
Scratching at his beard, he stood and walked out into the main room. Closing his eyes, he stopped in
front of the row of sloping, narrow windows in the ceiling and gazed at the cold, sterile beauty of the
stars. He took a long breath, one deep enough that he could feel it press his chest outward. He held it,
savored it for a moment, then let it go. He marveled at the feeling, at how he could take for granted the
very tides of his own life and death.A thousand times a day we breathe in and we’re full, he thought.A
thousand times a day we breathe out and we’re empty.
Empty was how he’d felt every day since he’d watched his father die. Since the moment he saw a
lifetime of unfinished business become an eternity of missed opportunities.
Perhaps it had been irony—or an example of karmic balance—but less than a week ago, upon returning
from his father’s appropriately terse and unsentimental funeral, Riker had been contacted by Admiral
Kathryn Janeway, who’d offered him the captain’s chair on theTitan.
The ship, she’d said, was still in spacedock undergoing a final series of upgrades and mandatory
inspections. It would be ready for active duty in a few months. Riker had asked for time to think it over,
and she’d graciously agreed. But she’d also made it clear the offer wouldn’t remain open indefinitely.
For most career Starfleet officers, an offer such as this was a once-in-a-lifetime shot at command. For
those lucky few who were invited to take their place in the big chair, the very rarity of the offer made the
decision to say yes easy and immediate. Riker, on the other hand, held the dubious distinction of having
refused more offers of command than any other active Starfleet officer. Almost fifteen years ago, he’d
chosen to serve as Captain Jean-Luc Picard’s first officer aboard theEnterprise -D rather than take
command of theDrake. Roughly eighteen months later, he’d declined Starfleet’s offer to captain theAries.
For most officers, refusing two commands in less than two years would be the end of their career track.
But Riker was offered a third bite at the apple, during the Borg crisis of 2366, when Starfleet Command
all but begged him to take command of theMelbourne. He’d passed up that chance, as well, but shortly
afterward received a field promotion to captain of theEnterprise -D when Picard was captured by the
Borg and transformed temporarily into Locutus.
A few days later, after Riker had risked everything to save his captured commanding officer, he’d heard
the whispers of theEnterprise crew, most of whom couldn’t believe he’d actually requested demotion to
his former rank of commander so he could continue to serve as Picard’s trusted Number One.
That was more than twelve years ago, and since then Starfleet had stopped offering him command posts.
Until now.
He sighed and stroked his graying beard for a moment.Why now? he wondered to himself.Why did it
have to be now?
He stepped over to the replicator. “Water, cold.”
The singsong whine of the replicator crested, then faded. A faintly glowing swirl of atoms coalesced into
a squat, square-sided drinking glass three-quarters filled with pure, cool water. Riker picked it up and
drank half of it in a few gulps. He let out a satisfied breath, then downed the rest of it. He put the empty
glass back in the replicator and pressed the matter-reclamation key. He turned and walked back to the
windows as the replicator dematerialized the empty glass.
The timing of Janeway’s offer couldn’t have been more awkward, in Riker’s opinion. The last few
months had been unkind to theEnterprise -E in general, and to Captain Picard in particular. The Rashanar