
CHITA : A Memory of Last Island
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once! Not twice!--even in company. As the water deepens beneath you,
and you feel those ascending wave-currents of coldness arising which
bespeak profundity, you will also begin to feel innumerable touches, as of
groping fingers--touches of the bodies of fish, innumerable fish, fleeing
towards shore. The farther you advance, the more thickly you will feel
them come; and above you and around you, to right and left, others will
leap and fall so swiftly as to daze the sight, like intercrossing fountain-jets
of fluid silver. The gulls fly lower about you, circling with sinister
squeaking cries;--perhaps for an instant your feet touch in the deep
something heavy, swift, lithe, that rushes past with a swirling shock.
Then the fear of the Abyss, the vast and voiceless Nightmare of the Sea,
will come upon you; the silent panic of all those opaline millions that flee
glimmering by will enter into you also...
From what do they flee thus perpetually? Is it from the giant sawfish
or the ravening shark?--from the herds of the porpoises, or from the
grande-ecaille,--that splendid monster whom no net may hold,--all helmed
and armored in argent plate-mail?--or from the hideous devilfish of the
Gulf,--gigantic, flat-bodied, black, with immense side-fins ever outspread
like the pinions of a bat,--the terror of luggermen, the uprooter of anchors?
From all these, perhaps, and from other monsters likewise--goblin shapes
evolved by Nature as destroyers, as equilibrists, as counterchecks to that
prodigious fecundity, which, unhindered, would thicken the deep into one
measureless and waveless ferment of being... But when there are many
bathers these perils are forgotten,--numbers give courage,--one can
abandon one's self, without fear of the invisible, to the long, quivering,
electrical caresses of the sea ...
V.
Thirty years ago, Last Island lay steeped in the enormous light of even
such magical days. July was dying;--for weeks no fleck of cloud had
broken the heaven's blue dream of eternity; winds held their breath; slow
waveless caressed the bland brown beach with a sound as of kisses and
whispers. To one who found himself alone, beyond the limits of the
village and beyond the hearing of its voices,--the vast silence, the vast
light, seemed full of weirdness. And these hushes, these transparencies,