
Frak,he thinks, and grits his teeth, waiting for the inevitable blast from the onrushing Chitain
fighter .
The blast comes not from the fighter, butisthe fighter, vaporizing in a spray of brightly-burning fuel,
then winking out. It's Starbuck, of course, there to save him as he's always been .
Apollo heaves a sigh of relief, more like a laugh, and he tells Starbuck he's going to buy him a tankard of
grog in the aft ODOC. But Starbuck says, "Don't you remember? That's not the way it happened at all."
And he's right, it doesn't end like that, not even anything close to it; this is nothing more than wishful
thinking and rewriting the ending to be more palatable than the truth was, because a moment later,
Starbuck's Viper is caught in the rippling fireball of the warship, the size of a small planet, as it explodes.
The shock waves spread out like circles in a pond, shattering everything they touch. The Sky don't even
try to outrun the spreading death, but accept it as part of the endless cycle, the way of the universe.
Everything happens fast after that, but the image of Starbuck, slumped forward in his fire-blackened,
shredded Viper, never seems to leave Apollo's vision, neither waking nor dreaming.
The colonial fleet has suffered devastating losses, more than half their force of Warriors and starfighters,
and thirty-seven vessels, including the Agro-2. Devastating… but not nearly as devastating as seeing his
oldest friend, closer than any brother, closer than his own brother, lying in his med-berth, kept alive only
by machines. Starbuck's uniform is all but melted to his body, and his flesh is blackened, cracked, with
crazy zigzags running off in every direction, as if his skin is a sun-blistered mud-flat. There's been massive
cranial trauma, and there's no way to know if Starbuck will ever awaken again. If not for the slow and
labored rise and fall of his chest, anyone would think Starbuck a corpse.
Now Apollo is standing at another bedside, this time his father's, and he is saying his silent goodbyes as
Commander Adama slips away. And even through this, Apollo cannot express his feelings, except for
perhaps an unusual brightness in his eyes, and the unusually-stern set of his jaw. There are so many things
he wants to say, and yet, he says nothing. After all, he is like his father, and Adama knows the things
Apollo feels, even if neither one can exactly say them. Knowing is not quite the same as being told, but it
will just have to do.
So he watches him go, and a world ends for Apollo, the way a world always ends when a father dies.
Athena, much closer to her emotions than her brother, buries her face in his chest and weeps openly.
Apollo gives her his strength to draw from; he's good at that. He's just not so good at expressing his
emotions.
They stand that way for a long time, neither speaking, Athena's sobbing is the only sound in the room.
He doesn't hear Cassiopeia enter the room, but she must have, because she's asking him how he could
let this happen.
Apollo shakes his head; he doesn't understand. "It was his time,"he answers . "There was nothing I, or
anyone else, could do."
"Liar!"she shouts, and her vehemence rocks him back on his heels. For a moment, anger flares in
him, one of the few emotions he can show, but that anger leaves him in a sudden wash, because
when he looks past Athena, past Cassiopeia, he sees the funeral bier and the body resting in state
upon it. He knows immediately it is not Adama because there are none of the ceremonial
trappings as befits a man of the commander's station, and Apollo's heart breaks into a wild,
galloping rhythm .