6 Kelley Armstrong Beginnings
Maybe I could call them, see whether a job was still open. Or maybe I could do what I’d
done last year, work two jobs. Oh yeah, and that had worked out so well for me—stressing over
scheduling, giving up all pretense of a social life, dropping off the basketball team, studying over
breakfast, lunch, dinner . . . even reading while walking to class. Nearly worked my way into a
breakdown . . . and nearly lost my A average, which would have cost me my partial scholarship,
which would have cost me any chance of finishing my degree. Okay, forget the second job.
Maybe I could apply for a bigger OSAP loan . . . and drive myself so far into debt that I’d be
forced to take the first shitty post-graduation job anyone offered me.
Goddamn it! This wasn’t supposed to happen. Not this year. That bitch! That officious,
conniving bitch. From ‘oh, of course you can expect twenty hours a week’ to ‘is this going to be
problem, Elena?’ in a heartbeat. I should have said something. I should have complained. Hell,
I should have told her where to stuff her gardening tips and her twelve hour a week job and her
ugly mauve polyester suit and her condescending—
I took a deep breath and rubbed my hands over my face. Switch tracks. Think of something
else. Class. I was looking forward to this class. Concentrate on that.
The class I was heading to was an optional course, the only one on my schedule. Like last
year, I’d chosen anthropology. Don’t ask me why. It had absolutely nothing to do with
journalism, and wouldn’t help my future career one whit, but maybe that was why I chose it, as a
mental break in a life where everything was—and had to be—focused on the end goal of a
degree and a job.
In last year’s anthro course I’d had to do a paper on ancient religion. Really not my thing.
After some research, I’d decided to focus on animal symbolism in religious ritual, which
sounded marginally more interesting than anything else. There I’d stumbled across a doctoral