
harm me. I feel guilty because I will have helped put Quinn in the White House, but at least I'll share that
guilt with you and you and you, with your blind mindless votes that you'll live to wish you could call back.
Never mind. We can survive Quinn. I'll show the way. It will be my form of atonement. I can save you all
from chaos, even now, even with Quinn astride the horizon and growing more huge every day.
5
I was into probabilities for seven years, professionally, before I ever heard of Martin Carvajal. My
business from the spring of 1992 onwards was projections. I can look at the acorn and see the stack of
firewood: it's a gift I have. For a fee, I would tell you whether I think particle chips will continue to be a
growth industry, whether it's a good idea to open a tattooing parlour in Topeka, whether the fad for bare
scalps is going to last long enough to make it worthwhile for you to expand your San Jose depilatory
factory. And the odds are I'd be right.
My father liked to say, 'A man doesn't choose his life. His life chooses him.'
Maybe. I never expected to go into the prophecy trade. I never really expected to go into anything. My
father feared I'd be a wastrel. Certainly it looked that way the day I collected my college diploma. (NYU
'86.) I sailed through my three years of college not knowing at all what I wanted to do with my life, other
than that it ought to be something communicative, creative, lucrative, and reasonably useful to society. I
didn't want to be a novelist, a teacher, an actor, a lawyer, a stock-broker, a general, or a priest. Industry
and finance didn't attract me, medicine was beyond my capabilities, politics seemed vulgar and blatant. I
knew my skills, which are pri-marily verbal and conceptual, and I knew my needs, which are primarily
security-oriented and privacy-oriented. I was and ambright, outgoing, alert, energetic, willing to work
hard, and candidly opportunistic, though not, I hope, opportunistically candid. But I was missing a focus,
a centre, a defining point, when college turned me loose.
A man's life chooses him. I had always had an odd knack for uncanny hunches; by easy stages I turned
that into my liveli-hood. As a summer fill-in job I did some part-time polltaking; one day in the office I
happened to make a few astute com-ments about the pattern the raw data were showing, and my boss
invited me to prepare a projective sampling template for the next step of the poll. That's a programme
that tells you what sort of questions you ought to ask in order to get the answers you need. The work
was stimulating and my excellence at it had ego rewards. When one of my employer's big clients asked
me to quit and do free-lance consulting work, I took the chance. From there to my own full-time
consulting firm was only a matter of months.
When I was in the projection business many uninformed folk thought I was a pollster. No. Pollsters
worked forme, a whole platoon of hired gallups. They were to me as millers are to a baker: they sorted
the wheat from the chaff, I produced the seven-layer cakes. My work was a giant step beyond
polltaking. Using data samples collected by the usual quasi-scientific methods, I derived far-ranging
predictions, I made intuitive leaps, in short I guessed, and guessed well. There was money in it, but also I
felt a kind of ecstasy. When I confronted a mount of raw samples from which I had to pull a major
pro-jection, I felt like a diver plunging off a high cliff into a sparkling blue sea, seeking a glittering gold
doubloon hidden in the white sand far below the waves: my heart pounded, my mind whirled, my body
and my spirit underwent a quantum kick into a higher, more intense energy state. Ecstasy.
What I did was sophisticated and highly technical, but it was a species of witchcraft, too. I wallowed in
harmonic means, positive skews, modal values, and parameters of dispersion. My office was a maze of
display screens and graphs. I kept a battery of jumbo computers running around the clock, and what
looked like a wristwatch on my wrong arm was actually a data terminal that rarely had time to cool. But
the heavy math and the high-powered Hollywood technology were simply aspects of the preliminary
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