
Anne McCaffrey - If Wishes Were Horses
OF COURSE, MANY PEOPLE in our small county village sought advice and help from my mother long
before the War started because she was quite wise as well as gifted with a healing touch. Often, day and
night, we would hear the front door knocker—shaped like a wyvern it was, with a stout curled
tail—bang against the brass sounding circle. That summons was undeniable, echoing through the Great
Hall and up the stairs. There was no sleeping once someone started pounding. Sometimes they didn't
pound but tapped, quietly but insistently, so that one was awakened more by the muted repetition than
the noise. From the time I was twelve, I got roused quite as often as my mother did. Of course, I was
also able to turn over and go back to sleep, which my mother could not.
"Those of us who can help should not deny it to others," my mother was apt to say, usually to still my
father's grumblings. "I'll just see what I can do for them."
"Day and night?" my father would demand in an exasperated or frustrated tone of voice.
However, he was such a heavy sleeper that he was rarely disturbed when she slipped from the huge oak
four-poster bed to answer the summons. As I grew older and she began to rely on me to assist her from
time to time, I realized that he never answered the nocturnal rapping, though occasionally Mother would
send me to wake him to help us. What I never did figure out—then—was how she knew, on our way
down the main staircase, that she would need his protection to answer that particular summons.
"Oh, it's nothing mysterious, Tirza love," Mother told me. "If you listen, you'll learn quick enough the
difference in the sound of the knocking. That can tell me a lot."
It took me nearly two years before I could differentiate between the hysterical, the urgent, or the merely
anxious kind of rapping.
Mother's ability to have some sort of a solution to almost any problem had become somewhat legendary
in our part of the Principality. She had a fund of general knowledge, an unfailing sympathy augmented by
common sense, and a remarkable healing touch.
"Much of the time, Tirza, they only need someone who listens, and they end up knowing their own
solutions. You may well have inherited the family failing, love," she went on with a sigh. When she saw
my stunned expression, she had added cheerfully, "But we won't know that for a while yet. Oh, it could
be worse, know. You could have inherited Aunt Simona's teeth."
That was quite enough to send me into the giggles.
"Oh, I am terrible!" And she rolled her eyes in mock-penitence. "However could I be so unkind as to
mention Aunt Simona's teeth! I may have no jam with tea tonight." Her lovely eyes twinkled. "Now do be
a good child and get me some clean bottles for this lotion I've just made for Mistress Chandler."
Nonetheless, I never heard anyone, not even Father, refer to Mother's ministrations as failings. Except
perhaps Aunt Simona, who had more than large, protruding front teeth to make her unlovable. Mother
also had an unerring ability to know who was speaking from the heart, telling the truth, and who might be
unwilling to own up to the consequences of his or her actions. Father would invariably delay his
magisterial sittings until she could join him, though her participation was confined to sitting quietly at one
end of the table. Strangers would try to prevaricate or settle blame elsewhere, but she was never
deceived in any particular. She and Father must have worked out some sort of private signals, for she
never spoke at these sessions, merely listened. Father was the one who pounced on the culprit and