
Pym was, if not a hill man, district-born. "So it is," he sighed, and gestured her to follow him without
further ado. Her eyes widened, as she trailed him around the house, and she glanced back nervously over
her shoulder at Miles. "Little man...?"
"Just stand straight," he called to her. He watched her round the corner, grinned, and took the steps
two at a time into the residence's main entrance.
* * *
After a shave and cold shower, Miles dressed in his own room overlooking the long lake. He
dressed with great care, as great as he'd expended on the Service Academy ceremonies and Imperial
Review two days ago. Clean underwear, long-sleeved cream shirt, dark green trousers with the side
piping. High-collared green tunic tailor-cut to his own difficult fit. New pale blue plastic ensign's
rectangles aligned precisely on the collar and poking most uncomfortably into his jaw. He dispensed with
the leg braces and pulled on mirror-polished boots to the knee, and swiped a bit of dust from them with
his pajama pants, ready-to-hand on the floor where he'd dropped them before going swimming.
He straightened and checked himself in the mirror. His dark hair hadn't even begun to recover from
that last cut before the graduation ceremonies. A pale, sharp-featured face, not too much dissipated bag
under the gray eyes, nor too bloodshot — alas, the limits of his body compelled him to stop celebrating
well before he could hurt himself.
Echoes of the late celebration still boiled up silently in his head, crooking his mouth into a grin. He
was on his way now, had his hand clamped firmly around the lowest rung of the highest ladder on
Barrayar, Imperial Service itself. There were no give-aways in the Service even for sons of the old Vor.
You got what you earned. His brother-officers could be relied on to know that, even if outsiders
wondered. He was in position at last to prove himself to all doubters. Up and away and never look
down, never look back.
One last look back. As carefully as he'd dressed, Miles gathered up the necessary objects for his
task. The white cloth rectangles of his former Academy cadet's rank. The hand-calligraphed second
copy, purchased for this purpose, of his new officer's commission in the Barrayaran Imperial Service. A
copy of his Academy three-year scholastic transcript on paper, with all its commendations (and
demerits). No point in anything but honesty in this next transaction. In a cupboard downstairs he found
the brass brazier and tripod, wrapped in its polishing cloth, and a plastic bag of very dry juniper bark.
Chemical firesticks.
Out the back door and up the hill. The landscaped path split, right going up to the pavilion
overlooking it all, left forking sideways to a garden-like area surrounded by a low fieldstone wall. Miles
let himself in by the gate. "Good morning, crazy ancestors," he called, then quelled his humor. It might be
true, but lacked the respect due the occasion.
He strolled over and around the graves until he came to the one he sought, knelt, and set up the
brazier and tripod, humming. The stone was simple, General Count Piotr Pierre Vorkosigan, and the
dates. If they'd tried to list all the accumulated honors and accomplishments, they'd have had to go to
microprint.
He piled in the bark, the very expensive papers, the cloth bits, a clipped mat of dark hair from that
last cut. He set it alight and rocked back on his heels to watch it burn. He'd played a hundred versions of
this moment over in his head, over the years, ranging from solemn public orations with musicians in the
background, to dancing naked on the old man's grave. He'd settled on this private and traditional
ceremony, played straight. Just between the two of them.
"So, Grandfather," he purred at last. "And here we are after all. Satisfied now?"
All the chaos of the graduation ceremonies behind, all the mad efforts of the last three years, all the
pain, came to this point; but the grave did not speak, did not say, Well done; you can stop now. The
ashes spelled out no messages; there were no visions to be had in the rising smoke. The brazier burned
down all too quickly. Not enough stuff in it, perhaps.