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Thanatos nodded, then turned and walked through the wall. As he did so, the scene
reanimated. The struggles of the soul resumed.
Jolie put out a hand and caught the hand region of the soul. "Peace, Orlene, Thanatos is
gone! You do not have to go anywhere you don't want to!"
The struggles diminished. The soul began to assume a belter semblance. "My baby -- "
"Your baby is in Purgatory. I will take you there, if you wish. I am Jolie, your friend of
dreams; do you recognize me now?"
Slowly the recognition came. "My friend of dreams? I begin to remember, but..."
Jolie knew how hard it was to get organized after death;
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she had been through the process herself and had seen it many times in others. Normally a
newly separated soul drifted either Heavenward or Hellward on its own, its direction determined by
the balance of good and evil burdening it, and remained unconscious until arrival. In Heaven it
assumed the form of its lost body and seemed like a living person in a new setting, and angels
came to guide it to its appropriate level. In Hell it also returned to seeming life, but had a
harsher welcome. Thus, to the individual, it seemed as if there were little or no transition
between the last breath of life and appearance in the designated realm of the Afterlife.
But some few were unable to travel directly to a realm, either because of an almost
perfect balance of good and evil or because their business among mortals was unfinished. Thanatos
came to assist the former, while the latter often wandered for some time as ghosts. This had been
the case with Jolie -- and now with Orlene.
"Yes, I am a ghost," she said. "I could not approach you in your waking state for several
reasons, but when you slept and dreamed, I was your friend. You perhaps thought me a mere creature
of your imagination, but this was not the case. I was sent by a friend of your mother to watch
over you, and that I did, until I saw you secure and happy. Now I regret I did not follow you
further, for your life seems to have been destroyed during my brief absence."
"Jolie, my friend of dreams," the soul repeated. "Yes, now it returns. How glad I am to
see you! Will you help me find my baby? I must have him with me!"
"I will help you," Jolie agreed. "But we must talk, to give you time to acclimatize, to
learn the ways of the ghostly existence, so that you may operate with competence and confidence.
Let me guide you to a better setting."
Orlene looked down at her body, to which she still clung. It remained slumped, one hand on
the piano key -- board, looking gaunt and uncomfortable in death. "Are you sure I dare let go? I
won't be launched to Heaven?"
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"I will hold your hand and keep you from Heaven," Jolie said. "Trust me; I love you in a
way you hardly know."
Nervously, Orlene clutched her hand and let go of the body. She did not float away. But
she was not reassured. "Oh, I wish I hadn't killed myself! Yet if I hadn't -- "
"Come, I know a house where we can relax," Jolie said, drawing her toward the wall.
Then the door opened, and there was Orlene's lover, Norton. He stared at the body. "Oh,
Orlene!" he breathed with horror, instantly knowing. "Oh, my love!"
"Oh, my love!" Orlene echoed, appalled. "Oh, why did I do this to you!'' She floated
toward him, arms outstretched.
"He cannot see you," Jolie said, sharing the pain of the situation. "Few mortals know how
to see the supernatural, and few spirits can manifest visibly or audibly to mortals. I can teach
you -- but it will take time. Let him go, Orlene;
that aspect of your existence is over."
"I know," the soul said sadly. "I just can hardly accept it. I wish I had loved him as he
loved me; then I would not have done this awful thing! But my baby -- "
"Leave him; it is all you can do now. Come with me."
Reluctantly, tearfully, Orlene acquiesced. They left Norton staring at the body, and Jolie
guided her through the wall and away.
But as they moved, Jolie thought of her own death, the memory triggered by the recent
scene.. She had died early in the thirteenth century, in southern France, victim of a crusader who
was trying to rape her. Her husband had tried to save her, but the agony of her wound was too
great, and she had begged him to let her die. He had done so, then fled the crusaders, his life
irrevocably altered by that experience. In retrospect she believed that she should have tried
harder to live, so as not to leave her husband desolate, but at the time the physical pain had
been overwhelming. She had been selfish, thinking more of her immediate pain than of his long-term
pain.
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