Tanaquil had a sudden humiliating idea that some of the kinder soldiers might muck up their equipment
simply in order to give her something to do.
"What a relief," said Tanaquil. "A free afternoon at last!" And she sauntered off.
The other occasional thing Tanaquil had been doing over the weeks, months, years of her life in Jaive's
fortress, had been to go for a Walk. Her first memories of Walks were that her nurse— naturally, Jaive
had had little time to spare—took Tanaquil up and down all the corridors, and sometimes out into the
inner courtyard, which was quite large, and planted with orange trees, grapevines, laurel hedges, and one
dusty dilapidated palm only thirteen feet high. At one end of the yard was a kitchen garden, rather
overgrown, some grass where goats were penned, and an ornate stone well on which was a stone eagle.
Now and then the eagle changed shape, and it was always the first thing the little Tanaquil ran to see:
Once it had looked like an ostrich. Then Tanaquil would play in the courtyard, alone but for the nurse, for
there had been no children anywhere near her own age. As Tanaquil grew older, and the nurse more
elderly, the Walks wended outside the fortress. In the beginning Tanaquil had been very interested in the
desert. She had made sand castles of neater appearance than the fortress. But beyond the shadow of the
fortress's walls, the dunes blistered. There was no oasis for miles, no village. The fort contained the only
water. When she was older still, Tanaquil used to set out for the rock hills. The nurse never made it so far,
and used to stand feebly calling on the sand, under her parasol. Tanaquil was twelve before she managed
to get to the rocks. Her triumph was marred because there was absolutely nothing on the other side but
more sand exactly the same as the rest, stretching away and away to the lavender horizon.
Now Tanaquil went for a Walk every other day, solely to ease her restlessness with exercise. The Walk
was completely boring and purposeless. But to do it she must put on boots against the burning sand and
cover her red head with a silk scarf tied with a band of ribbon. She would walk as far as the rock hills, sit
in their shade, and drink some water she had brought with her. Sometimes she climbed their sides, and
dug out small, frail fossils with her knife. Then perhaps she would walk a mile or so further off, west,
across the sands. When she did this she fantasized to herself that she was leaving home. That just out of
sight was a mighty city of tiled walls, domes and gardens, fountains, markets and noisy crowds. But she
knew from the lessons her mother had given her for an hour every day until she was fourteen, that
although there was a city, it was a hundred miles off. Nor in all her life had Tanaquil ever seen a caravan
cross the desert near Jaive's fortress. They did not come this way. Strangers were limited to desert traders,
herders, and wild dogs and jackals. Near sunset, Tanaquil would face up to facts, turn round, and come
back from the desert.
Today Tanaquil went for a Walk.
As she plodded across the sand, skidded down dunes, she was entirely occupied with questions. Had
yesterday been so different from all the other days? Had she felt, yesterday, this terrific urge, much more
than fantasy, to escape? It was as if, like the eagle, she had changed shape overnight. Now she was
someone else, another, desperate Tanaquil.
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