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Above It All
by Robert J. Sawyer
Copyright © 1996 by Robert J. Sawyer
All Rights Reserved
First published in the anthology Dante's Disciples, edited by Peter Crowther
and Edward E. Kramer (White Wolf, February 1996).
Winner of the CompuServe Science Fiction and Fantasy Forum's Sixth Annual
HOMer Award for Best Short Story of the Year.
Rhymes with fear.
The words echoed in Colonel Paul Rackham's head as he floated in
Discovery's airlock, the bulky Manned Maneuvering Unit clamped to his back. Air
was being pumped out; cold vacuum was forming around him.
Rhymes with fear.
He should have said no, should have let McGovern or one of the
others take the spacewalk instead. But Houston had suggested that Rackham do it,
and to demure he'd have needed to state a reason.
Just a dead body, he told himself. Nothing to be afraid of.
There was a time when a military man couldn't have avoided seeing
death -- but Rackham had just been finishing high school during Desert Storm.
Sure, as a test pilot, he'd watched colleagues die in crashes, but he'd never
actually seen the bodies. And when his mother passed on, she'd had a closed
casket. His choice, that, made without hesitation the moment the funeral
director had asked him -- his father, still in a nursing home, had been in no
condition to make the arrangements.
Rackham was wearing liquid-cooling long johns beneath his spacesuit,
tubes circulating water around him to remove excess body heat. He shuddered, and
the tubes moved in unison, like a hundred serpents writhing.
He checked the barometer, saw that the lock's pressure had dropped
below 0.2 psi -- just a trace of atmosphere left. He closed his eyes for a
moment, trying to calm himself, then reached out a gloved hand and turned the
actuator that opened the outer circular hatch. "I'm leaving the airlock," he
said. He was wearing the standard "Snoopy Ears" communications carrier, which
covered most of his head beneath the space helmet. Two thin microphones
protruded in front of his mouth.
"Copy that, Paul," said McGovern, up in the shuttle's cockpit. "Good
luck."
Rackham pushed the left MMU armrest control forward. Puffs of
nitrogen propelled him out into the cargo bay. The long space doors that
normally formed the bay's roof were already open, and overhead he saw Earth in
all its blue-and-white glory. He adjusted his pitch with his right hand control,
then began rising up. As soon as he'd cleared the top of the cargo bay, the
Russian space station Mir was visible, hanging a hundred meters away, a giant
metal crucifix. Rackham brought his hand up to cross himself.
"I have Mir in sight," he said, fighting to keep his voice calm.
"I'm going over."
Rackham remembered when the station had gone up, twenty years ago in
1986. He first saw its name in his hometown newspaper, the Omaha World Herald.
Mir, the Russian word for peace -- as if peace had had anything to do with its
being built. Reagan had been hemorrhaging money into the Strategic Defense
Initiative back then. If the Cold War turned hot, the high ground would be in
orbit.
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