
always tired, as well as frightened, and we were all angry with each other most of the time. It was the
same for everybody.
And then the griffin took Felicitas.
Felicitas couldn't talk, but she was my best friend, always, since we were little. I always understood
what she wanted to say, and she understood me, better than anyone, and we played in a special way that
I won't ever play with anyone else. Her family thought she was a waste of food, because no boy would
marry a dumb girl, so they let her eat with us most of the time. Wilfrid used to make fun of the whispery
quack that was the one sound she could make, but I hit him with a rock, and after that he didn't do it
anymore.
I didn't see it happen, but I still see it in my head. She knew not to go out, but she was always just so
happy coming to us in the evening. And nobody at her house would have noticed her being gone. None
of them ever noticed Felicitas.
The day I learned Felicitas was gone, that was the day I set off to see the king myself.
Well, the same night, actually — because there wasn't any chance of getting away from my house or
the village in daylight. I don't know what I'd have done, really, except that my Uncle Ambrose was
carting a load of sheepskins to market in Hagsgate, and you have to start long before sunup to be there
by the time the market opens. Uncle Ambrose is my best uncle, but I knew I couldn't ask him to take me
to the king — he'd have gone straight to my mother instead, and told her to give me sulphur and molasses
and put me to bed with a mustard plaster. He gives his horse sulfur and molasses, even.
So I went to bed early that night, and I waited until everyone was asleep. I wanted to leave a note on
my pillow, but I kept writing things and then tearing the notes up and throwing them in the fireplace, and I
was afraid of somebody waking, or Uncle Ambrose leaving without me. Finally I just wrote, I will come
home soon. I didn't take any clothes with me, or anything else, except a bit of cheese, because I thought
the king must live somewhere near Hagsgate, which is the only big town I've ever seen. My mother and
father were snoring in their room, but Wilfrid had fallen asleep right in front of the hearth, and they always
leave him there when he does. If you rouse him to go to his own bed, he comes up fighting and crying. I
don't know why.
I stood and looked down at him for the longest time. Wilfrid doesn't look nearly so mean when he's
sleeping. My mother had banked the coals to make sure there'd be a fire for tomorrow's bread, and my
father's moleskin trews were hanging there to dry, because he'd had to wade into the stockpond that
afternoon to rescue a lamb. I moved them a little bit, so they wouldn't burn. I wound the clock —
Wilfrid's supposed to do that every night, but he always forgets — and I thought how they'd all be
hearing it ticking in the morning while they were looking everywhere for me, too frightened to eat any
breakfast, and I turned to go back to my room.
But then I turned around again, and I climbed out of the kitchen window, because our front door
squeaks so. I was afraid that Malka might wake in the barn and right away know I was up to something,
because I can't ever fool Malka, only she didn't, and then I held my breath almost the whole way as I ran
to Uncle Ambrose's house and scrambled right into his cart with the sheepskins. It was a cold night, but
under that pile of sheepskins it was hot and nasty-smelling, and there wasn't anything to do but lie still and
wait for Uncle Ambrose. So I mostly thought about Felicitas, to keep from feeling so bad about leaving
home and everyone. That was bad enough — I never really lost anybody close before, not forever —
but anyway it was different.
I don't know when Uncle Ambrose finally came, because I dozed off in the cart, and didn't wake until
there was this jolt and a rattle and the sort of floppy grumble a horse makes when he's been waked up
and doesn't like it — and we were off for Hagsgate. The half-moon was setting early, but I could see the
village bumping by, not looking silvery in the light, but small and dull, no color to anything. And all the
same I almost began to cry, because it already seemed so far away, though we hadn't even passed the
stockpond yet, and I felt as though I'd never see it again. I would have climbed back out of the cart right
then, if I hadn't known better.
Because the griffin was still up and hunting. I couldn't see it, of course, under the sheepskins (and I had