millworkers were allowed to listen to what educated people sounded like. They spoke differently, more
fluently, with longer words and softer tones. Rik talked like that more and more as his memory improved.
She had been frightened at his first words. They came so suddenly after long whimpering over a
headache. They were pronounced queerly. When she tried to correct him he wouldn’t change.
Even then she had been afraid that he might remember too much and then leave her. She was only
Valona March. They called her Big Lona. She had never married. She never would. A large, big-footed girl
with work-reddened hands like herself could never marry. She had never been able to do more than look at
the boys with dumb resentment when they ignored her at the idle-day dinner festivals. She was too big to
giggle and smirk at them.
She would never have a baby to cuddle and hold. The other girls did, one after the other, and she
could only crowd about for a quick glimpse of something red and hairless with screwed-up eyes, fists
impotently clenched, gummy mouth--
“It’s your turn next, Lona.”
“When will you have a baby, Lona?”
She could only turn away.
But when Rik had come, he was like a baby. He had to be fed and taken care of, brought out into
the sun, soothed to sleep when the headaches racked him.
The children would run after her, laughing. They would yell, “Lona’s got a boy friend. Big Lona’s
got a crazy boy friend. Lona’s boy friend is a rik.”
Later on, when Rik could walk by himself (she had been as proud the day he took his first step as
though he were really only one year old, instead of more like thirty-one) and stepped out, unescorted, into
the village streets, they had run about him in rings, yelling their laughter and foolish ridicule in order to see
a grown man cover his eyes in fear, and cringe, with nothing but whimpers to answer them. Dozens of
times she had come charging out of the house, shouting at them, waving her large fists.
Even grown men feared those fists. She had felled her section head with a single wild blow the
first day she had brought Rik to work at the mill because of a sniggering indecency concerning them which
she overheard. The mill council fined her a week’s pay for that incident, and might have sent her to the City
for further trial at the Squire’s court, but for the Townman’s intervention and the plea that there had been
provocation.
So she wanted to stop Rik’s remembering. She knew she had nothing to offer him; it was selfish of
her to want him to stay mind-blank and helpless forever. It was just that no one had ever before depended
upon her so utterly. It was just that she dreaded a return to loneliness.
She said, “Are you sure you remember, Rik?”
“Yes.”
They stopped there in the fields, with the sun adding its reddening blaze to all that surrounded
them. The mild, scented evening breeze would soon spring up, and the checkerboard irrigation canals were
already beginning to purple.
He said, “I can trust my memories as they come back, Lona. You know I can. You didn’t teach me
to speak, for instance. I remembered the words myself. Didn’t I? Didn’t I?”
She said reluctantly, “Yes.”
“I even remember the times you took me out into the fields before I could speak. I keep
remembering new things all the time. Yesterday I remembered that once you caught a kyrt fly for me. You
held it closed in your hands and made me put my eye to the space between your thumbs so that I could see
it flash purple and orange in the darkness. I laughed and tried to force my hand between yours to get it, so
that it flew away and left me crying after all. I didn’t know it was a kyrt fly then, or anything about it, but
it’s all very clear to me now. You never told me about that, did you, Lona?”
She shook her head.
“But it did happen, didn’t it? I remember the truth, don’t I?”
“Yes, Rik.”
“And now I remember something about myself from before. There must have been a before,
Lona.”
There must have been. She felt the weight on her heart when she thought that. It was a different
before, nothing like the now they lived in. It had been on a different world. She knew that because one
word he had never remembered was kyrt. She had to teach him the word for the most important object on
all the world of Florina.
“What is it you remember?” she asked.