
was punching him and clawing him and kicking at him and he was barely noticing. This . . . thing he meant
to do, it was really going to happen. To her. Daughter of a cop and a Special Forces veteran, a man and
woman generous with their teaching, who never wanted their daughter to be a rape or murder statistic.
Jeannie could pick a lock and knock out most men with one punch. But she couldn't stop this man from
taking her by force. Never mind the fact that her mind kept shrieking that this wasn't happening to her,
this was not, was not, wasnot. It was.
"Don't cry," he begged, and she could feel his hands shaking as he gathered her against him. "We'll be
done soon. It won't hurt. I'm so sorry to scare you."
"Please don't," she whispered, hating the way she sounded—so helpless, so frightened—but unable to
do anything about it. "Please don't do this."
He groaned again and squeezed her in a rough hug. "I have to. I'm not mated, I don't have any control
over this, just like later I won't have any control over—but you don't believe me, so we won't talk about
that." His voice was still soothing, and now his hands were beneath her, stroking her back, forcing her
chest up, and his mouth was buried in her throat, kissing and licking and even—very gently—biting.
She could hear his breathing roughen in the dark, heard another rip as her skirt was torn. She
remembered herself and struck out at him again, blindly, connecting hard but with no apparent effect. He
shredded her linen skirt like it was paper . . . Christ, he was strong! But his hands on her bare flesh were
gentle, almost languid. They were everywhere, stroking her skin, sliding across her limbs, and she felt her
nipples harden so much it was almost painful. When his lips brushed across one she almost wept with
relief, even as she was pushing against his shoulders with all her strength. He rubbed his cheek against
that same nipple, his stubble rasping across the sensitive bud, and her fingers curled into fists so she
wouldn't touch him with tenderness. She couldn't give in to him, no matter how—
Stubble?
He had been clean shaven two minutes ago.
She shoved that thought away, hard. His rough tongue swept across her nipples, a blessed distraction
that made her want to scream, made her want him, and she hated wanting him. She tried to remind
herself that this man was raping her, but the only thing she could really understand was that he was
making her feel as no one had ever made her feel. She was no stranger to sex, but the only man she had
ever been intimate with was her college boyfriend, and that was almost three years ago.
In the back of her mind, a constant refrain: this isn't happening. It's not real. Ten minutes ago I was on
my way home; now I'm having sex in the dark with a stranger. Thus, this is a dream. It can't be
happening,ergo it's not happening. Tempting to believe that voice, to give in to the pleasure he could so
skillfully offer her, to . . .
She realized she hadn't hit him in quite a few seconds. That she no longer wanted him to stop. That
traitorous thought alone galvanized her into raining more blows on his head, until he caught her wrists and
pinned them above her head with one hand.
"Enough," he said hoarsely, and she cringed, wondering if he was going to hit her back. "I don't blame
you one bit, but . . . enough, Jeannie."
He pinned her knees apart with his own, kept her hands out of his way by keeping them above her head,
and bent to kiss her. He jerked back and her teeth snapped together, bare centimeters from his mouth.