
thoughts-green hills and the steady rhythm of shuttle through warp forming
weft and the feel of a song in my lungs and my belly and my throat. Calm
thoughts and a relaxed body, when all I wanted to do was run.
And at last I heard her breathing change, the soft burr of her snore; the
only signal I would get.
I got up carefully and dressed, then packed my few belongings-my
sleeping shirt, my other breeches, my other tunic, my other undergarments,
the wooden flute my father gave me, my knife and whetstone, my personals.
Everything I owned, when rolled tightly enough, fit into the pockets of my
cloak. I wondered if I dared climb down the ladder to retrieve my boots. I had
thought to just cut through the rope that bound the roofing slats to the
crossbeams, then push my way through the thatching to get outside; but the
more I thought about it, the more I realized I would have to travel in the
mountains if I hoped to find some form of safety, and if I traveled in the
mountains I had to have my boots. Which meant climbing down the ladder to
retrieve them-and then, since time was my enemy as much as noise, lifting
the bar that held the oaken door locked and slipping out of it into the street.
Then hurrying clear across the village without giving the impression that I
was hurrying, to get Giraud up and out of Blackwarren before the empress's
hunters came to kill him. Then running. East to the Stormfather Mountains,
then through whatever passes the two of us could find, and north into Lieda.
Running ahead of the soon-to-be-knighted Aymar dar Ressti and the
empress's killers and the villagers who would come after us, eager for reward.
I took a deep breath and eased myself over the edge of the loft, braced
myself on the ladder, and crept down. Twice as fast a I should have, a
thousand times more slowly than I wanted to. The ladder didn't creak, and I
stepped barefooted onto the wide-boarded floor of the cottage. I knew from
experience that some of the boards squeaked; what I couldn't remember but
desperately needed to was which of them. I hadn't been in the practice of
sneaking out of the house; my only experience came from the rare hurried
trip to the outhouse in full darkness, and in those situations, I'd had nothing to
hide.
And that was my answer, of course. In the event that Birdie woke enough
to notice me, I would say I had to go to the outhouse. Of course, when I failed
to return, she'd come after me. I'd lose hours of the small lead I'd have
anyway. So I kept quiet, tested each board with a cautious step before moving
onto it, and balanced my weight as carefully as I could to avoid making any
noise. Even so, something about my presence disturbed Birdie, for when I was
more than halfway across the room, she rolled to one side and murmured in a
half-awake voice, "Wha's tha'? Did 'ou say somethin'?"
Now I did hold my breath. And I prayed, Neithas, if you love me, make
her go back to sleep.
Neithas heard me, for after a while that seemed like forever, Birdie's
snoring resumed. I finished my trek across the single room, tugged my boots
on-for if anyone saw me putting them on while sitting on the boardwalk
outside our door, they would know instantly that I was sneaking about
something-and lifted the door bar. I settled it on the floor in its customary
place. I always left the house to go to Marda's shop long before Birdie woke
and rose-she was accustomed to seeing it out of place. Only if she got up
during the night for some reason and discovered the unbarred door would she
realize something had gone wrong. If she didn't realize I'd left far too early, I