
What did I do now? I did not wish to look for some nondescript job, even if these were to be found, so
I had to continue with my schooling. I had been majoring in chemistry, so, failing medical school, the
natural next step was to go for my degree of doctor of philosophy in that field.
The first question was whether I would be able to swing this financially. (It would have been the first
question, even more so, if I had gotten into medical school.) College itself had been touch and go all four
years, and my small writing income of about $200 during my senior year had been a considerable help.
Naturally, I would have to continue writing and, just as naturally, my depression made it very difficult to
write. I managed one story during that summer; it was called 'Life Before Birth.'
'Live Before Birth' was my first attempt at anything other than science fiction. It was in the allied field of
fantasy (as imaginative as science fiction, but without the restriction of requiring scientific plausibility).
The reason for my attempting fantasy was that at the beginning of 1939, Street & Smith began the
publication of a new magazine, Unknown, of which Campbell was editor.
Unknown caught my fancy at once. It featured stories of what are now called 'adult fantasy,' and the
writing seemed to my nineteen-year-old self to be even more advanced and literate than that in
Astounding. Of course I wanted desperately to place a story in this new and wonderful magazine.
'Life Before Birth' was an attempt in this direction, but aside from the mere fact that it was a fantasy, I
remember nothing more about it. It was submitted to Campbell on July 11 and was back in my hands on
the nineteenth. It never placed anywhere and no longer exists.
August was even worse. All Europe rang with the hideous possibility of war, and on September 1,
World War II began with the German invasion of Poland. I could do nothing during the crisis but listen to
the radio. It was not till September 11 that I could settle down long enough to start another story, 'The
Brothers.'
'The Brothers' was science fiction, and all I remember is that it was about two brothers, a good one and
an evil one, and a scientific invention that one or the other was constructing. On October 5 I submitted it
to Campbell, and on October 11 it was rejected. It, too, never placed and no longer exists.
So the summer had passed fruitlessly and now I had to face another problem. Columbia University was
not in the least anxious to take me on as a graduate student. They felt I was going to use the position as a
mere way of marking time till I could try once more to get into medical school.
I swore that this was not so, but my position was vulnerable because as a premedical student I had not
been required to take a course in physical chemistry and had therefore not done so. Physical chemistry
was, however, required for graduate work in chemistry.
I persisted, and finally the admissions board made the following suggestion: I would have to take a full
year's selection of graduate courses, and, at the same time, I would have to take physical chemistry and
get at least a B in that. If I failed to get the B, I was out on my ear and my tuition money would, of
course, not be refunded.
One of the members of the board told me, some years later, that I was offered this in the belief that I
would not accept a set of terms so loaded against me. However, since I had never had trouble with
passing courses, it never occurred to me that a set of requirements that merely asked that I achieve