
broadsided by an ambulance. Like I said, she was old, a hundred and twenty something; they should've
lifted her license back in the '50s. She was killed instantly. Father Tom died in the hospital.
"Of course, we were all supposed to feel sorry for them and I guess I did a little, but I never really liked
either of them and I resented the way their deaths had screwed things up for my class. So I was more
annoyed than sorry, but then I also had this edge of guilt for being so uncharitable. Maybe you'd have to
grow up Catholic to understand that. Anyway, the day after it happened they called an assembly in the
gym and we were all there squirming on the bleachers and the cardinal himself telepresented a sermon.
He kept trying to comfort us, like it had been our parents that had died. When I made a joke about it to
the kid next to me, I got caught and spent the last week of my senior year with an in-school suspension."
Kamala had finished her tea. She slid the empty cup into one of the holders built into the table.
"Want some more?" I said.
She stirred restlessly. "Why are you telling me this?"
"It's part of the secret." I leaned forward in my chair. "See, my family lived down the street from Holy
Spirit Cemetery and in order to get to the carryvan line on McKinley Ave., I had to cut through. Now
this happened a couple of days after I got in trouble at the assembly. It was around midnight and I was
coming home from a graduation party where I had taken a couple of pokes of insight, so I was feeling sly
as a philosopher-king. As I walked through the cemetery, I stumbled across two dirt mounds right next
to each other. At first I thought they were flower beds, then I saw the wooden crosses. Fresh graves:
here lies Father Tom and Mama Moogoo. There wasn't much to the crosses: they were basically just
stakes with crosspieces, painted white and hammered into the ground. The names were hand printed on
them. The way I figure it, they were there to mark the graves until the stones got delivered. I didn't need
any insight to recognize a once in a lifetime opportunity. If I switched them, what were the chances
anyone was going to notice? It was no problem sliding them out of their holes. I smoothed the dirt with
my hands and then ran like hell."
Until that moment, she'd seemed bemused by my story and slightly condescending toward me. Now
there was a glint of alarm is her eyes. "That was a terrible thing to do," she said.
"Absolutely," I said, "although the dinos think that the whole idea of planting bodies in graveyards and
marking them with carved rocks is weepy. They say there is no identity in dead meat, so why get, so
sentimental about it? Linna keeps asking how come we don't put markers over our shit. But that's not the
secret. See, it'd been a warmish night in the middle of June, only as I ran, the air turned cold. Freezing, I
could set my breath. And my shoes got heavier and heavier, like they had turned to stone. As I got closer
to the back gate, it felt like I was fighting a strong wind, except my clothes weren't flapping. I slowed to a
walk. I know I could have pushed through, but my heart was thumping and then I heard this whispery
seashell noise and I panicked. So the secret is I'm a coward. I switched the crosses back and I never
went near that cemetery again. As a matter of fact," I nodded at the walls of reception room D on Tuulen
Station, "when I grew up, I got about as far away from it as I could."
She stared as I settled back in my chair. "True story," I said and raised my right hand. She seemed so
astonished that I started laughing. A smile bloomed on her dark face and suddenly she was giggling too.
It was a soft, liquid sound, like a brook bubbling over smooth stones; it made me laugh even harder. Her
lips were full and her teeth were very white.
"Your turn," I said, finally.
"Oh, no, I could not." She waved me off. "I don't have anything so good...." She paused, then frowned.
"You have told that before?"