great Konrad Korzenowski -- the tomb not of his body but of what remained of his personality after
his assassination by radical Naderites.
I connected with the building's memory, used a mouse agent to bypass personal sentries, as
I had decades ago and at least once a year since, and dropped into the encrypted memory store.
_Hello,_ I said.
The presence stirred. Even without a body, it seemed to smile. It was no longer human, half
its character having been destroyed, but it could still interact and share warm memories. What
remained of the great Korzenowski was vulnerably friendly. All of its caution removed, all of its
self-protections destroyed, it could only be one thing -- a giving and occasionally brilliant
friend, ideal for a lonely young child unsure of himself. I kept this secret for one reason:
damaged personalities could not be repaired, by Naderite law. If what remained of Korzenowski were
to be discovered, it would be erased completely.
_Hello, Olmy,_ it answered. _How is the Way?_
An hour later, I cabbed across the city to the mixed Geshel and Naderite "progressive"
neighborhoods, favored by students and Way Defense members. There, in my small apartment, I linked
with city memory, sent my planned locations for the next few days to the corps commanders, and
removed my mutable uniform for purely civilian garb appropriate to the celebration: sky-blue
pants, Earth-brown vest, pale green jacket, and light boots.
I returned to the train station.
As I joined the throng waiting on the platform, I looked for familiar faces and found none.
Four years in service guarding against the Jarts on the extreme frontiers of the Way, four billion
kilometers north of Thistledown, had given my Geshel acquaintances from university time to change
not just partners and philosophies, but body patterns as well. If any of my student friends were
in the crowd, I probably would not recognize them. I did not expect to find many Way Defenders
here.
Except for raccoon stripes of pale blue around my eyes, I was still physically the same as
I had been four years before. Arrogant, full of my own thoughts, headstrong and sometimes
insensitive, judged brilliant by many of my peers and moody by many more -- attractive to women in
that strange way women are attracted to those who might hurt them -- the only child of the most
mannered and gracious of parents, praised frequently and punished seldom, I had reached my
thirtieth year convinced of my courage from a minimum of testing, yet even more convinced there
would be greater tests in store. I had abandoned the faith of my father and, in truth, had never
understood the faith of my mother.
Thistledown, immense as it was, did not seem capable of containing my ambition. I did not
think I was young, and certainly did not feel inexperienced. After all, I had served four years in
Way Defense. I had participated in what seemed at the time to be important actions against the
Jarts...
Yet now, caught up in crowds celebrating the silver anniversary of Thistledown's wedding
with the Way, I seemed an anonymous bubble in a flowing stream, smaller than I had felt among the
stars. What I was about to do dismayed me.
Music and pictures flowed over the largely Geshel crowd, narrative voices telling the
details we all knew, Naderites and Geshels alike, by heart. Twenty-five years before, Korzenowski
and his assistants had completed, connected, and opened the Way. From my childhood, the Way had
beckoned, the only place -- if _place_ it could be called -- likely to provide the tests I craved.
"_In the history of humankind, has there ever been anything more audacious? Issuing from
Thistledown's seventh chamber, the inside (there is no 'outside') of an endless immaterial pipe
fifty kilometers in diameter, smooth barren surface the color of newly-cast bronze, the Way is a
universe turned inside-out, threaded by an axial singularity called the flaw... _
"_And at regular intervals along the surface of the Way, potential openings to other places
and times, histories and realities strung like beads..._"
My parents -- and most of my friends during my early youth -- were devoted Naderites, of
that semi-orthodox persuasion known as Voyagers. They believed it was simple destiny for humankind
to have carved seven chambers out of the asteroid Juno, attached Beckmann drive motors, and
converted the huge planetesimal into a starship, christened Thistledown. They believed -- as did
all but the extreme Naderites -- that it was right and just to transport millions across the vast
between the stars to settle fresh new worlds. Our family had lived for centuries in Alexandria, in
the second and third chambers; we had all been born on Thistledown. We knew no other existence.
They simply did not believe in the creation of the Way. That, virtually all Naderites
agreed, had been an abomination of the Korzenowski and the overly ambitious Geshels.
By releasing the bond between myself and the woman chosen for me in my youth at Ripen, I
would finally end my life as a Naderite.
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