounds. They told me he'd be "indefinitely detained." I

conferred instead with Mrs. Talbot, his nurse, who made a show of having all calls held while she escorted me to a private office. I

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noticed that our indirect route managed to take us past many of her co-workers. For Annie's sake I held my peace.

"Of course you may see her, Captain Seafort. Doctor says visits will do her good as long as you both want them."

"Tell me again about the mood swings."

She waved away my concern. "They're to be expected at this stage. Your wife is undergoing a complicated course of hormone

rebalancing." I tried not to flinch at the bald phrase; the fact of Annie's treatment was something we would have to live with. "She's

settling into new glandular patterns, and Doctor is constantly fine-tuning, as it were, based on her blood tests."

I twisted my cap in my hands. Oh, Annie.

Mrs. Talbot lowered her voice. "And of course your wife had some terribly traumatic experiences, quite apart from the rebalancing."

I looked up. Was there a hint of reproach? I couldn't be sure. Well, I had no right to object. Before the rape that had devastated her, Annie

had endured the bombing of Centraltown and its accompanying chaos. To say nothing of abandonment and starvation on Challenger.

Mrs. Talbot's tone was gentler. "She's among strangers, too. That doesn't help, especially with her background."

I searched her eyes for the slur that must be there, found none.

For many decades Lower New York had been abandoned to bands of ruthless transpops who roamed its broken streets. Savage

gangs comprised the city's transient population, many of Asian, Hispanic, or black origins. They preyed ruthlessly on each other and on

the homeless. Above, in luxurious aeries, the civilized, cultured denizens of Upper New York shielded themselves from the harsh reality

below with well-armed guards and their heavily fortified buildings. The Uppies referred to the transpops below as "trannies," an insult

that could cost a life, if overheard.

Annie had come from those brutal streets. So had Seaman Eddie Boss, whom I'd inducted into the Navy. I'd banished him to U.N.S.

Waterloo, the first ship sailing out-system, after I'd found him lying with Annie one awful Hope Nation afternoon.

"You've been through terrible times, both of you. It must have been ghastly, Captain."

I stiffened, brought myself under control only with effort. "It's past."

"You look ever so much better without-now that you've recovered."

Without my scar, she'd meant. Unnoticed, my hand crept to my cheek, where the plastic surgeons had done their work. I shifted

uncomfortably. "I'd like to see my wife, if I may."

"Of course." She stood, and we went out to the corridor. "Doctor says Mrs. Seafort may go anywhere on the grounds. Shall I take you to

her room?"

"I know the way," I said hastily. Mrs. Talbot's disappointment was obvious. "Thank you. Oh, and, uh..." I forced down my revulsion, groped

for a way. "Do you perchance have any children?"

"Yes, two. Kathy and Jon."

"You have their pictures?"

"On my desk. Would you like to see?"

"Very much." I followed her back to her tiny office outside Dr. O'Neill's larger one. They were antique-style photos, not ordinary holos. I

took out a pen. "May I?"

Her eyes widened in pleasure. "Oh, yes. Of course."

I wrote, "To Kathy and Jon, with gratitude for all the help their mother has provided. Nicholas E. Seafort, Captain, U.N.N.S."

Mrs. Talbot was breathless. She clutched the photo to her bosom. "Thank you, Captain. Thanks ever so much."

I took my leave, trying to force a calm while my stomach churned with disgust. People like Mrs. Talbot would bend backward for

someone whose face was blazoned across the holos. But any humiliation was to be borne, if Annie received better care.

I sat with her in a sunny lounge, one hand thrown casually across the back of the sofa, the other in my jacket pocket, knuckles white, fist

bunched. Annie stared sullenly at the wall. "I wonder why you bother coming, Nick."

"I want to see you. I'd be here every day if I could." I debated moving closer, decided not to risk it. "I'm sorry you're angry."

"I ain't angry!" She crossed her arms, turned away.

I said gently, "Annie, I love you." I held my breath.

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When she turned, her eyes were scornful. "That ain't enough, Nicky."

My hand ached, I forced my fist to relax. "What would be enough?"

"Nothin'. You put me in dis-this place."

"Do you want to leave?"

"Yes! No! Damnit, I don't know what I want no more. You and your medicines done this to me!" I reached to her but she spun out of her

seat and retreated. I watched, helpless. After a time she said quietly, "Come on, let's walk."

We strolled along the footpath. Eventually she took my arm. "Nicky, I'm all mixed up. I din' mean shout at you."

"I know, hon."

She kicked at a small stone. "Dr. O'Neill says I be gettin' better. He's prolly right. C'n you wait it out with me?"

My throat ached. "Of course. As long as it takes."

"Good. 'Cause dere's somethin' I wan'."

I tensed. Only at moments of stress did Annie revert to her transpop dialect.

"Nicky, I be gettin' mad every time I see you. Dr. O'Neill, he say it don' have nothin' to do with you, that I'm angry at Hope Nation and the

fish and all. He keeps sayin' talk about it, and I keep tellin' him dat jus' make me madder, I should shut up 'til it go away."

"He's right, hon." Though the Freudian cult had long been discredited and repressed, even the Reunification Church approved of

confessing sin and facing one's fear.

"It don' matter if he be right or wrong, the thing is, every time I be seein' you I get all mad again. What 1 wan'..." She faltered.

I steeled myself against a growing unease. "Yes?"

Her tone was determined. "I wan' you not to come see me fo' a while, 'til I be feelin' okay. It just get me all confused." Despite her words

she clutched my arm tighter.

"Oh, Annie."

She turned toward me. "1 mean it, Nicky. It ain't just what I'm feelin' dis moment."

"I know."

"I wanna keep lovin' you, Jus' lemme be, fo* now,"

"All right-Softly she wiped my cheek, and her hand came away wet, "Bes' you go now, 'fore I change my mind again."

"Yes." My tone was dull. I enfolded her in my arms, kissed the top of her head. "I love you. Remember that," I hurried off.

An armored cab took me to the nearest heliport. I'd planned to spend several days with my wife, but found myself cast adrift. I could go

downtown to the towers of Upper New York, and look down from my hotel room to the ugly streets. That held no appeal; I'd toured New

York twice and hated it, I had five days leave, and nothing to do. If I returned to Academy at Devon I'd just seem to be interfering with

Captain Kearsey's final days as Commandant. Better to stay out of the way, in London. I booked myself onto a suborbital. When we

landed, I arranged a room in the old and decaying West End, where were located many of the hotels that had survived the Fire of 2070.

By mid-evening I'd settled into my room. Almost at once the hotel made me uneasy; wherever I went the eyes of the staff followed.

Chambermaids and bellmen who never spoke to guests found occasion to talk with to me. Even the chef had come to my table,

ostensibly to inquire if I liked the food.

I tried going out for a walk, but was soon recognized, and had no peace thereafter. People stared. Some even pointed. Perhaps I might

have avoided the worst of it by donning civilian garb, but I'd be damned if I'd skulk about as if ashamed of the Navy. I frowned at the

unfortunate phrase, I was damned; Lord God would have no forgiveness for what I'd done.

I paced my room, restless. I could run up to Farside, but I'd already scheduled a trip aloft a few days after Handover. No point in visiting

Lunapolis, either. I'd just seen my old friend Alexi Tamarov settled in to his new post there, as assistant to the Chief of Naval Operations;

after that hitch he'd surely be rotated back onto a ship. Good officers were scarcer than ever these days,

Nowhere held any appeal. For years I'd lived aboard ship, occasionally taking brief jaunts ashore. It was what I knew,

A vacation, then? There was nothing I wanted to see, 1 couldn't abide an hotel. I wanted to go...

Home.

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I jumped off the bed. A hell, or a plane, first thing in the morning; nothing would be leaving at this hour. Or I could drive, though even

today the through the hills to Cardiff were difficult. The only other way was... I snatched the caller. Moments later I thrust gear into my

duffel. The would have a rooftop helicab waiting; if I raced, I could just make it, I signed for the unused room, let the bellhop carry my bag

up to the cab, "Paddington Station, and hurry!"

The driver smiled sourly, "Sure, and I'll hurry. One of these days bloke will get in and say, 'Tike your time, lad. I checked out early,"* He

turned the ignition and the blades whirred. We lifted off.

Half an hour later I settled into my railway compartment, I hauled down the bed while we rumbled through the endless suburbs of

Extended London. We would pull into Cardiff in time for breakfast. I took off my shirt and pants, stretched out on the tiny bunk, relaxed at

last.

Father. Home.

I slept.

I took breakfast in the ancient railway station before ringing for a cab. I didn't bother bargaining the fare though I knew Father wouldn't

approve of extravagance. I could afford it, and the cabby deserved a living.

I stared out the window at the remains of the ancient foundries. Jason and I had played in these eerie vacant buildings, a lifetime ago.

The cab climbed deeper into the hills, on the twisting Bridgend road.

The cabby was content to follow my directions. When finally he pulled to a stop I got out, thrust bills at him, and waited until he'd

disappeared before I faced the familiar cottage down the hill from the road. I hadn't called ahead, knowing with absolute certainty that

there was no need. If Father had gone to market, his door would be open, and if he were at home I was welcome. Except on Sunday, he

would be nowhere else. It was as it would always be.

Still, I knocked, rather than entering. I was thirteen when I'd left this place, and as many years had passed.

The door swung open. Father seemed older, worn. He'd been washing breakfast dishes, and still wore his apron. His eyes flickered to

my uniform, to my duffel. "You'll be staying, then?"

"Aye, for a while."

He turned away and I followed him into the kitchen. "The tea is hot."

"Thank you." I took a cup, poured the boiling water, set the ball of tea leaves in it. I held the chain and swished it in the darkening water.

"I'd heard you were back. The grocer told me it was in the holozines. He wanted to give me one."

I sipped at the tea. "Father, do you mind if I stay the week?"

"You are home, Nicholas."

"Thank you."

"You can help with the fence. Garth's cows want my grass and my garden, as always."

"All right."

He gestured to my jacket, my crisp blue slacks. "Work will ruin them."

"I have old pants. The shirt won't matter."

"You'll do your old chores."

I nodded. Nothing had changed, or could. I'd once pleaded: Do you love me? He hadn't answered, of course. Perhaps he didn't know

himself.

I took my duffel into my old room, almost unchanged after a decade of absence. I sat down on the bed. The springs still creaked. They

had caused me difficulty, trying to conceal my youthful passion from Father's notice.

My clothes changed, I worked at repairing the fence until Father set out a simple lunch of soup and vegetables. After, I returned to work;

he rinsed the dishes before rejoining me. Later, when the gloomy sky darkened to dusk he surveyed the stretch of ragged fence we'd

restored. "It's a beginning, anyway. We could have done more."

"I'm sorry, Father."

"Sorry builds no fences." Still, his hand brushed my side as we walked to the house. "I'll be making dinner."

"I could help."

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