"I'd still be happier if I could convince myself she recognized my face and not my smell, or the
sound my footfalls make."
"You're the only one of us with a beard, Nevil. It doesn't take vast amounts of neural processing
to spot that."
Clavain scratched his chin self-consciously as they stepped through into the shuttle's flight deck.
He liked his beard, even though it was trimmed to little more than gray stubble so that he could slip
a breather mask on without difficulty. It was as much a link to his past as his memories or the
wrinkles Galiana had studiously built into his remodelled body.
"You're right, of course. Sometimes I just have to remind myself how far we've come."
Galiana smiled -- she was getting better at that, though there was still something a little forced
about it -- and pushed her long, gray-veined black hair behind her ears. "I tell myself the same
things when I think about you, Nevil."
"Mm. But I have come some way, haven't I?"
"Yes, but that doesn't mean you haven't got a considerable distance ahead of you. I could have
put that thought into your head in a microsecond, if you allowed me to do so -- but you still insist
that we communicate by making noises in our throats, the way monkeys do."
"Well, it's good practice for you," Clavain said, hoping that his irritation was not too obvious.
They settled into adjacent seats while avionic displays slithered into take-off configuration.
Clavain's implants allowed him to fly the machine without any manual inputs at all, but -- old
soldier that he was -- he generally preferred tactile controls. So his implants obliged, hallucinating a
joystick inset with buttons and levers, and when he reached out to grasp it his hands seemed to close
around something solid. He shuddered to think how thoroughly his perceptions of the real world
were being doctored to support this illusion; but once he had been flying for a few minutes he
generally forgot about it, lost in the joy of piloting.
He got them airborne, then settled the shuttle into level flight towards the fifth ruin that they
would be visiting today. Kilometers of ice slid beneath them, only occasionally broken by a
protruding ridge or a patch of dry, boulder-strewn ground.
"Just a few shacks, you said?"
Galiana nodded. "A waste of time, but we had to check it out."
"Any closer to understanding what happened to them?"
"They died, more or less overnight. Mostly through incidents related to the breakdown of normal
thought -- although one or two may have simply died, as if they had some greater susceptibility to a
toxin than the others."
Clavain smiled, feeling that a small victory was his. "Now you're looking at a toxin, rather than a
psychosis?"
"A toxin's difficult to explain, Nevil."
"From Martin Setterholm's worms, perhaps?"
"Not very likely. Their biohazard containment measures weren't as good as ours -- but they were
still adequate. We've analyzed those worms and we know they don't carry anything obviously
hostile to us. And even if there were a neurotoxin, how would it affect everyone so quickly? Even if
the lab workers had caught something, they'd have fallen ill before anyone else did, sending a
warning to the others -- but nothing like that happened." She paused, anticipating Clavain's next
question. "And no; I don't think that what happened to them is necessarily anything we need worry
about, though that doesn't mean I'm going to rule anything out. But even our oldest technology's a
century ahead of anything they had -- and we have the Sandra Voi to retreat to if we run into
anything the medichines in our heads can't handle."
Clavain always did his best not to think too much about the swarms of sub-cellular machines
lacing his brain -- supplanting much of it, in fact -- but there were times when it was unavoidable.
He still had a squeamish reaction to the idea, though it was becoming milder. Now, though, he
could not help but view the machines as his allies as intimately a part of him as his immune system.