Mercedes Lackey - Last Herald Mage 2 - Magic's Promise

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Mercedes Lackey
Last Herald Mage 02
Magic’s Promise
Dedicated to:
Elizabeth (Betsy) Wollheim
Who said - ”Go for it”
One
The blue leather saddlebags and a canvas pack, all a-bulging with filthy
clothing and miscellaneous gear, landed in the corner of Vanyel's room with
three dull thuds. The lute, still in its padded leather case, slithered over the
back of one of the two overstuffed chairs and landed with a softer pumph, to
rest in the cradle of the worn red seat cushion. Once safely there it sagged,
leaning over sideways like a fat, drunken child. The dark leather lute case
glowed dully in the mid-morning sun still coming in the single eastward-facing
window. Two years of mistreatment had not marred the finish too much,
although the case was scuffed here and there, and had been torn and
remended with tiny, careful stitches along the belly.
Vanyel grimaced at the all-too-visible tear. Torn? No, no tear would be
that even. Say cut, or slashed and it would be nearer the truth. Pray nobody
else notices that.
Better the lute case than me ... that came closer than I really want to think
about. I hope Savil never gets a good look at it. She'd know what that meant,
and she'd have a cat.
Herald-Mage Vanyel took the other chair gracelessly, dropping all his
weight at once into the embrace of comfortable upholstered arms.
Home at last. Havens, I sound like the pack hitting the corner.
“O-o-oh.” Vanyel leaned back, feeling every muscle in his body crying out
with long-ignored aches and strains. His thoughts fumbled their way into his
conscious mind through a fog of utter exhaustion. He wanted, more than
anything, to close his gritty eyes. But he didn't dare, because the moment he
did, he'd fall asleep.
Someday I'm going to remember I'm not sixteen anymore, and keep in
mind that I can't stay up till all hours, then rise with the dawn, and not pay for
it. A few moments ago his Companion Yfandes had fallen asleep, standing
up in the stable, while he was grooming her. They'd started out on this last leg
of their journey long before dawn this morning, and had pushed their limits,
eating up the last dregs of their strength just to get to the sanctuary of “home”
the sooner.
Gods. If only I would never have to see the Karsite Border again.
No chance of that. Lord and Lady, if you love me, just give me enough
time to get my wind back. That's all I ask. Time enough to feel like a human
again, and not a killing machine.
The room smelled strongly of soap and the beeswax used to polish the
furniture and wall paneling. He stretched, listening to his joints crack, then
blinked at his surroundings.
Peculiar. Why doesn't this feel like home? He pondered for a moment, for
it seemed to him that his modest, goldenoak-paneled quarters had the
anonymous, overly-neat look of a room without a current occupant. I suppose
that's only logical, he thought reluctantly. They haven't been occupied, much.
I've been living out of my packs for the last year, and before that I was only
here for a couple of weeks at a time at most. Gods.
It was a comfortable, warm-and quite average-room. Like any one of a
dozen he'd tenanted lately, when he'd had the luxury of a guest room in some
keep or other. Sparsely furnished with two chairs, a table, a desk and stool,
and a wardrobe, a curtained, canopied bed in the corner. That bed was
enormous-his one real indulgence: he tended to toss restlessly when-and if-
he slept.
He smiled wryly, thinking how more than one person had assumed he'd
wanted that particular bed for another reason entirely. They'd never believe it
if I told them Savil gets more erotic exercise than I do. Oh, well. Maybe it's a
good thing I don't have a lover; he'd wake up black and blue. Always
assuming I didn't strangle him by accident during a nightmare.
But other than that bed, the room was rather plain. Only one window, and
that one without much of a view. It certainly wasn't the suite he could have
commanded-
But what good is a suite when I hardly see Haven, much less my own
room?
He put his feet up on the low, scarred table between the chairs, in
defiance of etiquette. He could have requisitioned a footstool-
But somehow I never think of it until I'm five leagues down the road
headed out. There's never enough time for-for anything. Not since Elspeth
died, anyway. And gods-please let me be wrong about Randale.
His eyes blurred; he shook his head to clear them. Only then did he see
the pile of letters lying beside his feet, and groaned at the all-too-familiar seal
on the uppermost one. The seal of Withen, Lord of Forst Reach and Vanyel's
father.
Twenty-eight years old, and he still makes me feel fifteen, and in disgrace.
Why me? he asked the gods, who did not choose to answer. He sighed again,
and eyed the letter sourly. It was dauntingly thick.
Hellfire. It-and every other problem-can damned well wait until after I've
had a bath. A bath, and something to eat that doesn't have mold on it, and
something to drink besides boiled mud. Now, did I leave anything behind the
last time I was here that was fit to wear?
He struggled to his feet and rummaged in the wardrobe beside his bed,
finally emerging with a shirt and breeches of an old and faded blue that had
once been deep sapphire. Thank the gods. Not Whites, and I won't be
wearing Whites when I get home. It's going to be so nice to wear something
that doesn't stain when you look at it. (Unfair, nagged his conscience-properly
treated, the uniform of Heraldic Whites was so resistant to dirt and stains that
the non-Heralds suspected magic. He ignored the insistent little mental voice.)
Although I don't know what I'm going to do for uniforms. Dear Father would
hardly have known his son, covered in mud, stubbled, ashes in his hair.
He emptied the canvas pack on the floor and rang for a page to come and
take the mishandled uniforms away to be properly dealt with. They were in
exceedingly sad shape; stained with grass and mud, and blood-some of it his
own-some were cut and torn, and most were nearly worn-out.
He'd have taken one look and figured I'd been possessed. Not that the
Karsites didn't try that, too. At least near-possession doesn't leave stains . . .
not on uniforms, anyway. What am I going to do for uniforms? Oh, well-worry
about that after my bath.
The bathing room was at the other end of the long, wood-paneled, stone-
floored hallway; at mid-morning there was no one in the hall, much less
competing for the tubs and hot water. Vanyel made the long trudge in a half-
daze, thinking only how good the hot water would feel. The last bath he'd had-
except for the quick one at the inn last night-had been in a cold stream. A very
cold stream. And with sand, not soap.
Once there, he shed his clothing and left it in a heap on the floor, filled the
largest of the three wooden tubs from the copper boiler, and slid into the hot
water with a sigh-
-and woke up with his arms draped over the edges and going numb, his
head sagging down on his chest, and the water lukewarm and growing colder.
A hand gently touched his shoulder.
He knew without looking that it had to be a fellow Herald-if it hadn't been,
if it had even been someone as innocuous as a strange page, Vanyel's tightly-
strung nerves and battle-sharpened reflexes would have done the
unforgivable. He'd have sent the intruder through the wall before he himself
had even crawled out of the depths of sleep. Probably by nonmagical means,
but-magical or nonmagical, he suddenly realized that he could easily hurt
someone if he wasn't careful.
He shivered a little. I'm hair triggered. And that's not good.
“Unless you plan on turning into a fish-man,” Herald Tantras said, craning
his head around the partition screening the tub from the rest of the bathing
room and into Vanyel's view with cautious care, “you'd better get out of that
tub. I'm surprised you didn't drown yourself.”
“So am I.” Vanyel blinked, tried to clear his head of cobwebs, and peered
over his shoulder. “Where did you pop out of?''
“Heard you got back a couple of candlemarks ago, and I figured you'd
head here first.” Tantras chuckled. “I know you and your baths. But I must
admit I didn't expect to find you turning yourself into a raisin.”
The dark-haired, dusky Herald came around the side of the wooden
partition with an armload of towels. Vanyel watched him with a half-smile of
not-too-purely artistic appreciation; Tantras was as graceful and as handsome
as a king stag in his prime. Not shay'a'chern, but a good friend, and that was
all too rare.
And getting rarer, Vanyel thought soberly. Though, Havens, I haven't
exactly had my fill of romantic companionship either, lately . . . well, celibacy
isn't going to kill me. Not by any stretch of the imagination. Gods, I should
apply for the priesthood.
There was concern in the older Herald's deep, soft eyes. “You don't look
good, Van. I figured you'd be tired-but from the way you passed out here-it
must have been worse out there than I thought.”
“It was bad,” Vanyel said shortly, reluctant to discuss the past year. Even
for the most powerful Herald-Mage in the Circle, holding down the positions of
five other Herald-Mages while they recovered from magical attack, drainage,
and shock was not a mission he wanted to think about for a long while, much
less repeat. He soaped his hair, then ducked his head under the water to
rinse it.
“So I heard. When I saw you playing dead in the tub, I sent a page up to
your room with food and wine and sent another one off for some of my spare
uniforms, since we're about the same size.''
“Name the price, it's yours,” Vanyel said gratefully, levering himself out of
the tub with a groan and accepting the towel Tantras held out to him. “I have
nothing worth wearing right now in the way of uniforms.”
“Lord and Lady-” the other Herald swore, looking at him with shock. “What
have you been doing to yourself?”
Vanyel paused in his vigorous toweling, looked down, and was a little
surprised himself at the evidence of damage. He'd always been lean-but now
he was whipcord and bone and nothing else. Then there were the scars- knife
and sword scars, a scoring of parallel claw marks on his chest where that
demon had tried to remove his heart. Burn marks, too-he was striped from
neck to knee with three thin, white lines where mage-lightning had gotten
through his shields. And there were a few other scars that were souvenirs of
his bout with a master of mage-fire.
“My job. Living on the edge. Trying to convince the Karsites that I was five
Herald-Mages. Playing target.” He shrugged dismissively. “That's all. Nothing
any of you wouldn't have done if you could have.”
“Gods, Van,” Tantras replied, with a hint of guilt. “You make me feel like a
shirker. I hope to hell it was worth what you went through.”
Vanyel compressed his lips into a tight line. “I got the bastard that got
Mardic and Donni. And you can spread that as official.”
Tantras closed his eyes for a moment, and bowed his head. “It was worth
it,” he said faintly.
Vanyel nodded. “Worth every scar. I may have accomplished something
else; that particular necromancer had a flock of pet demons and I turned them
back on Karse when I killed him.” He smiled, or rather, stretched his mouth a
little. “I hope it taught the Karsites a lesson. I hope they end up proscribing
magic altogether on their side of the Border. If you can believe anything out of
Karse, there's rumor that they're doing just that.”
Tantras looked up again. “Hard on the Gifted-” he ventured.
Vanyel didn't answer. He was finding it very hard to feel sorry for anyone
on the Karsite side of the Border at the moment. It was uncharitable, un-
Heraldic, but until certain wounds healed-and not the physical ones-he was
inclined to be uncharitable.
“There's more silver in your hair, too,” Tantras observed, head to one side.
Vanyel made a face, just as glad of the change in subject. “Node-magic.
Every time I tap into it, more of my roots go white. Moondance k'Treva was
pure silver by the time he was my age; I guess I'm more resistant.” He smiled,
it was faint, but a real smile this time. “One nice thing; all those white hairs
give me respect I might not otherwise get!”
He finished drying himself and wrapped the towel around his waist.
Tantras grimaced again-probably noting the knife wound on his back-and
handed him another towel for his hair.
“You already paid that forfeit, by the way” he said, plainly trying to lighten
the conversation.
Vanyel stopped toweling off his hair and raised an eyebrow.
“You stood duty for me last Sovvan.”
Vanyel clamped down on the sudden ache of loss and shrugged again.
You know you get depressed when you’re tired, fool. Don't let it sink you. “Oh,
that. Any time, Tran. You know I don't like Sovvan-night celebrations, I can't
handle the memorial services, and I don't like to be alone, either. Standing
relay duty was as good as anything else to keep my mind off things.”
He was grateful when Tantras didn't press the subject. “Think you can
make it to your room all right?” the other asked. “I said you don't look good; I
mean it. Falling asleep in the tub like that-it makes me wonder if you're going
to pass out in the hall.”
Vanyel produced something more like a dry cough than a laugh. “It's
nothing about a week's worth of sleep won't cure,” he replied. “And I'm sorry I
won't be able to stand relay for you this year, but I have the Obligatory
Familial Visit to discharge. I haven't been home in- gods, four years. And even
then I didn't stay for more than a day or two. They're going to want me to
make the long stay I've been promising. There's a letter from my father
waiting for me that's probably reminding me of just that fact.”
“Parents surely know how to load on the guilt, don't they? Well, if you're
out of reach, Randale won't find something for you to do-but is that going to
be rest?” Tantras looked half-amused and half-worried. “I mean, Van, that
family of yours-”
“They won't come after me when I'm sleeping-which I fully intend to do a
lot of.'' He pulled on his old, clean clothing, reveling in the feel of clean, soft
cloth against his skin, and started to gather up his things. “And the way I feel
right now, I'd just as soon play hermit in my rooms when I get there-”
“Leave that stuff,” Tantras interrupted. “I'll deal with it. You go wrap
yourself around a decent meal. You don't look like you've had one in months.”
“I haven't. They don't believe in worldly pleasures down there. Great
proponents of mortification of the flesh for the good of the spirit.” Vanyel
looked up in time to catch Tantras' raised eyebrow. He made a tragic face. “I
know what you're thinking. That, too. Especially that. Gods. Do you have any
idea what it was like, being surrounded by all those devastatingly handsome
young men and not daring to so much as flirt with one?”
“Were the young ladies just as devastatingly attractive?” Tantras asked,
grinning.
“I would say so-given that the subject's fairly abstract for me.”
“Then I think I can imagine it. Remind me to avoid the Karsite Border at all
costs.”
Vanyel found himself grinning back-another real smile, and from the heart.
“Tran, gods-I'm glad to see you. Do you know how long it's been since I've
been able to talk freely to someone? To joke, for Lady's sake? Since I was
around people who don't wince away when I'm minus a few clothes?”
“Are you on about that again?” Tantras asked, incredulously. “Do you
really think that people are nervous around you because you're shaych?”
“I'm what?” Van asked, startled by the unfamiliar term.
“Shaych. Short for that Hawkbrother word you and Savil use. Don't know
where it came from, just seems like one day everybody was using it.” Tantras
leaned back against the white-tiled wall of the bathing room, folding his arms
across his chest in a deceptively lazy pose. “Maybe because you're as
prominent as you are. Can't go around calling the most powerful Herald-Mage
in the Circle a 'pervert,' after all.” He grinned. “He might turn you into a frog.”
Vanyel shook his head again. “Gods, I have been out of touch to miss that
little bit of slang. Yes, of course because I'm shay'a'chern, why else would
people look at me sideways?”
“Because you scare the hell out of them,” Tantras replied, his smile fading.
“Because you are as powerful as you are; because you're so quiet and so
solitary, and they never know what you're thinking. Havens, these days half
the Heralds don't even know you're shaych; it's the Mage-Gift that makes
them look at you sideways. Not that anybody around here cares about your
bedmates a quarter as much as you seem to think. They're a lot more worried
that-oh-a bird will crap on you and you'll level the Palace.”
“Me?” Vanyel stared at him in disbelief.
“You. You've spent most of the last four or five years in combat zones. We
know your reflexes are hypersensitive. Hellfire, that's why I came in here to
wake you up instead of sending a page. We know what you can do. Van,
nobody I've ever heard of was able to take the place of five Herald-Mages by
himself! And the very idea of one person having that much power at his beck
and call scares most people witless!”
Vanyel was caught without a reply; he stared at Tantras with the towel
hanging limply from his hands.
“I'm telling you the plain truth, Van. I wish you'd stop wincing away from
people with no cause. It's not your sexual preferences that scare them, it's
you. Level the Palace, hell-they know you could level Haven if you wanted to-”
Vanyel came out of his trance of astonishment. “What do they think I am?”
he scoffed, picking up his filthy shirt.
“They don't know; they haven't the Mage-Gift and most of them weren't
trained around Herald-Mages. They hear stories, and they think of the Mage
Wars-and they remember that once, before there was a Valdemar, there was
a thriving land to the far south of us. Now the Dhorisha Plains are there-a very
large, circular crater. No cities, no sign there ever was anything, not even two
stones left standing. Nothing but grass and nomads. Van, leave that stuff; I'll
pick up after you.”
“But-” Vanyel began to object.
“Look, if you can spend most of a year substituting for five of us, then one
of us can pick up after you once in a while.” Tantras took the wet towels away
from him, cutting off his objections before he could make them. “Honestly,
Van.”
“If you insist.” He wanted to touch Tantras' mind to see if he really meant
what he said. It seemed a fantastical notion.
But Tran had not invited, and a Herald did not intrude uninvited into
another's mind, not unless there was an overriding need to do so.
“Is ... that how you feel?” he asked in a whisper.
“I'm not afraid of you, but let me tell you, I wouldn't have your powers for
any reward. I'm glad I'm just a Herald and not a Herald-Mage, and I don't
know how you survive it. So just let me spoil you a little, all right?”
Vanyel managed a weak smile, troubled by several things-including that
“just a Herald” business. That implied a division between Heralds and Herald-
Mages that made him very uneasy. “All right, old friend. Spoil me. I'm just tired
enough to let you.”
The fog of weariness came between him and and the corridor, and he was
finding it all he could do to put one foot in front of the other. Lady, bless you
for Tantras. There aren't many even among the Heralds I trained with that will
accept what I am as easily as he does. Whether it's that I'm a Mage or that I'm
fey-although I can't see why Mage-powers would frighten someone. We've
had Herald-Mages since there was a Valdemar.
I wish he was as right about that as he thinks he is; I still think it's the
other thing.
The stone was so cool and soothing to his feet; it eased the ache in them
that was the legacy of too many hours-days-weeks-when he had slept fully
clothed, ready to defend the Border in the blackest, bleakest hours of the
night.
That reminder brought bleaker thoughts. Every time he came back to
Haven it was with the knowledge that there would be fewer familiar faces to
greet him. So many friends gone-not that I ever had many to begin with.
Lancir, Mardic and Donni, Regen, Dorilyn. Wulgra, Kat, Pretor. All gone. Not
many left besides Tran. There's- Jays. Savil. Andy, and he's a Healer.
Erdane, Breda, a couple of the other Bards. How can I be anything but
solitary? Every year I'm more alone.
True to Tantras' promise, Vanyel found an overflowing plate waiting for
him beside the pile of letters. It held a pair of meat pies, soft white cheese,
and apples, and beside the generous plate of food was an equally generous
pitcher of wine.
I'd better be careful with that stuff. I'm not used to it anymore, and I bet it'll
go straight to my head.
He stifled a groan as he sagged down into the empty chair, poured a
goblet of wine, then picked up the topmost letter. He broke the seal on it,
gritted his teeth, and started in.
To Herald-Mage Vanyel from Lord Withen Ashkevron of Forst Reach: My
dear Son-
Vanyel nearly dropped the letter in surprise, and reread the salutation to
be certain that his eyes hadn't played tricks on him.
Great good gods. “My dear Son?” I haven't been “dear,” much less “Son”
for-years! I wonder what happened-
He took a long breath and continued.
Though you might find it difficult to believe, I am pleased and grateful that
you are going to be able to find the time for an extended visit home. Despite
our differences, and some hard words between us, I am very proud of my
Herald-Mage son. I may not care for some aspects of your life, but I respect
your intelligence and good sense. I confess, Vanyel, that your old father has
need of some of that good sense. I need your help in dealing with your brother
Mekeal.
Vanyel nodded to himself with cynicism. Now we come to it.
He has made some excessively poor judgments since I turned over the
management of some of the lands to him, but this spring he has outdone
himself. He's taken the cattle-good, solid income-producing stock-off Long
Meadow and installed sheep down there instead!
Vanyel chuckled. Whoever Withen had roped into being his scribe on this
letter had reproduced his father's tones perfectly. He could feel the indignation
rising from the page.
And as for that so-called “Shin'a'in warsteed” he bought-and a more ill-
tempered, ill-favored beast I never saw-the less said, the better! All these
years I spent in building up the Forst Reach line-and he'll undo it all with one
unmanageable stud! I feel sure he'll listen to you; you're a Herald-the King
himself trusts your judgment. The boy has me ready to throw him down the
blamed well!
Vanyel shifted a little and reached for a wedge of cheese. This letter was
proving to be a lot more enlightening than he'd had any reason to expect.
This is no time for Meke to be mucking about; not when there may be
trouble across the Border. Maybe you remember that alliance marriage
between Deveran Remoerdis of Lineas and Ylyna Mavelan of Baires? The
one that brought a halt to the Linean-Baires war, and that brought that
minstrel through here that you were so taken with as a boy? It doesn't seem
to be working out. There've been rumors for years that the oldest child was a
bastard-now Deveran seems to have given substance to those rumors; he's
disinherited the boy in favor of the next in line. In some ways I can't blame him
too much; even if the lad didn't look so much like his uncle-I've seen both the
boy and the man, and the resemblance is uncanny-the rumors alone would
have been enough to make his inheritance shaky. I wouldn't trust that entire
Mavelan family, frankly. A pack of wizardly snakes, the lot of them, the only
time they stop striking at each other is when they take on an outsider. I only
thank the gods that they've stayed at each other's throats all this time. But
there've been some nasty noises out of them about Tashir's disinheritance
and if it gets to be more than noises, we may have trouble across the Border.
Your brother is all fired up for a war, by the way. Gods, that is the last thing
we need. I just thank the Lady that Randale had the good sense to send a
plain Herald into Lineas as envoy, and not a Herald-Mage. A good solid
Herald might be able to keep this from growing into another feud like the one
the marriage was supposed to stop in the first place. The Lineans will certainly
be far more inclined to listen to a plain Herald; they don't trust anything that
smacks of wizardry, and given what the Mavelans did to them, who can blame
them ?
Vanyel bit his lip, the half-eaten scrap of cheese dangling forgotten from
his fingers. Withen was showing a great deal more political astuteness than
he'd ever given his father credit for. But this business in Lineas -
Please, he sent up a silent prayer. Not now -
It's evidently worrisome enough that Randale sent your sister Lissa and
her Guard Company to keep a cross-Border eye on the Mavelans. You'd
know what that would mean better than your old father, I think. If we're lucky
and things stay calm, perhaps she can slip off for a few days' visit herself. I
know you'd both like that. By the way - I hope you aren't planning on bringing
any of your -friends-home with you, are you? You know it would upset your
mother. You wouldn't want to upset your mother. By the hand of Radevel
Ashkevron and my seal, Lord Withen Ashkevron.
Vanyel grimaced, dropped the letter back down on the table, and reached
for the wine to take the bitter taste of those last words out of his mouth. He
held the cool metal of the goblet to his forehead for a moment, an automatic
reaction to a pain more emotional than physical.
:He doesn't mean to hurt, Chosen.: Yfandes' mind-voice touched the
bitterness, but could not soothe it.
:Awake again, dearling? You should sleep-:
:Too much noise,: she objected. .'Equitation lessons, and I'm too tired to
find a quiet corner of the Field. I'll just stand here by the stable and let the sun
bake my sore muscles and wait for the babies to go away. Your father truly
does not mean to hurt you.:
Vanyel sighed, and picked up a meat pie, nibbling the flaky crust listlessly.
:I know that. It doesn't stop it from hurting. If I weren't so tired, it probably
wouldn 't hurt as much. If I weren't so tired, it might even be funny,: He
swallowed another gulp of wine, painfully aware that even the simple act of
chewing was becoming an effort He put the pie down.
:You have nothing left,: she stated. :No reserves at all. :
:That's ridiculous, love. It's just that last push we made. And if I haven't
anything left, then neither have you-:
:Not true. I may be spent physically, but you are spent emotionally,
magically, mentally. Chosen, beloved, you have not spared yourself since
Elspeth Peacemaker died.:
:That's because nobody had a choice,: he reminded her, reaching for a
piece of cheese, but holding it up and staring at it, not eating it, seeing other
times and places.
:Everybody else has been pushed just as hard. The moment poor
Randale took the throne that fragile peace she had made for us fell to pieces.
We had no warning it was going to come to that. Mardic and Donni-:
The cold hand of grief choked his throat. The lifebonded couple who had
been such steadfast friends and supporters to him had been two of the first
victims of the Karsite attacks. He could feel the echo of his grief in the
mourning of Yfandes' mind-voice.
:Poor children. Goddess hold them-:
:'Fandes - at least they died together. I - could wish-: he cut off the thought
before he could distress her. He contemplated the white wedge of cheese in
his hand as if he had never seen anything like it, and then blinked, and began
nibbling at it, trying to force the food around the knot of sorrow blocking his
throat. He had to eat. He'd been surviving on handfuls of parched corn, dried
fruit, and dried beef for too long. He had to get his strength back. It wouldn't
be long before Randale would need him again. Well, all he really needed was
a couple of weeks of steady meals and sleep. . . .
:You ask too much of yourself.:
:Who, me? Strange thoughts from a Companion. Who was it who used to
keep nagging me about duty?: He tried to put a measure of humorous teasing
into his own mind-voice, but it felt flat.
:But you cannot be twenty places at once, Chosen. You are no longer
thinking clearly. :
The cheese had finally migrated inside him, and most of the lump in his
throat was gone. He sighed and reached for the meat pie again. With enough
wine to help, he might be able to get that down, too.
The trouble was, 'Fandes was right. For the past few months he'd been
reduced to a level where he really wasn't thinking much at all-just
concentrating on each step as it came, and trying to survive it. It had been like
climbing a mountain at the end of a long and grueling race; just worrying
about one handhold at a time. Not thinking about the possibility of falling, and
not able to think about what he'd do when he got to the top. If he got to the
top. If there was a top.
Stupid, Herald. Looking at the bark and never noticing the tree was about
to fall on you.
The sun coming in his window had crept down off the chair and onto the
floor, making a bright square on the brown braided rug. He chewed and
swallowed methodically, not really tasting what he was eating, and stared at
the glowing square, his mind going blank and numb.
:Randale uses you beyond your strength, because of the nodes,: Yfandes
said accusingly, breaking into his near - trance. :You should say something.
He'd stop if he realized what he was doing to you. If you were like other
Heralds, unable to tap them-:
:If I were like other Heralds, the Karsites would be halfway to Haven now,
instead of only holding the disputed lands,: he replied mildly. :Dearest, there is
no choice. I lost my chance at choices a long time ago. Besides, I'm not as
badly off as you think. All I need is a bit of rest and I'll be fine. We're damned
lucky I can use the nodes- and that I don't need to rest to recharge.:
:Except that you must use your power to focus and control-:
He shook his head. :Beloved, I appreciate what you're, telling me, but this
isn't getting us anywhere. I have to do what I'm doing; I'm a Herald. It's what
any of the others would do in my place. It's what 'Lendel-:
Grief-he fought it, clenching his hand hard on the arm of his chair as he
willed his emotions into control. Control yourself, Herald. This is just because
you're tired, it's maudlin, and it doesn't do you or anyone else any good.
:I could wish you were less alone. :
:Don't encourage me in self-pity, love. It's funny, isn't it?: he replied, his
lips twitching involuntarily, though not with amusement. :Dear Father seems to
think I've been seducing every susceptible young man from here to the
Border, and I've been damned near celibate. The last was-when?: The weeks,
the months, they all seemed to; blur together into one long endurance trial. A
brief moment of companionship, then a parting; inevitable, given his duties
and Jonne's.
:Three years ago,: Yfandes supplied, immediately. :That rather sweet
Guardsman.:
Vanyel remembered the person, though not the time.
“Hello. You’re The Herald-Mage, aren't you ?''
Vanyel looked up from the map he was studying, and smiled. He couldn't
help it-the diffident, shy smile the Guardsman wore begged to be answered.
“Yes-are you-''
“Guardsman Jonne. Your guide. I was born not half a league from here. “
The guileless expression, the tanned face and thatch of hair, the tiny net of
humor lines about the thoughtful hazel eyes, all conspired to make Vanyel like
this man immediately.
“Then you, friend Jonne, are the direct answer to my prayers,” he said.
Only later, when they were alone, did he learn what other prayers the
Guardsman had an answer for-
:Jonne. Odd for such a tough fighter to be so diffident, even gentle.
Though why he should have been shy, when he was five years older and had
twice my -uh- experience-:
:Your reputation, beloved. A living legend came down off his pedestal and
looked to him for company.: Yfandes sent him an image of a marble saint -
statue hopping out of its niche and wriggling its eyebrows in a come - hither
look. There was enough of a tired giggle in her mind-voice to get an equally
tired chuckle out of him. But he sobered again almost immediately. :And that
lasted how long? Two months? Three? Certainly not more.:
:You were busy - you had duties-both of you. It was your duties that
parted you.:
:I was,: he replied bitterly, :a fool. More than duties would have parted us
in time. I know exactly what I'm trying to do-when I admit it to myself. I'm
trying to replace 'Lendel. I can't; I can't ever, so why do I even bother to try? A
love like that happens once in a lifetime, and I'm not doing myself or my would
- be partners any favor by trying to recreate it. I know it, and once the first
glow wears off, they know it. And it isn't fair to them.:
Silence from Yfandes. There really wasn't much she could say. He was
left to contemplate the inside of his own thoughts, as faint sounds of distant
people and a bit of birdsong drifted in his window.
Damn it, I'm feeling sorry for myself again. Heralds are all lonely; it isn't
just me. We’re different; made different by our Gifts, made even more so by
the Companions, then driven even farther away from ordinary people by this
fanatic devotion to duty of ours. Herald-Mages are one step lonelier than that.
He couldn't help himself; the next thought came automatically, despite his
resolution not to fall into a morass of self - pity. Then there's me. Between the
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