
atmosphere. He kept looking, head tilted back, as he knelt down to scoop more of the fallen
wood into the bundle he already held against his chest. Whoever was up there had throttled
the engines back from long -- to short-range; that was why the light streak had cut off so
abruptly. The spinner could descend anywhere within a hundred kilometers from this point.
Getting one arm around the bundle, he stood up, turning slowly and listening, though he
knew the vehicle would be right on top of him before he heard it. With his other hand, he
reached inside his jacket and touched the grip of the gun he found there.
Silence, except for the smaller creatures that crept through the mat of dead leaves and
pine needles beneath his feet. Once more, he glanced at the bare night sky, then began the
slow uphill trudge toward the cabin.
"Honey, I'm home."
It was a bad joke; the silence inside was the same as out. Why don't you put the gun to
your head? That'd be just as funny. He pushed the plank door closed with his heel, and
dumped the bundle into the corner by the rusting stove. He'd let the fire go out hours back;
while he'd slept, his exhaled breath had formed ice on the one small window. He'd uncurled
himself from the nest of blankets on the floor -- he always slept next to the black coffin, as
though he could wrap his arm around her shoulders and bring her close to himself, hold her
without killing her, merge his wordless dreaming with hers while the clock hands scraped away
the last minutes of her life.
But instead he slept alone except for his own hand pressed against the machine's cold
metal, as though he could feel through the layers of microcircuitry the glaciated pulse of her
heart, hear the sighing breaths that took hours to complete . . .
Once, nearly a year ago, he'd pulled the cabin's rickety wooden chair beside the coffin,
sat and watched the imperceptible motion of her breast, rising with the microscopic pace of
her oxygen intake. Holding himself as still as possible, leaning forward with his chin braced
against his doubled fists, so he could detect through the coffin's glass lid the slow workings of
her semilife. When he'd sat back, one full cycle of her respiration later, shadows had filled both
the room and the hollow space between his lungs . . .
He got the fire in the stove lit, adjusted the dampers, and stood up. For a moment he
warmed his hands, spine hunched inside the long coat that had served him well enough in the
city but was completely inadequate up here. He rubbed the forest's chill from his bloodless
fingers, then glanced over his shoulder. She was still sleeping, and dying, as he'd left her. As
she would be until he woke her up, not with a kiss, but a minute adjustment inside the coffin's
control panel.
"There--" He spoke aloud. "That's better." Not to hear his own voice in the silence, but
to remember hers. What it had sounded like. What it would sound like, the next time. On the
window glass the crystals of ice melted into cold tears.
"Let's see how you're doing." Yeah, you're a riot, all right. His hands had unstiffened
enough that he could take care of her, the only way that was left to him. He knelt down beside
the black coffin, the way he had in front of the woodstove; the pair of low trestles that he'd
hammered together raised the device off the cabin's unswept floor. With his fingernail he pried
back the panel's edge. "Running a little high on the metabolics . . ." He'd become so familiar
with the workings, the revealed gauges and readouts, that he could monitor them without
bringing over the kerosene lantern from the table. "It's all right," he murmured. As though
leaning down in absolute darkness to find a kiss. "I'll take care of them for you." With one
fingertip, he brought the LED numbers to what they should be, then closed the panel.
On the wall above the coffin, he'd hung a calendar that'd been left behind by the cabin's
previous occupants, whoever they'd been. When he and Rachael had come to this place, there
hadn't even been spiders in the ancient webs along the ceiling. The calendar was way
out-of-date, two decades old, a faded holo shot of the millennium's celebratory riots in New
York's Times Square. It didn't matter; all he used it for was to mark off the days, the interval