judged. Silver inlaid hilts. Gold clasps on their cloaks. They were young men,
lean, their beards light. But their faces were grave, not jaunty. They were
looking toward something that sobered their youthful spirits. I followed their
gaze and saw a headland not far off, a low treeless rocky rise at the end of a
sandy stretch of beach. Obviously our destination was beyond that promontory.
Where was I? How did I get here? Frantically I ransacked my mind. The last
firm memory I could find was of a beautiful, tall, gray-eyed woman who loved
me and whom I loved. We were... a shudder of blackest grief surged through me.
She was dead.
My mind went spinning, as if a whirlpool had opened in the dark sea and
dragged me down into it. Dead. Yes. There was a ship, a very different ship.
One that traveled not through the water but through the vast emptiness between
stars. I had been on that ship with her. And it exploded. She died. She was
killed. We were both killed.
Yet I lived, sweaty, dirty, my back stinging with welts, on this strangely
primitive oversized canoe heading for an unknown land under a brazen cloudless
sky.
Who am I? With a sudden shock of fright I realized that I could remember
nothing about myself except my name. I am Orion, I told myself. But more than
that I could not recall. My memory was a blank, as if it had been wiped clean,
like a classroom chalkboard being prepared for a new lesson.
I squeezed my eyes shut and forced myself to think about that woman I had
loved and that fantastic star-leaping ship. I could not even remember her
name. I saw flames, heard screams. I held her in my arms as the heat blistered
our skins and made the metal walls around us glow hell-red.
"He's beaten us, Orion," she said to me. "We'll die together. That's the only
consolation we will have, my love."
I remembered pain. Not merely the agony of flesh searing and splitting open,
steaming and cooking even as our eyes were burned away, but the torture of
being torn apart forever from the one woman in all the universes whom I loved.
The whip cracked against my bare back again.
"Harder! Pull harder, you whoreson, or by the gods I'll sacrifice you instead
of a bullock once we make landfall!"
He leaned over me, his scarred face red with anger, and slashed at me again
with the whip. The pain of the lash was nothing. I closed it off without
another thought. I always could control my body completely. Had I wanted to, I
could have snapped this hefty paddle in two and driven the ragged end of it
through the whipmaster's thick skull. But what was the sting of his whip
compared to the agony of death, the hopelessness of loss?
We rowed around the rocky headland and saw a calm sheltered inlet. Spread
along the curving beach were dozens of ships like our own, pulled far up on
the sand. Huts and tents huddled among their black hulls like shreds of paper
littering a city street after a parade. Thin gray smoke issued from cook fires
here and there. A pall of thicker, blacker smoke billowed off in the distance.
A mile or so inland, up on a bluff that commanded the beach, stood a city or