
actually made a specific study of the value, the absolute and utter value, of
children. Only Abramelean magic, with its emphasis on the child as a pure
medium, had come close to addressing the matter.
Of course, self-styled 'black' magicians - a nonsensical distinction - went
after children immediately, but that wasn't because the fools understood
power: they just wanted society to perceive them as evil. So naturally they
chained themselves to society by adapting its definition of evil and then
running after it as fast as they could, practically tripping over their
lolling, panting tongues. Their true ambition wasn't to become magi but to
inspire a serial-killer movie.
The magician scornfully considered himself too sophisticated for such
sophomoric antics. But his years of study and a penchant for intellectual
honesty forced him to admit that, while 'black' and 'white' magic were
specious terms, there did seem to be two differently structured varieties, one
of them considerably more unreliable and dangerous than the other. With a nod
to the labelling of DNA, he thought of them as left- and right-handed magic.
He also had to acknowledge that the practices involved took on a no doubt
coincidental but undeniably moral overtone. There was the unmistakable sense
of contracts agreed to, then broken, of good faith betrayed, of what might
almost be called slyness. There was the unavoidable fact that sacrifice - of
oneself, of others - produced biases to the left or right, and the peculiar
corollary that more sacrifice was necessary to accomplish effects tending
towards the right. To put it in Sunday school terms, the evil way was easier.
Not that there was anything evil about the - to use the word in its chemical
sense - elements of his art. Or anything good, either. They were in themselves
as morally neutral as the sun and the moon. They burned and reflected and went
on their way. While he, far below, horribly small, squinted at their passage
in terror and desire.
How simple if life were a fairy tale. A supernatural servant -Come, Puck! Fly,
Ariel! - flits in an instant to the pale moon and returns with a cool ivory
salve that at one touch shrinks his wound away to the condition of never-was.
There isn't even a scar. Where the pain boiled and spat there is now sweet
calm, and peace fills him like light. He often imagines this. He often wonders
how he can imagine something he has never, never felt.
This is part of his gentleness towards the children. He believes that they
feel it. Possibly not: the private sufferings of childhood can be terrible.
But he suspects they do, that they know. It's something in their eyes. Some
clarity. Some grace. They are not yet sullied.
Which is why, of course, they're so valuable. It's another example of the
queer way morality appears to intrude into what he knows is simply a hard
science. The peculiar innocence of childhood clearly has a special organic
reality in the brain, a chemical composition that enables the electrochemical
field - the energy - to manifest almost without resistance and so achieve such
impressive power. A child is a near-frictionless conductor. The old Abramelean
term is perfect: a child is a fabulous medium.
The magician was not, to be quite honest, certain this was true of all
children - but that was a line of thought he preferred not to pursue. It was
nothing to his purposes, anyway. He had no intention of working with children.
Adults, obviously, were another matter.
PART ONE