
She had come for him again tonight, and Chakotay, his lids tightly dosed over his rapidly moving eyes,
rose in his dream state and followed her silent call.
He rose without moving from the bed, his mind following even as his body slept deeply, restfully. She
seemed always to send revitalizing sleep when she came to visit.
He stood, his brown body fit and firm, clothed only in the loincloth of his ancestors, and smiled down
with respect and love at the animal spirit who waited for him. Though it was dark in this dreamscape, a
verdant forest illuminated only by a quarter moon, Chakotay knew the place well. He could come here
by quiet meditation on his own, by day or night, in any season. For tonight's tryst, she had brought him a
summer evening, and Chakotay closed his dark eyes and breathed deeply the heady scents of
honeysuckle and cool moss, the furry musk of the unseen creatures who shared the realm of the
subconscious with him.
It was real, yet it was only in his mind. Janeway had never said anything, but he suspected that she had
problems understanding that the animal guides were very real and, at the same time, solely a product of
one's inner consciousness. Most who were not of Chakotay's people had problems with that concept. Of
all the crew, Chakotay suspected that only Tuvok, the Vulcan, whose own people had spent centuries
unlocking the secret powers of the mind, could really understand that the two realities were not
diametrically opposed. But then again, Tuvok would never admit to the powerful, primal joy that surged
through one who was visited by an animal spirit.
Connections. It was all about connections, with oneself, one's totem, one's people, one's friends, one's
world... one's universe.
But right now, with the cool night wind in his face, the wet grass beneath his feet. and his friend waiting
for him with her lambent yellow eyes, Chakotay wasn't concerned with connections or concepts.
He just wanted to run. And so he did, his bare feet flying across the grass and stone and leaves without a
care, for there was nothing here that would harm him and he knew it. Silent as a shadow, she moderated
her swift lope to keep pace with him.
Together, with stars he had seen in no sky outside of his own mind sparkling overhead, they ran.
Chakotay's skin began to glisten with sweat and dew. His breathing came hard, but he kept moving, his
strong limbs pumping. Laughing kindly, her tongue lolling from her own exertions, she ran with him until at
last they came to an open meadow, and Chakotay, gasping for breath, staggered to a halt and collapsed
in the welcoming, cooling grass.
He rolled over onto his back and she joined him, plopping herself down and rolling happily as if she were
a mere newborn. He laughed and reached for her. Her gray fur almost glowing in the soft radiance of the
moon, she snuggled into his loving embrace, placing her beautifully shaped head on his chest.
But she did not fully relax, and after a moment, he thought to her: What is wrong, my friend?
Nothing is wrong, she replied without a sound. But there will not always be time for mirth and laughter,
my playmate and friend.
Tell me. Chakotay sat up, reaching to touch the animal spirit behind the ears in a gentle gesture.
She fixed him with her keen gaze. You are a teacher. You are also a student. You teach the ways of your
people. That is easy to do. What is harder to do is to be wise and teach me the ways of people you do