
She was too stunned, too frightened, to move. All around people were pushing, shoving, running in
fear. Of what? Aeroplanes with bombs? Surely that didn't happen any more. She should have paid more
attention to the news. Should have listened more closely to her neighbours. Miriam recalled hearing
something on the radio about tension in the Middle East; but she'd been hearing that for years and years.
It didn't mean anything any more. It was just news, words, items read out by smooth-voiced young men
and women. It had nothing to do with shopping at Tesco's and washing dirty sheets and spoiling
grandchildren and living in Chigwell. And nothing to do with her.
Sixty-seven years old, wide-eyed and bewildered, Miriam stood on the corner of Oxford Street and
Marble Arch. It should have been such a lovely day: hot, sunny, June; a day out, a special treat. A whole
day just wandering around the shops looking - though not intensely - for a suitable present for Becky's
wedding. Beautiful grand-daughter, nice sensible chap she was marrying, a wonderful match. Arnold,
God rest him, God forgive him, would have approved. The boy - not
handsome, true, but life was never too bountiful - had good manners and business sense. Becky would
supply the beauty in the match, and if she, Miriam, knew her daughter's daughter, the driving power
behind the man. A match made in heaven maybe not, for certainly the connivance of prospective (and
prospecting) in-laws had laid the foundations. Call it an old-fashioned arrangement, but there were a few
good families still left who followed the old ways.
What to buy? Not to worry - money was the main present. No forced thin-lipped thank-yous with
such a gift. Something in glass or something practical for the wrapped present. Both. A set of crystal
glasses, that would be ideal. She had smiled at her own solution.
The smile had vanished when the wailing began.
A young couple collided with her, knocking her back against a window. The girl went down and her
companion roughly jerked her to her feet, one hand pushing against Miriam's chest. He shouted
something, but Miriam could not understand, for her heart was beating too loudly and her ears were filled
with the cries of others. The young couple staggered away, trails of mascara on the girl's cheeks
emphasizing the blood-drained whiteness of her face. Miriam watched them disappear into the crowd,
her breathing now coming in short, sharp gasps. She silently cried for her late husband: Arnold, tell me,
tell me what's happening. There were no more wars, not here, not in England. Why are they so
frightened? What were they running from?
The sirens had stopped. The screaming had not.
Stepping away from the wall, Miriam looked towards the lush green park. She had planned such a
lovely, leisurely stroll through those grounds, a journey to the lake where Arnold had taken her so many
years before. Had it been their first time of walking out? Such a silly woman: who used
such an expression nowadays? Walking out! But it was such a nice term. So ... so innocent! Had life
been so innocent? Not with Arnold, God rest his devious soul. In other ways, a good man though. A
generous man...
A push in the back almost sent her to her knees. No manners these days, no compassion for the
elderly. No consideration. Worse. Rape the elderly, slash the baby, were the latest perversions. Such