
I could get to like this place, she thought. And knew it was a little sad.
As she leaned her elbows on the bar and picked up her Irish whiskey, Jazz scanned the bar’s patrons in
the mirror. She didn’t actually care who was there, but old habits were hard to break, this one harder
than most. The faces clicked into her memory, filed for later. A couple of unpleasant-looking truckers
with bodybuilding hobbies; a fat guy with a mean face who looked as if he might be trouble after a few
dozen drinks. He was drinking alone. There were two faded night-blooming women in low-cut blouses
and dyed hair, years etched as if by acid at the corners of their eyes and mouths.
Jazz was still young—thirty-four was young, wasn’t it?—but she still felt infinitely older than the rest of
them. Seen too much, done too much…she wasn’t going to attract a lot of attention, even from the
bottom-feeders in here. Especially not dressed in blue jeans, a shapeless gray sweatshirt with an NYU
logo, and clunky cop shoes left over from better days. Her hair needed cutting, and it kept falling in her
eyes. When she looked across at herself in the mirror she saw a wreck: pale, raccoon-eyed,
wheat-blond hair straggling like a mop.
Her eyes still looked green and sharp and haunted.
Sharp…that needed to change. Quickly.
She tossed back her first whiskey, clutched the edge of the bar tight against the burn, and made a silent
again gesture at her glass. The bartender made a silent pay me first reply. She slid over a crumpled five,
got a full shot glass of forgetfulness and slammed it back, too.
The door opened.
It was gray outside, turning into night, but even the glimmer of streetlights was blocked by the man
coming in. Tall, not broad. Her first thought was, trouble, but then it turned ridiculous, because this guy
wasn’t trouble, he was about to be in trouble. Over six feet and a little on the thin side, all sharp angles,
which would have been okay if he hadn’t come dressed in some self-consciously tough leather getup that
would have looked ridiculous on a Hell’s Angel. He didn’t have the face for it—lean and angular, yeah,
but with large, gentle brown eyes that scanned the bar skittishly and looked alarmed by what they saw.
His badass-biker leathers were so new they creaked.
Jazz resisted the urge to snort a laugh and repeated her pantomime with the bartender. Behind her, she
heard the squeak, squeak, squeak of the new guy’s leather as he walked up, and then he was climbing
onto a bar stool next to her.
“Love that new-car smell,” she told the bartender as he poured her a third shot. He gave her a cynical
half smile and took her five bucks. The fool did smell like a new car—also some kind of expensive
aftershave that reminded her of cinnamon and butter—very nice. So maybe he did have some sense after
all, biker leathers notwithstanding. Idiot. She imagined what kind of welcome he’d have gotten if he’d
walked into a bar like, say, O’Shaugnessey’s, over on Fourteenth, where the cops congregated. They’d
have probably directed him—with velocity—to the gay leather bar down the block.
Her comment hadn’t been any kind of invitation to talk, but the guy swiveled on his bar stool, held out a
big, long-fingered hand, and said, “Hi.”
She looked at the hand, which was well manicured, then glanced up into his face. His soulful brown eyes
widened just a little at the direct contact. Now that he was closer, she could see that he looked tired, and
older than she’d thought, probably close to her own age, with fine lived-in lines at the corners of his
eyelids. He had a nice, mobile mouth that looked as if it wanted to smile and didn’t actually dare to try