
Most of the time, however, she felt like a pretender. Worse, a fraud.
Her mother had said that every good writer needed to be her own toughest critic. Molly edited her
work with both a red pen and a metaphorical hatchet, leaving evidence of bloody suffering with the
former, reducing scenes to kindling with the latter.
More than once, Neil suggested that Thalia had never said—and had not intended to imply—that
worthwhile art could be carved from raw language only with self-doubt as sharp as a chisel. To Thalia,
her work had also been her favorite form of play.
In a troubled culture where cream often settled on the bottom and the palest milk rose to the top, Molly
knew that she was short on logic and long on superstition when she supposed that her hope for success
rested upon the amount of passion, pain, and polish that she brought to her writing. Nevertheless,
regarding her work, Molly remained a Puritan, finding virtue in self-flagellation.
Leaving the lamps untouched, she switched on the computer but didn't at once sit at her desk. Instead,
as the screen brightened and the signature music of the operating system welcomed her to a late-night
work session, she was once more drawn to a window by the insistent rhythm of the rain.
Beyond the window lay the deep front porch. The railing and the overhanging roof framed a dark
panorama of serried pines, a strangely luminous ghost forest out of a disturbing dream.
She could not look away. For reasons that she wasn't able to articulate, the scene made her uneasy.
Nature has many lessons to teach a writer of fiction. One of these is that nothing captures the
imagination as quickly or as completely as does spectacle.
Blizzards, floods, volcanos, hurricanes, earthquakes: They fascinate because they nakedly reveal that
Mother Nature, afflicted with bipolar disorder, is as likely to snuff us as she is to succor us. An alternately
nurturing and destructive parent is the stuff of gripping drama.
Silvery cascades leafed the bronze woods, burnishing bark and bough with sterling highlights.
An unusual mineral content in the rain might have lent it this slight phosphorescence.
Or . . . having come in from the west, through the soiled air above Los Angeles and surrounding cities,
perhaps the storm had washed from the atmosphere a witch's brew of pollutants that in combination gave
rise to this pale, eerie radiance.
Sensing that neither explanation would prove correct, seeking a third, Molly was startled by movement
on the porch. She shifted focus from the trees to the sheltered shadows immediately beyond the glass.
Low, sinuous shapes moved under the window. They were so silent, fluid, and mysterious that for a
moment they seemed to be imagined: formless expressions of primal fears.
Then one, three, five of them lifted their heads and turned their yellow eyes to the window, regarding
her inquisitively. They were as real as Molly herself, though sharper of tooth.
The porch swarmed with wolves. Slinking out of the storm, up the steps, onto the pegged-pine floor,
they gathered under the shelter of the roof, as though this were not a house but an ark that would soon be
set safely afloat by the rising waters of a cataclysmic flood.