ONE: MARLENE
1.
Marlene had last seen the Solar System when she was a little over one year old.
She didn’t remember it, of course.
She had read a great deal about it, but none of the reading had ever made her
feel that it could ever have been part of her, nor she a part of it.
In all her fifteen years of life, she remembered only Rotor. She had always
thought of it as a large world. It was eight kilometers across, after all. Every once in a
while since she was ten--once a month when she could manage it--she had walked
around it for the exercise, and sometimes had taken the low-gravity paths so she could
skim a little. That was always fun. Skim or walk, Rotor went on and on, with its
buildings, its parks, its farms, and mostly its people.
It took her a whole day to do it, but her mother didn’t mind. She said Rotor was
perfectly safe. “Not like Earth,” she would say, but she wouldn’t say why Earth was not
safe. “Never mind,” she would say.
It was the people Marlene liked least. The new census, they said, would show
sixty thousand of them on Rotor. Too many. Far too many. Everyone of them showing a
false face. Marlene hated seeing those false faces and knowing there was something
different inside. Nor could she say anything about it. She had tried sometimes when she
had been younger, but her mother had grown angry and told her she must never say
things like that.
As she got older, she could see the falseness more clearly, but it bothered her
less. She had learned to take it for granted and spend as much time as possible with
herself and her own thoughts.
Lately, her thoughts were often on Erythro, the planet they had been orbiting
almost all her life. She didn’t know why these thoughts were coming to her, but she
would skim to the observation deck at odd hours and just stare at the planet hungrily,
wanting to be there--right there on Erythro.
Her mother would ask her, impatiently, why she should want to be on an empty
barren planet, but she never had an answer for that. She didn’t know. “I just want to,”
she would say.
She was watching it now, alone on the observation deck. Rotorians hardly ever
came here. They had seen it all, Marlene guessed, and for some reason they didn’t have
her interest in Erythro.
There it was; partly in light, partly dark. She had a dim memory of being held to
watch it swim into view, seeing it every once in a while, always larger, as Rotor slowly
approached all those years ago.
Was it a real memory? After all, she had been getting on toward four then, so it
might be.
But now that memory--real or not--was overlaid by other thoughts, by an
increasing realization ‘of just how large a planet was. Erythro was over twelve thousand
kilometers across, not eight kilometers. She couldn’t grasp that size. It didn’t look that
large on the screen and she couldn’t imagine standing on it and seeing for hundreds--or
even thousands--of kilometers. But she knew she wanted to. Very much.
Aurinel wasn’t interested in Erythro, which was disappointing. He said he had
other things to think of, like getting ready for college. He was seventeen and a half.
Marlene was only just past fifteen. That didn’t make much difference, she thought
rebelliously, since girls developed more quickly.
At least they should. She looked down at herself and thought, with her usual
dismay and disappointment, that somehow she still looked like a kid, short and stubby.
She looked at Erythro again, large and beautiful and softly red where it was lit.
It was large enough to be a planet but actually, she knew, it was a satellite. It circled