
use to cross the river. Still farther upstream, two great towers rose up, former living structures that the old
books called high rises. There had been, it appeared, two such types of structures—ordinary high rises
and high rises for the elderly—and he wondered briefly why there should have been such age distinction.
No such thing was true today. There was no distinction between the young and old. They lived together
and needed one another. The young provided strength and the old provided wisdom and they worked
together for the benefit of all.
This he had seen when he first came to the university and had experienced himself when he had been
taken in under the sponsorship of Monty and Nancy Montrose, the sponsorship in time becoming more
than a formal sponsorship, for he had lived with them and had become, in effect, their son. The university
and, most of all, Monty and Nancy, had given him equality and kindness. He had, in the last five years,
become as truly a part of the university as if he had been born to it and had known what he came to
recognize as a unique kind of happiness that, in his years of wandering, he had not known elsewhere.
Now, hunkering on the river’s bank, he admitted to himself that it had become a nagging happiness, a
happiness of guilt, chained here by the sense of affectionate loyalty to the aged couple who had taken him
in and made him a part of them. He had gained much from his five years here: the ability to read and
write; some acquaintance with the books that, rank on rank, lined the stacks of the library; a better
understanding of what the world was all about, of what it once had been and what it was at the present
moment. Given, too, within the security of the walls, the time to think, to work out what he wanted of
himself. But though he’d worked at it, he still did not quite know what he wanted of or for himself.
He remembered, once again, that rainy day of early spring when he had sat at a desk in the library
stacks. What he had been doing there he had now forgotten—perhaps simply sitting there while he read
a book which presently he would replace upon the shelves. But he did recall with startling clarity how, in
an idle moment, he had pulled out the desk drawer and there had found the small pile of notes written on
flyleaves that had been torn from books, written in a small and crabbed hand, niggardly of space. He
recalled that he had sat there, frozen in surprise, for there was no mistaking that cramped and economic
writing. He had read the Wilson history time and time again, strangely fascinated by it, and there was no
question in his mind, not the slightest question, that these were Wilson’s notes, left here in the desk
drawer to await discovery a millennium after they’d been written.
With trembling hands he had taken them from the drawer and laid them reverently on the desk top.
Slowly he read through them in the waning light of the rainy afternoon and there was in them much
material that he recognized, material that eventually had found its way into the history. But there was a
page of notes—really a page and a half—that had not been used, a myth so outrageous that Wilson must
finally have decided it should not be included, a myth of which Cushing had never heard and of which, he
found upon cautious inquiry later, no one else had ever heard.
The notes told about a Place of Going to the Stars, located somewhere to the west, although there
was no further clue to its location—simply “in the west.” It all was horribly fuzzy and it sounded, in all
truth, more like myth than fact—too outrageous to be fact. But ever since that rainy afternoon, the very
Outrageousness of it had haunted Cushing and would not let him be.
Across the wide turbulence of the river, the bluffs rose sheer above the water, topped by a heavy
growth of trees. The river made sucking sounds as it rushed along, a hurrying tide that stormed along its
path and, beneath the sucking sounds, a rumbling of power that swept all in its course. A powerful thing,
the river, and somehow conscious and jealous of its power, reaching out and taking all that it could
reach—a piece of driftwood, a leaf, a bevy of potato bugs, or a human being, if one could be caught up.
Looking at it, Cushing shivered at its threat, although he was not one who should have felt its threat. He
was as much at home in or on the river as he would be in the woods. This feeling of threat, he knew, was
brought on only by a present weakness, born of vague indecision and not knowing.
Wilson, he thought—if it had not been for that page and a half of Wilson’s notes, he’d be feeling none
of this. Or would he? Was it only Wilson’s note, or was it the urge to escape these walls, back to the
untrammeled freedom of the woods?
He was, he told himself somewhat angrily, obsessed with Wilson. Ever since the day he had first read
the history, the man had lodged himself inside his mind and was never far away.