
Would that mean he could lose this pain, this grief? Obi-Wan wondered.
Obi-Wan saw the Lars homestead ahead. He stopped for a moment to make sure that Owen was
not patrolling the perimeter. It was late, the shadows long, the suns slipping behind the hills. Beru and
Owen were always sure to be inside the below-ground compound by dusk.
He walked forward, feeling as much a shadow as the ones that reached out like fingers from the hills.
He bent down, flat against the ground, and looked over the rim into the main courtyard below.
The baby had hair full of sunlight, and it glinted, even in this dusky light. He was laughing as he
crawled after a ball that Beru rolled away from him. Was it Obi-Wan's imagination, or was the boy able
to slow the ball without touching it? If the Force was there — and he knew Luke was Force-sensitive
—he did not know if the boy was aware of it. Not yet. Not for a long time, if ever, without training.
Beru rocked backward from her perch on the door-stop, laughing. Usually, she had something
cooking about now, and she would disappear inside for a few seconds to check on it. Luke would crawl
to the doorway and watch her. He seemed to feel a need to keep her in sight.
Obi-Wan heard Beru's laughter, saw Luke tumbling and laughing with her. He was not even tempted
to smile. Seeing Luke gave him satisfaction, but he had left smiles and laughter behind him, part of
another life.
Satisfaction was enough for him now. He had promised Padme that her children would be safe, and
he had made it so. Leia was growing up on Alderaan, the adopted daughter of Bail Organa, the kindest
and noblest man Obi-Wan knew, and his wife, the Queen. He wished Padme could know that her
children were more than well-cared for — they were loved.
But Padmè — fierce, sad, beautiful Padme —was dead, too.
Owen Lars emerged from the dwelling. That was Obi-Wan's signal to leave. Darkness was falling
fast, and Owen was about to activate the KPR perimeter droids. Obi-Wan lingered for a moment,
watching as Beru pretended to chase Luke inside the dwelling. He saw the light spilling out from the
doorway and could almost feel the gentle heat, almost smell their food.
He turned his back against it and felt the chill against his face. Without anyone noticing, Obi-Wan
Kenobi walked away into the growing darkness.
The next night, Obi-Wan maneuvered through the noisy crowd at the cantina in Mos Eisley. He
journeyed on an eopie through secret trails to the spaceport once a month for supplies, and always under
the cover of darkness. When he did, he always stopped at the cantina. It was a magnet for the worst of
the galaxy — itinerant space pilots, adventurers, criminals. Creatures who greedily supped on gossip and
rumor as well as bantha stew and ale. Obi-Wan needed to keep in touch with what was happening in the
galaxy. He could withdraw, but he had to stay informed.
The Galactic Senate was still operating, but it served more as a discussion group than a governing
body. The Emperor controlled the majority, who simply approved of anything he proposed. Bail Organa
was still there, fighting when and how he could. He refused to give the Emperor the satisfaction of seeing
him resign. Obi-Wan kept up with these happenings, but he resolved to keep his distance from them. He
saw the daily erosion of liberties from afar, as though they had no relation to how he lived his life any