
love to the man who first showed us what dream to have!”
While the AVC registered the power of Dan Fleury’s oratory, Marchand
smiled out on the foggy sea of faces. It was, he thought, almost cruel of
Fleury to put it like that. The threshold of success indeed! How many years
now had they waited on it patiently?—and the door still locked in their faces.
Of course, he thought wryly, they must have calculated that the testimonial
dinner would have to be held soon unless they wanted a cadaver for a guest.
But still . . . He
turned painfully and looked at Fleury, half perplexed. There was something in
his tone. Was there—Could there be— There could not, he told himself firmly.
There was no news, no
breakthrough, no report from one of the wandering ships, no dream come true at
last. He would have been the first to know. Not for anything would they have
kept a thing like that from him. And he did not know that thing.
“—and now,” Fleury was saying, “I won’t keep you from your dinners.
There will be many a long, strong speech to help your digestions afterward, I
promise you! But now let’s eat!”
Laughter. Applause. A buzz and clash of forks.
The injunction to eat did not, of course, include Norman Marchand. He
sat with his hands in his lap, watching them dig in, smiling and feeling just
a touch deprived, with the wry regret of the very old. He didn’t envy the
young people anything really, he told himself. Not their health, their youth,
or their life expectancy. But he envied them the bowls of ice.
He tried to pretend he enjoyed his wine and the huge pink shrimp in
crackers and milk. According to Asa Czerny, who ought to know since he had
kept Marchand alive this long, he had a clear choice. He could eat whatever he
chose, or he could stay alive. For a while. And ever since Czerny had been
good enough, or despairing enough, to give him a maximum date for his life
expectancy, Marchand had in idle moments tried to calculate just how much of
those remaining months he was willing to give up for one really good meal. He
rather believed that when Czerny looked up at him after the weekly medical
checkup and said that only days were left, that he would take those last days
and trade them in for a sauerbraten with potato pancakes and sweet-sour red
cabbage on the side. But that time was not yet. With any kind of luck he still
had a month. Perhaps as much as two.
“I beg your—pardon,” he said, half-turning to the chimpanzee. Even
smithed, the animal spoke so poorly that Marchand had not at first known that
he was being addressed.
He should not have turned.
His wrist had lost its suppleness; the spoon in his hand tilted; the
soggy crackers fell. He made the mistake of trying to move his knee out of the
way—it was bad enough to be old; he did not want to be sloppy—and he moved too
quickly.
The chair was at the very edge of the little platform. He felt himself
going over.
Ninety-six is too old to be falling on your head, he thought; if I
was going to do this sort of thing, I might just as well have eaten some of
those shrimp. . . . But he did not kill himself.
He only knocked himself unconscious. And not for very long at that,
because he began to wake up while they were still carrying him back to his
dressing room behind the stage.
Once upon a time, Norman Marchand had given his life to a hope.
Rich, intelligent, married to a girl of beauty and tenderness, he had
taken everything he owned and given it to the Institute for Colonizing
Extra-Solar Planets. He had, to begin with, given away several million
dollars.
That was the whole of the personal fortune his father had left him, and
it was nowhere near enough to do the job. It was only a catalyst. He had used
it to hire publicity men, fund raisers, investment counselors, foundation