and silk waistcoats, nor would she be the last. But she was the first in recent memory-for Gentle
the past had a way of evaporating after about ten years-who had conspired to remove everything
from him in the space of half a day. His error was plain enough. He'd woken that morning, lying
beside Vanessa with a hard-on she'd wanted him to pleasure her with, and had stupidly refused
her, knowing he had a liaison with Marline that afternoon. How she'd discovered where he was
unloading his balls was academic. She had, and that was that. He'd stepped out of the house at
noon, believing the woman he'd left was devoted to him, and come home five hours later to find
the house as it was now. He could be sentimental at the strangest times. As now, for instance,
wandering through the empty rooms, collecting up the belongings she had felt obliged to leave
for him: his address book, the clothes he'd bought with his own money as opposed to hers, his
spare spectacles, his cigarettes. He hadn't loved Vanessa, but he had enjoyed the fourteen months
they'd spent together here. She'd left a few more pieces of trash on the dining room floor,
reminders of that time: a cluster of keys they'd never found doors to fit, instruction documents for
a blender he'd burned out making midnight margaritas, a plastic bottle of massage oil. All in all, a
pitiful collection, but he wasn't so self-deceiving as to believe their relationship had been much
more than a sum of those parts. The question was-now that it was over-where was he to go and
what was he to do? Martine was a middle-aged married woman, her husband a banker who spent
three days of every week in Luxembourg, leaving her time to philander. She professed love for
Gentle at intervals, but not with sufficient consistency to make him think he could prize her from
her husband, even if he wanted to, which he was by no means certain he did. He'd known her
eight months-met her, in fact, at a dinner party hosted by Vanessa's elder brother, William-and
they had only argued once, but it had been a telling exchange. She'd accused him of always
looking at other women; looking, looking, as though for the next conquest. Perhaps because he
didn't care for her too much, he'd replied honestly and told her she was right. He was stupid for
her sex. Sickened in their absence, blissful in their company: love's fool. She'd replied that while
his obsession might be healthier than her husband's-which was money and its manipulation-his
behavior was still neurotic. Why this endless hunt? she'd asked him. He'd answered with some
folderol about seeking the ideal woman, but he'd known the truth even as he was spinning her this
tosh, and it was a bitter thing. Too bitter, in fact, to be put on his tongue. In essence, it came
down to this: he felt meaningless, empty, almost invisible unless one or more of her sex were
doting on him. Yes, he knew his face was finely made, his forehead broad, his gaze haunting, his
lips sculpted so that even a sneer looked fetching on them, but he needed a living mirror to tell
him so. More, he lived in hope that one such mirror would find something behind his looks only
another pair of eyes could see: some undiscovered self that would free him from being Gentle. As
always when he felt deserted, he went to see Chester Klein, patron of the arts by diverse hands, a
man who claimed to have been excised by fretful lawyers from more biographies than any other
man since Byron. He lived in Notting Hill Gate, in a house he'd bought cheaply in the late fifties,
which he now seldom left, touched as he was by agoraphobia or, as he preferred it, "a perfectly
rational fear of anyone I can't blackmail."
From this small dukedom he managed to prosper, employed as he was in a business which
required a few choice contacts, a nose for the changing taste of his market, and an ability to
conceal his pleasure at his achievements. In short, he dealt in fakes, and it was this latter quality
he was most deficient in. There were those among his small circle of intimates who said it would
be his undoing, but they or their predecessors had been prophesying the same for three decades,
and Klein had outprospered every one of them. The luminaries he'd entertained over the decades-
the defecting dancers and minor spies, the addicted debutantes, the rock stars with messianic